Getting home from camping trip with ocd

It’s weird how BEFORE I left for camping my ocd was like, OHNO, oh my gosh, we’re going back to the place where your brain broke, oh man. But now that I’m home my ocd is now focusing on the fear of the depression happening again the same way it did after my “brain” “breaking”. I can feel my ocd making me restless and sticking to everything about my home and it’s making it difficult to relax. But I’m trying to work through it. Also, ROCD is so weird. It’s either “Do I love him enough, am I in love enough, would I be happier with someone else,” And then it’s “does he want me still, I hope he doesn’t leave me, I wonder if he misses his ex, she was skinner then me, he didn’t say I love you as much as I did, does that mean he doesn’t love me, oh no” My brain is nonstop. Lol like why. Just relax ocd. But there’s anxiety in my chest over ocd getting worse again. Ofcourse. But we came home, washed the dog, showered, unpacked the car and now I’m chilling making pizza roles, doing some laundry and sitting with the uncomfortable feelings that come with ocd. Woooooo. 😂😬🥲😅😮‍💨😂😬😬 this just in, new ocd fear “will we still be together next year, what if we’re not and I don’t get to go up north with him ever again and that was the last time, oh no” Lawd

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NODA

Date posted: 2y

Hi. I am so proud of you for the way you handled ocd on your camping trip!!!! Well done!!! You became my inspiration. My teacher. Every time I get caught in obsessions, I will think of you. You are amazing. You just proved to yourself, ocd, us, that you are incredibly strong and smart. Bravo! Amazing! All that you are going through now is just ocd not giving up just yet. It didn't win on the trip, now it is just trying another tactic. You have the tools. You are the master. Do exactly what you did on the trip. Sit with it. Remember, it is not important what thoughts ocd is forcing on you, it is is the way you react to them that is important and makes all the difference. Once you get through these doubts, it will try to scare and confuse you about sth else. And you will know what to do again. And then one day you will realize that it is gone. It gave up. Might still poke at you from time to time. But in a very weak manner. And you will be ready. You will go with your bf next year. And you will be engaged. All this will happen if you keep doing what you were doing on your trip. It is not his ex you have to worry about, nor his love for you. That you can feel in your heart. Listen to your heart and you will know whether and how much he loves you. Keep in mind, that men are a bit more modest with expressing emotions, but they are quite good at showing them. Love is not just saying he loves you, it is also all he does, the way he bahaves,...his efforts to make you feel happy. Ocd is your only threat. What is meant to happen in life, will. You can't do anything about it. Except not let ocd butt in causing obstacles. I truly believe in you. I am more confident that you will beat ocd than I am about me. I am good in theory, but not good in practice. You got this. And you've got us. You've got a loving bf. You've got Opie. You've got people around you who love you. You got this. Ocd can just give up now. Till later, hugs and love. 🤗🤗🤗❤️❤️❤️

jet82682

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y

I'm RIGHT there with you.

Dj-is-living

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y

@jet82682 It is definitely not fun

jet82682

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y

@Dj-is-trying It is not. But I know what you are going through. It's hard as hell.

Dj-is-living

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y

@jet82682 Sometimes I get really sad cause it’s like man is my brain gonna be like this forever.

jet82682

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y

I feel the exact same way. I think that scares me more than anything else.

JoshuaBuds

Date posted: 2y

I completely relate to how you described it. The back and forth of “Do I even like them?” to the next moment “oh no, do they still like me?” It’s exhausting ahah

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