Why do my thoughts not give me anxiety any more or very rarely. I never thought I’d go chasing the thoughts or the anxiety but it just feels it was never ocd and I was lying because my symbols are so little atm. I still feel like my obsessions are true as well it’s really weird it’s like I’ve got to this limbo place
There's something else in the OCD language: thought-action fusion. While someone who doesn't have OCD will have an intrusive thought, and they do, they just shrug it off, say to themselves, "that sucked," and go about their day. WE get hung up on it and OCD tells us that "hey, you thought it, it must be real and you're going to do it." Sound familiar? In reality thoughts are thoughts are thoughts, not threats, not actions. A harm thought, for example, is no more of a threat than a thought about ordering a pizza. Just a thought.
@Steven55! What does one do about SO-OCD? Suddenly scared I’m bisexual and it’s the false attractions that get? I indetified straight all my life… so much rumination and fear of being attracted to woman. My mind tells me I need to accept I’m bisexual …. Not to suppress it. I literally see any pretty female which I consistently Analyse and my mind tells me I’m in love with a girl. I feel gross… this is the third time this theme is back for me… am i being I denial? :(
@Anonymous May I ask you if you've had other OCD variations in your life?
@Steven55! Do you mean themes? Yes I had various themes … suicidal ocd, harm ocd and so ocd… I’m doing erp for it right now but it’s hard to pinpoint my triggers
@Anonymous It’s happened to me, but remember maybe you’re maybe you’re not, it’s really hard specially when you’ve felt heterosexual all your life, but I know when you try to understand what’s going on and find an answer is when you’re confused the most, when you don’t care and live with uncertainty you’ll feel way better
@Anonymous so maybe I can be bisexual? omg this scares me so much… no no no. How do I stop these attractions? I can’t even see a pretty girl anymore thinking I have a crush on her. I try to use my ERP tools but it’s so hard and doesn’t seem to be working
@Anonymous I’ve lived a lot of years with this condition, accepting uncertainty is a way to get out of the loop, how long have you been doing erp? It takes times and hard work, this is a very hard condition to deal wit. But you’re strong, you got this
@Anonymous One month! ( roughly 9-10 sessions but 2 sessions were getting to know my therapist”
@Anonymous It takes time, your mind will habituate and you’ll feel better, the goal at the end is to tolerate uncertainty.
I'm not a trained OCD therapist, but I think this is a good thing. It's called habituation. You expose yourself to the thoughts enough you become insensitive to them. They bore you and you move on. The other part of your missive implies to me that, like many of us, you've been dealing with OCD for so long you don't know what it feels like to be "normal." I had the same feeling as I started to recover. If you have a trained OCD therapist, don't hesitate to discuss. They've heard it all before and really know us better than we know ourselves. Hope this helps.
@Steven55! Does tbf mate. Just feel I’ve been lying all this time about ocd
@JoeG1146 I can definitely relate my friend but don’t worry your not lying ocd is a very real thing that makes us doubt even whether we have it or not, at least that’s what I deal with daily
I don't know what TBF mate means.
Doubting is a classic trait of OCD.
@Steven55! Mine never feel like doubts but certainties
Another classic trait, the disorder, that malware in our brains, makes it feel like it's all so real. In reality OCD is a liar. Do you have a trained OCD therapist who uses ERP?
I have this issue. Last few days it’s like I think the thoughts are good ideas. They aren’t but they bring me no anxiety. No feeling. I feel purely apathetic and I hate it.
I'm no therapist, but based on my own journey I suspect what you're experiencing is an OCD episode. Since you're working on recovery, that mallard in your brain is going to throw anything it can at you to remain on the anxiety treadmill. I told my therapist once that it reminded me of a balloon. I squeeze it and the air goes out of the area I'm squeezing, but the balloon inflates somewhere else. Same thing with OCD while you're working on recovering. All I can advise is keep doing your ERP and speaking to your therapist.
Suddenly I started ruminating again but I no longer get bad anxiety over the thoughts but it feels like the ‘urges’ are still there and it’s making it seem more real that these are true. Why am I having urges without the anxiety or it’s weird like i don’t even know when im anxious maybe i got use to the feeling of being anxious but it feels too real and I get these weird thought that are like ‘imagine you was evil anyways’ or ‘imagine you want to be but your in denial’ or the worst makes it feel like you would like acting on the thoughts even if you choose not to do it and it feels really real. The thoughts are about stabbing and it felt so real and I started imaging it on purpose to ‘test’ myself but it doesn’t ever feel like I hate it enough or don’t want it like I feel numb to everything and it feels really real like I want it or do want to do it but I’m just choosing not to and it’s scary but I use to get so much anxiety over this and now nothing now it feels like I don’t even feel like I ‘hate’ it or I should know that I don’t want to do that? Instead of sitting there experimenting with the thoughts to see. I want it to feel like I don’t want it and don’t like it I constantly feel like I’m lying about not wanting this, but it’s concerning me a lot because it feels so real that I like it or want it and there was one point where it felt like it was about to happen and that I wanted it and now that’s made me think there is something wrong with me or that I want to give in to it 🙁 please I don’t belive anything I don’t even belive I am sad it feels so real that it was about to happen or I wanted it and I don’t know what to do I was fine before and suddenly I started ruminating and now this
So I’ve noticed that my OCD has calmed down, I’m getting less intrusive thoughts but I feel more uncertain than ever. Is this normal for recovery?
My thoughts are here but I have no anxiety. No matter what if I agree with the thoughts it doesn’t give me anxiety. If I think about how not having anxiety means that the thoughts are my truth since I’m not having anxiety. Nothing is giving me anxiety and I don’t know why but I don’t like that it’s not giving me anxiety. Is this normal?
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