I'm going to try to keep this as short as possible. Basically I'm just frustrated and venting a little. I've had OCD since I got pregnant with our first child so it's been 8 years now. I've had plenty of highs and lows and definitely rock bottom. Currently feeling like I'm getting worse again and I've made an appointment to get back into therapy. With that being said it's always been a struggle with my husband. He doesn't get it and I don't expect him to, at all. My problem is the lack of respect for what I am going through. Treating it like this trivial thing. The constant eye rolling and lack of compassion or empathy. Not caring and not making any effort to try to understand how debilitating disorder that it is. To see ME. Not to try to wrap your mind around OCD but just see me and what it does to me, and have compassion for that. I know my OCD has an effect on him too and I have always put myself in his shoes. I'm always considerate as how it effects my husband and my kids and what my disorder does to them even during the times where I am in pain myself. Tonight was just rough. I had a rough time cooking dinner. The total event from starting to finishing cleaning including my compulsions took 4 1/2 hours. He did nothing but eat then sit on his phone. To his credit he knows he can't help me in the kitchen, I have to do it a certain way. But when I asked for help when our toddler was fussy, or the boys were fighting he would just get pissy and roll his eyes. Never cared to ask how I was doing, or what if anything he could do to help. I tried to talk to him about his day just as a distraction to how I was feeling and he was just snappy. I tried to explain what I was trying to accomplish and he just huffed and puffed about it to the point where it was just causing more issues than it was worth so I just reverted back into myself and into silence. I told him tonight he needs to go back into a session with me again. He's been once before for a video session when I wasn't leaving the house then again it was brought up during marriage counseling bc it's basically a big source of issues for us. This is long enough.....I'm just tired of fighting for his support and compassion when clearly after 8 years I should just give up.