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Yes! For a while there, I was spending around $40-$60 a week to do laundry or buy new linen. I never wore anything two days in a row and was constantly redoing my bed sheets. I also had my upholstery professionally cleaned every month. None of this ever seemed to help and I still felt filthy, especially because I had to go to my local laundromat (no hookups in my apartment) and was terrified that I was picking up germs and bacteria from the previous user (this actually helped with EXP). These obsessions added so much anxiety and stress to my daily life and because of that, they didn’t last long; it became unbearable and impossible. I quickly became unable to afford my laundry costs and with the help of my psychiatrist, psychologist, and my own frustration, learned to overcome the need to constantly have “clean” fabric. EXP is perfect for this obsession because it exposes you to the truth- the fabrics that surround us are never really “clean.” You can’t control the ability of the wind to blow bacteria in the air and you can’t see it happening. Have you checked out the exposure, trigger, obsession + EXP practice portion of this app? You should try it out! I hope you can overcome this, no matter how long it takes. I do 1-2 loads of laundry every other week now and have to go to my parent’s house because I am saving up for my own laundry machines for my apartment. My mantra is: You can’t control what you can’t see. I can’t see the germs and bacteria in my fabrics, so I figure I won’t endlessly try to get rid of what I imagine. Sorry for the novel. Best of luck with this, riina2910! IMO- this is one of the easier obsessions to get control of.
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- 6y
It’s so hard! I try to use alcohol wipes so I know that my objects are super clean!! Let’s say I want to clean my laptop, I’ll take an alcohol wipe and run it over my laptop then I’ll tell myself “move on and forget about it”
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- 6y
Lol! Aww now I feel really, really bad. ERP is really difficult, but I always try to think that if living with OCD is hard, trying to recover from it must be even more difficult.
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What does "exp" mean?
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I’m sorry, ale74! I meant ERP, not exp. ERP is Exposure Response Practice.
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Ah ah ah... I hoped it was a new kind of therapy ?
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thank you modernfemale for your reply!! and also steph94. I have suffered from this thing for a long time (or at least it feels long for me) I hope I can get to the exposure therapy when I move to new school ? but I'm going to be in a house with other people and laundry machines are shared and I'm a little bit afraid of that but I definitely should try this apps erp again and start actually doing those rehealsas, thank you for telling me that it really has helped! ?
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- 23w
I’m so scared. Part of me feels ok and part of me feels like I need to clean everything off. Basically my sweater had a stain on it from food it was newly washed but I decided to throw it in the wash again. While throwing it in the laundry basket I noticed a specific type of clothing that scares me. I quickly put the sweater on top of the used laundry and left. My phone was in the living room and I’m pretty constantly scared it will get contaminated by laundry I’m not sure why but that fear started randomly. Anyway I had to walk past the living room to wash my hands in the kitchen because someone had to use the bathroom badly and was waiting for me to just throw my laundry in to go to the bathroom. Anyway I’m scared I went near my phone or contaminated it with my hands. I can’t remember the details fully either but I just remember walking straight to the kitchen but I don’t know. I’m really scared and I want to clean everything like my phone and everything it was near. The thing is my fear is real because used laundry is so gross. What do I do? When throwing clean laundry in a basket should you wash your hands? Do most people? Even if the article of clothing isn’t dirty? Because maybe my hands accidentally went near the actual gross laundry I don’t know
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- 21w
contamination ocd has really been messing with me the last couple of days. usually i only struggle when i can connect something to possibly throwing up, but this time it doesn’t matter. so earlier, i took a shower and i also use a wash cloth to wash my body. after i showered i cleaned up my dirty clothes and towels. then when i came back to grab my phone, there was a soap speck on my phone so without thinking i just wiped it on the back of my crewneck i was wearing. well that then spiraled into me thinking what if the soap was from my dirty wash cloth. i know most of you are probably thinking it’s clean since you use soap to clean ur body. well i clean every inch of my body, including my bottom so that’s where my anxiety is gravitating towards. this sounds so ridiculous saying it out loud, but i just have so much anxiety over it. i tried my hardest not to change but i did. at first i just changed my crewneck, but then i had to change my shorts cause my crewneck touches my shorts. but then i changed my shorts. and now i feel like my shirt is contaminated cause i was wearing it with my other shorts before changing. moral of the story, i just have so much anxiety over it and i feel like i shouldn’t because it’s really not a big deal. and i don’t want to change again because that seems ridiculous to me. plus now i’m connecting the contamination to my bed since i was laying on my bed before i changed. i hate life, this sucks.
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- 18w
sorry if im putting to much detail in here I can take it down if it is too much and makes people uncomfy. Last night was watching some ex*pl*cit content while lying on the rug in the room in my house I spend most of my time and where my family usually goes into and it caused a physical reaction. I went to the bathroom to clean up and then sprayed the shower done and put bleach on the floor but I wiped the floor with a towel to kinda clean it but idk if I put enough bleach to clean it and if I got it in the areas that mattered and I sprayed Lysol on the bathroom counter to make sure no germs of my earlier reaction got any where but I ran out of Lysol after spraying everything but I made sure to spray the rug with some Lysol before I ran out but idk if I got everything I mean I focused on the rug but I didn’t spray all of it and I didn’t spray all the stuff that was in the room. And to make things worse after my reaction earlier I put my devices and charger on the floor of my room before washing my hands or my devices so I had to clean the floor in my room I used bleach but I didn’t put it everywhere on the floor which makes me anxious and idk if I cleaned my devices or charger well enough and I’m scared they are still infected. But back to the rug i sprayed it down with odoban it says disinfectant on it but I think it’s only for hard surfaces it disinfects but I still sprayed it around on the rug but I don’t know if it actually disinfected anything. And of course to make matters worse my baby cousins toys were in the room so I sprayed them with what little Lysol I had left but idk if I cleaned it well enough but I already put them with their other toys so idk what to do. After I thought I cleaned everything I put my devices on my mattress I don’t have my blankets on my mattress yet cause I washed them like a week or 2 ago and they are just laying on my bed but not put on my mattress so I’m scared my mattress if infected since I’m laying on my mattress with my feet on my chair and my devices are on my mattress. And idk I don’t want people getting those bad germs in them and I,worry about this a lot and Ik a lot of people will say that it isn’t that huge of a deal and I want to,believe them and it helps but my mind is always telling me that even if that’s true I have a responsibility to make sure everything is clean so people don’t get hurt and it doesn’t help that I’ve been so,itchy and idk why and my little brother is also itchy idk if it’s because I don’t clean well enough and it’s my germs or not but I’m tired do I need,to clean my mattress and covers again and reclean the rug I think I do but I’m trying to go against that thinking but it’s hard because I feel like a bad persons. And today I’m scared to leave my room i feel like I’m filthy and that the rug in the other room is contaminated and it doesn’t help I need to go to the doctor today when I’m feeling like anyone I’m around im infecting
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