For the past month and a half I’ve been getting horrible thoughts that I’m going to die soon and I keep seeing things on the news about 18 year olds dying and I’m scared it’s a sign because I’m 17 and my head keeps telling me somethings going to happen before I turn 18 or when I turn 18. I’ve also got a constant feeling in my gut that something bad is going to happen to me and it never goes away it’s a horrible feeling and I don’t know what to do. My head also keeps telling me I’m ready to die which I’m not I don’t want to, I’m living my life in fear and I’m really scared it’s not anxiety. Could this just be my mind daring me to think these things like the feeling I’m ready to die etc or is it my gut trying to tell me something and it’s sending me signs. I’m really scared. Please help.

pureolife

Date posted: 5y ago

Hi charliexo — I think right now you’re seeking reassurance. I’ve seen you post the same type message many times now, so I know plenty of people have already extended empathy and understanding and even reassurance before on this as well as advice. I hope you’re noticing the pattern that always happens with reassurance: it lasts for a little while and then we need it again, and eventually we need more of it to feel better. Rather than seeking reassurance, I would take this opportunity to sit with the fear, feed it uncertainty, and refrain from compulsions. Maybe the world is sending you signs that you’re going to die, but maybe (probably) not. Uncertainty doesn’t have to mean there’s a 50/50 chance your fear is true, it can be a really small chance. How about you sit with the .1% chance the world is intent on killing you before you turn 18. There’s still a 99.9% chance it won’t. You’ll also need to resist compulsions which in your case seem like reading about and looking for sign and premonitions about death. When you get the urge to seek out and confirm your fear, resist. Acknowledge it (“hey brain, I get that you want me to look for signs right now, but I’m not going to”) and then sit with the anxiety until it naturally subsides. Unfortunately there’s nothing any of us can do to 100% disprove your fear. But I think you’re seeing patterns that don’t exist because your OCD has primed your brain to seek them out and catalogue them as your compulsion. It’s called confirmation bias, and no matter what, your brain can prove something it wants to believe / fears enough. But belief isn’t truth. No matter how much your thoughts may make you believe you’re going to die, that does not make it real.

Sparrow94

Date posted: 5y ago

You’re going to be just fine . I’ve gone through this phase before I’m a hypochondriac .

Charliexo

Date posted: 5y ago

Thank you this has really helped me I’m really sorry for posting the same thing all the time. I try not to until it gets bad and my head is telling me I need to look/ask for reassurance and because I don’t have anyone to talk to about this in real life, I turn to this app which I know I shouldn’t so I’m going to take your advice and try and resist the urge to look for reassurance and hopefully the thoughts will start to slowly fade. Thank you for taking your time out to reply.

Anonymous

Date posted: 5y ago

don’t apologise for posting the same thing all the time, there’s no need to. you’re cared for and supported here, even (and especially) when things are hard. keep your head up, okay?

Anonymous

Date posted: 5y ago

also if you ever need someone to talk to, my tumblr is @fleurisez

pureolife

Date posted: 5y ago

Please do not apologize! I am simply pointing it out to hopefully help you get some more insight into your OCD. Insight with OCD is so crucial for recovery. I hope you understand that me and everyone on here know the urge to seek reassurance all too well. You are NOT alone here. But it’s always important to try to recognize it so we can do what we can to stop seeking it. If reassurance would actually make you get better, I’d give you tons of it! But studies show it only makes our condition worse. Thats why I’m not providing it. You should still use the app! Ask for tips and advice and encouragement whenever you need. Just try to avoid reassurance seeking as much as you can. Good luck!

alondrahuaman

Date posted: 25w ago

I am so scared and alone.

Hi everyone. So recently I have been feeling so scared and paranoid of going crazy. I am terrified of i will go crazy and turn schizo. I’m so hyper aware of everything. My mind convinces me that I will end up like this but I really don’t want to.It’s my biggest fear and I think abt it almost everyday and I can’t handle it anymore. I just want to be ok. I have told my parents this and they say it’s all in my head and just laugh at me. I know it’s in my head but I physically feel sick to my stomach being constantly scared. Please someone help me please please. Thank you.

Lauriee

Date posted: 21w ago

A post

I saw a post saying that thinking about something for a while will bring it to you. Now I’m scared and panicking because I think about illnesses and getting a disease almost everyday. What should I do? Im very scared

Arsanders

Date posted: 18w ago

How do I live with health anxiety?

My mind keeps telling me “something is wrong with you. the weird feeling you are feeling or the weird tingling you are feeling or there is a weird mark on your body. Those are actually a severe symptom and by ignoring it you could die!” Or especially the constant, “go to the emergency room because this impending doom you are feeling, yeah that’s because your gonna die shortly” It doesn’t help whenever people say “well if something was wrong your body would tell you” because my mind keeps telling me that what I’m feeling is proof something is wrong and I need to get it checked out. That I actually am severely sick and that I need to get it checked out as soon as possible, that if I get one more test than I’ll be okay because it will prove nothing is wrong. How do I tell my mind that it’s just anxiety whenever my mind keeps telling me “well if you keep saying that you could be ignoring something more serious.” Or “the doctors are just brushing you off..something is wrong with you” It’s hard to live with my thoughts whenever they are constantly coming up with ways to challenge me and challenge logic. New reasons on why I need to get this checked out because “I’m just being ignored” or “no one is listening to me so I’ll just end up dying” My symptoms range from weak and shaking legs and body to dizzy and unbalanced and dissociated. Recently I’ve been getting this tingling feeling inside my head and on the back of my neck. And my temples have pressure on them. My body keeps coming up with new symptoms I need to worry about, whenever most of them are probably caused by severe and constant anxiety. So severe I can’t even leave the house because I constantly worry about whether this is severe and something will happen if I leave the house. I need immediate ways to start fixing this because it’s especially horrible whenever my period comes around and my anxiety/depression is already higher than usual. I’ve even started considering taking medication (Zoloft, 25mg) which is another trigger for me, I worry about the symptoms I might get from taking it. That’s how you know it’s gotten pretty bad whenever I’ve come to taking something that I’ve been actively avoiding. What are your thoughts? Do I take the medication? What are ways I can deal with my symptoms that seem so severe in the moment but pass by once I’m not anxious? What are ways my thoughts can ease and I stop taking every symptom as something serious, because at the end of the day my anxiety is most likely the reason I have these horrible symptoms. I’ve always been extremely healthy and everytime I go to the doctors they express how healthy I am with all the tests I’ve had.

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