Even in church

While I was in church today I was a little down. I talk to my grandmother and God a lot. I was praying before I go up to communion. I felt and heard God saying to me that “everything is going to be ok, and I anoint your head with the Holy Spirit”. Those were the 2 main things that he said. Then after i started praying and my grandmother appeared to me holding my hand, then I look again I see her face got ugly, white eyes, sharp teeth, and roared in my face. I jumped. Then i went back in and there she was again all beautiful. After I received communion, I was talking to her again saying that was the enemy that was using my OCD against me. Had a little bit of a setback the past few days. Even in church the enemy could attack you. OCD is now telling me that wasn’t my grandmother I’ve been talking to, even though she’s my guardian angel and felt her presence whenever she talked to me. I had proof that it was her. I was feeling down today, and I asked her to send me roses because those are his favorite flowers. There were roses all over the church today when I walked in, signifying she was there within me. However since that thought, I got scared and was thinking a tornado. Can OCD do something like this?

makeupandchi...

Date posted: 2y

I tell u I had so many ocd thoughts in church demons snarling at me harming others oh yes even during the middle of worshipping and praising God. I’m so sorry. Ocd can be so confusing

anthonycaronna

Date posted: 2y

@makeupandchinchillas Yeah it sucks because whenever I talk to God or my Grandma, I got a feeling of happiness, calmness, understanding for the most part, and therapeutic. When it’s the other voice, let’s call it “OCD”, it makes you worry and panic the opposite how you feel when you talk and pray to God. God would never give you a thought that creates anxiety, stress, anger, sadness, fearful, or confusion. That’s what OCD gives you, which already gives the enemy the advantage. The thing is, I know this. However we all know OCD is convincing that could make you even think you killed someone. Something also happened the other day where I thought X meant Y, whereas my Grandmother told me X meant Z. I would constantly have to ask her or God the answer. God always reassures, but he wants us to have faith as well! OCD keeps me in a cycle where I become unaware of my surroundings and become numb inside, which is what the enemy would want. It caused me to question if I’m really talking to my Grandma and God. There are days where it’s really bad. So bad that anxiety reaches the roof, I feel it in my back and sometimes my stomach. I sometimes even vomit. It’s like an abused Dog that gets a new home and he’s shivering. It also makes me afraid of talking to them, manifesting, praying, even going to church. This sucks. The thing is I know that this is all bs. OCD really is the devil man

makeupandchi...

Date posted: 2y

He will rescue you from the pains like he has helped me so many times. Never let the enemy or ocd look bigger than god who is god over both. Keep doing erp keep praying your doing great, you really are

anthonycaronna

Date posted: 2y

@makeupandchinchillas I asked my Grandma yesterday to confirm that my manifesting will come with all my desires. I asked her to send me a rose, her favorite flower. And she did. She sent in on a manifesting channel with a SP, which I’m currently manifesting. However OCD said nope and kept going. It made me ask her again for another rose for confirmation. She told me ok and it could happen at anytime. She said it could be 1, or 10, or 100, or a million or a billion. Forgive me I don’t remember word for word. Today when I woke up, I saw roses all over social media today. Red, White and a very unique one where it’s both which was the first one! I kept asking for roses because the enemy wouldn’t budge! More and more Roses came, whether if it was an emoji or a picture. I then asked God to send me a pure white dove, it didn’t matter how. Then I opened Quora and there it was as an emoji. It was pasted next to Fear passage in the Bible, what are the odds. Then doubts and fears crept back in as usual. I then prayed saying what happened the day before and what was going on that day. Then I go to church with my brother, and the first thing I see are white roses at the feet of a St Anthony statue. My name is Anthony. Then I noticed there were white roses all over the church. Near every statue and on the alter. They were everywhere. Before that OCD thing, the sun shined in the church like you see in the movies. That’s when God came to me and gave me the green light and blessing on my manifestations. He anointed my head with the Holy Spirit because of OCD and anxiety that I have. I then got a sense of relief. Then that happened. I look at it now that the enemy was trapping me a couple days ago and then to stay stuck. What a day it’s been

Anonymous

Date posted: 2y

yes

anthonycaronna

Date posted: 2y

@Anonymous I didn’t think I would get thoughts like that in church tho

Starve_The M...

Date posted: 18w

To my Christian brothers and sisters

Hi I have a question. I love jesus he changed my life and Made me a better person but my ocd loves to confuse me so I have a problem where I remember something in the past and I repented ofc but not it makes me question my intentions and my ocd always puts the are you lying to God card which makes me super scared and then doubt occurs and I'm so exhausted I misinterpret a lot like the voice of God I keep hearing tell the truth and repent now that's it all Good if it were true see ik I'm telling the truth not because of some feeling it's because ocd's version is so ridiculous but It feels soo real I just Want go to God without feeling this fear if I'm lying to him and I fear if somehow I'm wrong. So much anxiety and questions like what if that is gods voice what if I'm wrong pls pray for me and I see videos and I'm scared if that video was sent to me by God telling me to "tell the truth" I say that because my ocd is causing me to doubt the truth being that ocd is wrong

jesus.is.fre...

Date posted: 15w

OCD 'feeling real'

I suffer from religious ocd. My only goal in life is to live in God's will and to serve Him - to live and enjoy His eternal purposes & His presence. Jesus Christ is my life. That is my only desire on this earth, this short trip into eternity, and it's being stripped by ocd thoughts and intrusive thoughts 24-7. I have read many times that ocd can 'feel real', and this is true, our minds lie to us because of fear and anxiety we can't and were never meant to carry. I have begged and tormented myself in every way to find an answer from God. I think His answer may be that this is OCD, but I'm not sure. I started therapy again because I am so exhausted and this had stolen so much of my life in a spiral of negativity, depression, and constant anxiety & intrusive thoughts. I have spent about 2 years trying to figure out if my thoughts are real or not, especially with ocd it can deceive so easily as a spiritual matter when in reality it is just a thought, which is confusing and scary to say the least. Can anyone share their experiences with this sensation? No matter what the theme is... Thank you & Praying for your comfort

Vee4

Date posted: 9w

Religious OCD

I just told my mom my religious OCD has been really really bad lately and she just told me I needed to pray because demons can actually take advantage of me. Because demons are "stress" I'm not stressed I'm hallucinating and having genuine episodes where I think God is talking to me and telling me he hates me and I feel like there is a demon ready to take me away every night. I just feel like she doesn't understand the severity of what I'm feeling right now. She says it will go away but it comes BACK and I constantly feel endangered by something I can't even see. She said it's not that she was implying that I wasn't praying enough but still it just stressed me out. I didn't want to hear "you're right it could be Satan" I wanted to hear "you're okay and nothing is trying to hurt you" I feel like I'm losing my mind and i can't do this. I can't. My religious OCD hasn't been this bad since I was 10 I don't think. All I can think about is how im going to hell and there's nothing I can do about it and that there's an entity in my body and God hates me. I just needed to hear something else but that made me freak out more and I don't know who to turn to. I feel like I can't even explain it. I don't even know if it's OCD that's how serious I'm being. It feels 100% real.

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