I want to split up with my fiance .... don't love her .. I dont think ..... no I do love her massively but she's not right for me at all theres much prettier women around she doesn't love me that much anyway .... I love her so much I dont ever want to be without her .... but u dont love her do u.... yea course I do ... dont I....... 8 weeks of this bullshit is driving me insane I cant see myself without her I dont want to yet my mind is kicking me all over I'm "fancying" other woman 1s I dont even know im getting love feelings I feel.such a bad person

Don't fuck your self up be independent and do what ever the Fuck you want best of luck.

This sounds a lot like you're not sure and you're doubting it, so to me it seems it's OCD. And if it's OCD you know that the rule is always - Do the opposite of what OCD tells you to do. If OCD is making you doubt your feelings to your fiance then you shouldn't listen to it. Don't let OCD command you what to do.

Classic ROCD but I’m so sorry you’re experiencing this. OCD tends to attack what we care about most. The flip side of every OCD theme is a value, so you’re probably the kind of person that values their relationships deeply and thinks they’re crucial to living a good life. Can you see an OCD specialist? Doing proper ERP and learning other CBT principles could really help you.

Then don't listen to OCD. OCD is evil and wants you to ruin your life and happines. And since it is attacking your fiance that just means she is extremely important to you. OCD always attacks what you love the most.

It's obvious you love her. You're taking antidepressants? Sometimes they can worsen the symptoms for a certain period. Stay strong!

Yes sertraline ... thank u I'll do my very best just needed to vent what my minds was doing

Today everything feels to real to me. Thoughts are not as constant and dont produce much anxiety but Im repulsed by them. Im worried it is not OCD anymore. I just want my feelings back?

Up to 8 weeks ago I was bang on then ocd kicked in and i cant shake the intrusive thoughts i know if i left her I'd regret it forever thats how i feel when i manage to have a clear head and no anxiety

@smallbird thanks I know it's the ocd how iv rationalized it is if I really didn't want to be with her I wouldn't I'd leave without conscience but I truly do love the girl were best friends also been with her 5 years and soon as I try and imagine my life without her it upsets me no end iv just started 2 weeks ago on sertraline I'm thinking is that making it worse till kicks in sort of thing ?

I don't know if there are any therapists in my area .... I fear being around attractive women incase I cheat ( 1 thing I'm not is a cheat ) so yesterday I forced my self to tall to a lady I felt I had a "crush" on and I was massively spiked then after a couple of min of friendly chit chat i calmed down and realised I dont have any feeling towards this person whatsoever and never would as I have what I want in life I thought I'd conquered it all morning been fine then out of nowhere bang I'm convinced I dont want to be with my partner and dont know why but then I feel I do want to be with her etc

I know the feeling @xmariax

There are lots of online and telehealth options out there now. The NOCD app even offers it in certain states.