Feels like I am accepting the thoughts when I don't have a panicked response. It's like I feel like I want the thought even though I never would because of lack of anxciety. Assuming this is part of ocd?
Been through that stage I get groinal response with no anxiety or feeling distress about it anymore, I feel your pain
@tuchi Yeah it's so weird
Yes. It's often due to habituation which means you're improving. NOCD has a good article on "backdoor spikes" which talks about when you stop feeling anxious when you have intrusive thoughts/feelings/sensations. Sometimes the lack of response makes us anxious but it sounds like you're kind of accepting it for what it is, which is great!
@ReadyForImprovement Mines been messing with me, was in the mood to have sx, I was trying not to because I didn't want a g*y person images will pop up and it would mess me up like last time theirs this particular image of the guy that always pops up when I'm about to have do something or about c*m and I always mess things up the worst part of it is that it feels like real deal or way best than the real deal, call me crazy but that's how it feels, I was afraid that it would feel so good as last time, when I was trying to resist the image pop up and I got something down there a little something tho and I felt confused was it because I thought about how it happened last time and it got me erected? Honestly I know this sounds crazy but l'm confused about it or was it because my pants with too tight. I didn't feel anxious about it or disgusted, was just confused and tried to reply that moment to see if it would happen again to know if I'm really into that but I didn't happen again, this happens this afternoon and I have been trying to figure out what happened
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@ReadyForImprovement Thank you!
but when there's no anxiety that mean you don't have the urge to do that it's just thought .........I'll tel to my self if I don't have anxiety that mean I become stronger then the thought
I think Iām in the recovery stage as my thoughts have settled so much & I only get intrusive thoughts on occasion and get worse only when Iām anxious, but the quietness in my brain feels so weird & I feel awful saying that because all I wanted was the thoughts to stop. This is the most quiet itās been itās over 7 months, so to go from non stop thoughts for a long time to quietness I donāt know how to take it. Has anyone else felt like this in recovery
I feel intrusive thoughts Without anxiety but thoughts disturbing (after 5,6 months harm ocd) Why that feel without anxiety? It's common, progress or any other issue? Anyone have same situation?
Why am I not anxious? Like at all anymore? Is it because I'm really avoiding and trying not to think of the consequences that come from possibly being a pdfile? Is the only thing that is worrying me about it is the consequences then does it mean that I really am one? But I never masturbated to the thought of a child and actively seeked it. It came as intrusive thoughts while I was doing it yes I've had them when I see kids yes and I question and check a lot if I'm attracted to them and its just confusing me, I know I'll never do anything to hurt a child and I don't even like the idea of becoming a pdfile then why am I not anxious enough about it? The thoughts are just distressing obsessive I feel disgusting and Id say I still do compulsions but I don't know something just doesn't feel right. I don't feel anything and no real attraction to anyone or anything anymore. I just feel so disgusting and I just want to be normal but then again I pretty much did this to myself. It's weird to me I know there isn't a real indication I'm a pdfile and past experiences pretty much prove that and I've always been attracted to older guys so why is this happening now? Why am I getting these thoughts now especially right after I was trying to fix this sexual obsession/tension I had for older guys. Is my brain just leaving one thing to love and be obsessed about and going to the other? I'm really really just confused. Not anxious just distressed confused and uncomfortable. Like I want to throw up but I don't feel intense anxiety in my chest it feels like maybe I haven't processed what's going on properly. I'm genuinely so confused and I don't want to have this stay in my mind. Sometimes I just miss my ex so much because at the time I've felt something I felt so much things even though I had really bad rocd. I just miss loving people again and being alive again. I'm so scared and confused right now can anyone explain to me what is this? I genuinely just want to understand what I'm feeling or thinking because its not making sense to me
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