Guys atp idk what to do

Lately it’s been crazy I’ve been in & out hospitals because I keep calling 911 whenever my mind tells me things that are obviously not true the therapist I’m speaking to told me it’s a compulsion, I literally just called 911 after I drank a Starbucks drink I don’t know if you guys know what the dragon fruit refresher is but I was drinking that until I accidentally swallowed those nasty dragon fruits they have in there once I drank it my mind told Me it was a pill and I was trying to stay calm because Starbucks wouldn’t risk they’re business to put drugs in my drink but then there goes the physical sensations I tried sitting with the feeling and then I went into panic and I called 911 they told me I was ok they gave me reassurance I feel so much better but this is only temporary later I will be panicking abt the same thing thinking what I drank or ate was pills AGAIN later I feel reassured and ok but I KNOW later I will panic abt the same thing trying to fight the compulsion because I feel like if I don’t call 911 I’m gonna die 😞 I keep embarrassing myself by calling 911 because my mind is telling me I’m overdosing ughhh

Ihateocd72

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y

This is going to suck for you and I completely understand how you feel because I feel like I’m dying rn too (even though I’m not) it’s the worst feeling ever and it gets worse as you do exposures before it gets better so I feel like I can say that maybe you could try to say “maybe I am overdosing” and try not to call 911. You know you didn’t take any pills, but I know ocd is the most doubtful disorder ever and will make you doubt that. I wouldn’t tell you this if I didn’t currently feel like I was going through hell (do to me resisting my compulsions). I know it hell and suckish because not doing them causes me intense physical pain that feels deadly 😒 but Believe me! Not doing them makes your brain go haywire, but it’s worth it in the end if it means we recover. but it will get better. The reassurance is only making it worse for you. :(

Izzy Panobianco

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y

The dragonfruit refresher has caffeine, it might have set off your OCD. Maybe you could try giving your phone to someone trusted temporarily so that you can’t call 911 without asking them for it? Stay strong — if you hold off from compulsive behavior, your fear will decrease.

Asiameikaa

Date posted: 2y

@Izzy Panobianco I’ll try , thank you 🤍

🫧🩷🪷

Date posted: 2y

Wow this sounds like a horrible compulsion to have 😭 I hope you’re able to work through this soon and find some peace of mind

Asiameikaa

Date posted: 2y

@ocdaintit Yes it rlly is , I’m trying to work myself out of it! ,and thank you

revxskates

Date posted: 23w

Losing it maybe lols

I came across a video that was talking about a theory and it was something me and my friend were talking about 2 years ago and were tweaking about and i was explaining it to my girlfriend just now and them i started to get anxiety about stuff not being real and my world isn’t what it seems to be and that there stuff out there and then i started to have religious OCD and then it went to how Im scared of the world being fake or suffering from a mental illness like schizophrenia or something and stuff and I’ve been having OCD about my girlfriend being a government agent or that government agents are watching me cause I’m scared of schizophrenia and thinking like them i don’t think i actually think it i kinda just go to my girlfriend isn’t a government agent which scares me into thinking i was thinking she was or gonna think she is or idk if i just saying that to bot seem insane or something but like idk if i truly believe that i doubt it i don’t believe it any other time and then i started getting stress i might hurt or maybe kill her and it scares me cause shes my everything and I’m scared of losing her idk guys I’m getting stressed hella and I’m scared of myself and my OCD I’m genuinely tired of it like anyone can ask my girlfriend and she’ll say i cant go 5 mins without ticcing (from ocd) or asking for reassurance like that life is real and thats shes real and I’m real and nothings wrongs and stuff, i probably sounds crazy lmaoo maybe and the sucky thing is i don’t have a therapist or a thingy going on for me cause i don’t have a job and or insurance let alone.

Michele32

Date posted: 18w

Compulsions

Less than a year ago, I had a very big anxiety flare up to the point that I felt as though I needed to report to the police / harm myself. I ended up leaving an anonymous tip at the police hotline about something that I know I didn’t even do but everything told me I had to or else I will go to jail. And similarly after that I called the help line and explained I had unwanted intrusive thoughts and I didn’t think I deserved to live for having those thoughts. After these many months and working with my therapist, I’ve been able to feel a lot less anxious around this topic and now I’m getting lots of anxiety about what I did that time when I was so anxious. I gave in to my compulsions and confessed for stuff that I know sounds bad saying out loud but only certain people will understand I would never do. So now I’m just looking for someone to relate and perhaps let me know that I don’t have anything to worry about? I know it’s bad to seek reassurance but I’m not sure where to go. And I’m worried I’m going to keep incriminating myself.

cait1299

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 10w

Really struggling!

Hi guys! I had really bad harm ocd about 2 years ago and I went through therapy and eventually got really good at handling it when it would pop up. The other day, I was scrolling on TikTok and came across a girl talking about a guy who was presenting a lot of schizophrenic symptoms but no one paid attention and got him help, he was having a lot of delusions, hallucinating, thinking everyone was out to get him, thought he was Jesus and his dad was the president and ended up doing horrific things. The day after that, I was dealing with some work drama and had the thought of “what if all my coworkers are against me and trying to get me fired”. That really stressed me out, cause I don’t normally think about them like that and I went down a rabbit hole of thinking that was the beginning of me developing schizophrenia, ended up googling stuff all night, taking tests, crying and seeking reassurance. I had a thought the other day “your dad is the president”, this one didn’t stress me out as bad as I knew it was just the video I had seen and it was an intrusive thought about it, and I also didn’t believe it. Today I was with some friends and I got a prize at a place we went and it said “lonely” on it. I do have my moments of feeling lonely and this week has been specifically trying so I had a thought like “oh someone’s out to get me cause I got this”. I know this isn’t logical and it wouldn’t make sense to just randomly get it if someone was truly after me and it was just a stupid prize at a random place, anyone could’ve gotten it. Im just struggling a lot with schizophrenic OCD and thinking I’m in the pre stages of it. In my good moments, I don’t think I am at all and it was all just sparked from the video I watched but in my bad moments, these thoughts feel real!! They really stress me out and make me feel like I’m going to lose my mind causing me to lose my job/ end up in a psych hospital/ never live a normal life/ end up alone, never see me my loved ones/ hurt my loved ones. I just want to feel normal and not like I’m about to lose my mind and everything I care about. Please help!!! Anyone else going through something similar and can help me get through this!

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