I just got saved today and I feel pretty good. Ocd is trying to get in my head and tell me that I don’t mean it, and that I’m not ready and that I’m gonna fuck this up again like last time. I already piss off God as it is but if I mess this relationship up again I’m really just gonna loose it. Now I’m confused and I’m crying because idk if I was ready, if I just said that I wanted to. I feel like ass because I really do believe in God and I wanted this relationship because I was fucking scared he’d leave me or I’d leave him. I feel like shot cause idk if I made a huge mistake or not, I was doing well earlier but now I’m a hot mess and I’m really embarrassed because idk what I just did. Of course coming to God isn’t a mistake but idk if I meant it. Ocd is telling me I didn’t. And I told my grama I came to Christ which was a huge mistake because she fucking confused me and now I just regret everything I did today. I’m starting to wish I would’ve just left all this alone. I’m hysterical and I can’t stop telling God I’m sorry. I feel like I just fucked up eveything

Hi there. I’m a Christian too and I can tell you that being a Christian isn’t about how many times you mess up. It’s about Who you believe in. OCD will use anything it can against you. Truly coming to Jesus is never a mistake and I believe you’re genuine because you said you keep apologizing to God. People who don’t really care don’t do that❤️❤️

Thank you, I feel better about it now

Ill try

Ephesians 2:8-10 says we are saved by grace alone. Not anything we do, because there is nothing we can do. The most amazing thing about grace is that we mess up really bad in our relationships, in our thinking and what we say, but God still loves us so much and forgives us. He just wants us to get up and walk with him even after we stumble. No matter how big that stumble is. I was saved many years ago and have struggled more intensely with this OCD since then. I still in a lot of pain and causing damage in my life. The main thing is we just need his help because we are sinners. We act selfishly, are proud at times, and some of us get easily angered. We need him so just keep crying out to him. Read the psalms and get hooked up with people in church. We need each other, believe me I have been really isolating. Read the Psalms. Sorry for this long post. Just remember that God calls us his children, which makes you a daughter of the king and he’s now your heavenly father.

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