- Date posted
- 6y
- Date posted
- 6y
This is the only piece of advise I am going to give you: "If it feels like and urge, like it HAS to be done NOW, then it is a compulsion and it is just feeding your OCD. It does not matter that it is something civil or kind - If your brain is like : Do it or suffer then it is better to leave it alone. Believe me, I suffer a lot when I don't give money to beggars. But I have learned to have boundaries. You are entitled to make mistakes.
- Date posted
- 6y
I can relate. I get very irritated with people sometimes then let my anger stew inside me until I finally let it burst in a way I wasn’t expecting. I replay the words both parties shared until I can’t take it anymore and I feel like I must apologize. I wish I could give you all the answers to help you lessen the amount of times you feel you need to do this, but I can’t. I’m still trying to figure it out myself. The only piece of advice my psychologist gave me was to avoid letting the irritation stew inside you and instead try saying something in the moment so that you’re less likely to let it get out control later on. I think for me, I have to remember that I cannot change people and trust me, I’ve tried. If they react poorly to my words, then that’s on them. Good luck!
- Date posted
- 6y
It may seem like long term suffering, but really it is not. Really, in the very long term, you will be more free of OCD if you resist this urge right now. I agree with FernandoV. You can do it! Just stay strong. I know it’s hard. But you can resist. We all can.
- Date posted
- 6y
Thank you for your replies. I just feel like it’s easier to give in and do this on thing and move on with my life but at the same time the other Logical voice in my head says that I am just doing this out of compulsion and I should fight it . This struggle is the hardest part of OCD and I am trying to accept it. Long term suffering or short term relief by doing my compulsion
- Date posted
- 6y
Thank you for the encouragement LyricalWolf. I know it will be tough because most times I have always taken easy way out and give into the compulsion. But I think I’m the past few months it slowly built up from smaller compulsions to this one now.
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- Date posted
- 24w
Less than a year ago, I had a very big anxiety flare up to the point that I felt as though I needed to report to the police / harm myself. I ended up leaving an anonymous tip at the police hotline about something that I know I didn’t even do but everything told me I had to or else I will go to jail. And similarly after that I called the help line and explained I had unwanted intrusive thoughts and I didn’t think I deserved to live for having those thoughts. After these many months and working with my therapist, I’ve been able to feel a lot less anxious around this topic and now I’m getting lots of anxiety about what I did that time when I was so anxious. I gave in to my compulsions and confessed for stuff that I know sounds bad saying out loud but only certain people will understand I would never do. So now I’m just looking for someone to relate and perhaps let me know that I don’t have anything to worry about? I know it’s bad to seek reassurance but I’m not sure where to go. And I’m worried I’m going to keep incriminating myself.
- Date posted
- 20w
I already wrote about this and you really helped me, but now I wondered?! During the erp, I look at a picture of that person with some grimaces that the brain sexualizes, otherwise I have incest ocd! The person is of my gender, I'm not gay otherwise. And then, based on those facial expressions, the brain creates sexual images in my head, which I often feel as sexual and mental arousel. It is enough to see the picture or hear the voice of that person! Based on the pictures it gives me the idea of sexually touching myself on it and climaxing while watching. I feel an urge (I tried something like that a few times ago and now I'm afraid of it), and then the exercise is over, but I stay until I get the answer I want and the feelings that would calm me down, but that happens less and less... Have you had any experience, and is it a compulsion? how can I stay after exercise with that feeling of reality.. Thank you in advance❤️
- Date posted
- 17w
I would really appreciate it so much if someone took the time to read this and help me. I don’t know what to do anymore. I haven’t posted here in awhile. I had my OCD managed pretty decently for a year or so on medication, but I had to stop taking it, and after around 3-4 months, the OCD has become unbearable again. It used to be much more surrounding existential themes, eating, and others, not really real event/false memory stuff. But now it’s gotten really out of hand and I don’t know how to do it anymore. It’s surrounding a time of my life a long time ago. It was a dark time. I wasn’t myself and I was going through a lot of things, and I did a lot of things I regret. I self-destructed, embarrassed myself, and wasn’t good to the people around me. I was able to get my mind off of it for a long time, even though I would still think about it a good amount. I was able to be in the present, at least moreso than now. But now that I’m off medication, the guilt has become my obsession again. I can’t move on. I can’t do anything without thinking about all of these memories. I’m obsessed. I’ve started hating myself again, so much so that it’s hard to do anything anymore or believe I deserve anything good. The people around me tell me it wasn’t even that bad, but to me it was. To me, I failed myself, lost myself, and failed everyone around me. I can’t stop thinking about every person I said something wrong to or every time I screwed up. I’ve now started to convince myself I did terrible things I can’t remember, and that my mind just can’t deal with it. And that’s why I feel so guilty. There’s nothing to really support this though. But I’m starting to really convince myself that’s true. I’m trying not to listen to it, because I’ve convinced myself I have hit people with my car before and haven’t remembered when I absolutely didn’t and I know I never have. I drive back over and over to check there’s no one, even though I never heard any bang or felt myself anything. I can convince myself of some crazy false memories. So I know that I shouldn’t listen. But it’s hard not to when I have this guilt gnawing at me constantly. I come to conclusions that this guilt must be because I did something terrible that I don’t remember, even though I already think the things I remember were bad enough. But I would know by now right? If I did something bad I don’t remember? I don’t feel like this all the time. But it’s a lot of the time. But maybe that should be reassuring, that I only start obsessing like this when I think to. The past haunts me though. And I can never be in the present. I’ve started to resort to some unhealthy behaviors to distract myself or help me work towards something. I am starting to hate myself so much and feel like there’s no way I’ll ever be able to get out of this loop. I feel like I just can’t do this anymore. Maybe I need to go back on medication. But I don’t know. I don’t really want to. But will I ever fix this without it? Why do I feel SO guilty, all of the time? I do all these things for people because I feel indebted to them, because I feel undeserving of everything. I feel awful about myself. I don’t know what to do. Does anyone else deal with this?
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