does anyone else experience extreme guilt over hurting bugs? there was a bit on my windshield today and i knew it wasn’t hurting me but i went to wipe it off anyways. i don’t know why i did that but i feel extremely bad
I feel bad as well, I try to catch and release bugs from my house but then there are these small black ants that I can’t stand and I question my morals like I like protecting everything else but I don’t like protecting ants? It doesn’t make sense.
I feel like a hypocrite. I am an ethical vegan. Have been for many years. I protect all animals, even rats,.... But due to my ocd, I can't stand small flies, mosquitos or other flying tiny bugs, so I react. I protect spiders,... anything that doesn't fly. I am scared that the flying ones would contaminate my food... Especially in the kitchen I freak out. I don't mind them in the living room or bedroom. It rarely happens. But when it does and if it is in the kitchen, my anxiety flairs up, I start to feel dirty even if I am sure that they didn't touch me. I just don't feel ok until I know they are either gone out of the windows or... I feel soooo terrible after. I try not to kill or harm any of them But from time to time my bad ocd-driven me, goes against all I stand for.
Sometimes, though there are just some bugs I can’t catch and release so I end up flushing them.
I completely understand. I thought I killed a spider one time, and I was afraid that it would come and retaliate when I was asleep lol. I don’t like hurting bugs, and I feel so bad, but that shows that we are empathetic people
Yeah. 🙏👍😊
Exactly. I also catch and release bugs. Even flies. Even the little flies. I try to direct flies and mosquitoes out of the room. But then, sometimes it just feels overwhelming and I turn into Mr. Hyde. I always feel bad. My typical reaction is, I say to myself out loud, " Some vegan you are!". I also don't like ants in my home, and I am lucky I almost never see them inside. I would though try to direct them onto a sheet of paper and take them out. I love watching them outside. They are so hardworking and incredibly organized. Like another world within this one. How can we protect some living creatures and without a thought kill others?! I try my best not to do harm even to those annoying bugs. I know they are also just trying to survive. If my bad side sometimes gets the better of me, I hope I can forgive myself. I am my own worst judge.
Ocd about hitting someone while driving and not realizing? And guilt over being a distracted driver (I changed the radio while driving many times). Any ever have this? I want to go back to the street I was driving on to make sure no one is hurt
I can’t get over the guilt of knowingly having hurt someone 3 times. At first my intention was to make her feel included or help her but something took over in the middle of it. I want to know what is wrong with me since two days ago. I want to know if I am worthy of living after this. 1. I knew she had her first day of class and she told me she has an adjustment disorder but I still asked her if she had homework. I probably knew it could make her wanna die if I reminded her of hw. 2. She was saying something to my mom in the car ride home and my mind said she will be hurt if I put my shoulder on my seat hard because it will make her feel like I hate her or something. She was sitting in the back seat and I was sitting in the front seat. But yet i put my shoulder down on my seat back pretty hard. My mind associated it with her being offended and it adding up and making her want to die. But I still did it. 3. Today she seemed more talkative and lively than yesterday and I was trying to help at first when I started saying “maybe you are starting to adjust” but in the middle of it my brain said its gonna offend her bc I am bringing up her adjustment disorder in the car infront of my parents and son, yet I still finished the sentence. And it would be ok if it were once but I’m afraid that all these together will add up and make her want to die. If not now, then later. Then I started to think well there are bullies who bully someone everyday. But then my brain is saying that bullying someone around the same time everyday at school is different from the times that I unintentionally bullied her. Well it was unintentional at first half of it and then when i decided to ignore my brain that told me it will hurt her and i still did those.. I feel so guilty and i never did this until yesterday. I dont know whats going on with me. Why am i being this way all of a sudden? The guilt is eating me i dont even wanna talk to anyone incase i hurt/slowly kill them bc of something i said or action i did. But i feel suicidal now bc of the guilt.
Do you guys ever experience guilt for not liking someone? My mind tends to obsess over the fact I can’t like a particular person, then my intrusive thoughts surround that person.
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