Needed some help to understand how to deal with my issue. I have compulsions and if I don’t act on them it makes me crazy. Compulsions are random without any pattern. For example other day I was in the gym working out and an obnoxious lady was loudly talking on her phone. I controlled my anger but eventually I had to say something to her. She didn’t respond that well instead kept telling me I need to be more polite. I didn’t pay much attention to this incident but now every time I goto gym and I see this lady I feel the compulsion to go and talk to her and apologize. I know it sounds stupid and extremely naive and I am ashamed of it but I kept replaying the incident in my mind over and over again and feel like I won’t have freedom unless I give into the compulsion of saying something to that person again. I do go for CBT , take ocd and anxiety meds but such situations make me feel sick about myself

Need someone to talk! I struggle from OCD alot. And i keep remembering the past mistakes i have done. I keep thinking about how i will face certain people in life again. I fear about getting anxious in front of them. And they are my old friends. What to do?

I feel like my compulsions are taking over my life. Every freaking night i spend so much of my time doing and redoing all my actions from walking up the stairs to crossing a certain part of my room to getting it o to bed. i close my bedroom door like 9 times until it “feels right” and have to sing songs and focus on bones in my body just so that i don’t have a negative thought so that i don’t have to do it again. I’m so over it. i feel like i waste so much time stressing myself out about my thoughts and not having the thoughts so i do things to combat and distract from the thoughts and i just feel freaking insane. yes my medication is helping and makes be wayyyy better than i was three years ago but it still feel like it’s taking over my life. i cant stand it and i feel like the more i do it the more i’m getting g comfortable with other people seeing me do it which just means i’ll do it more. i just can’t !!! so many thoughts and so many actions and it’s all based on people i love so i feel guilty if i dont do the compulsion. And even when i realize that this is all ridiculous and that’s it’s apart of my OCD, i just get sad because i’m still going through with the compulsions and start thinking about how this is my life and how i’m stuck doing this stuff forever!!

One thing that I’ve noticed about my OCD is that it makes me feel very regretful and embarrassed at the end of every day. I reflect on every interaction and every conversation and any thought that I’ve had throughout the day. As a result, I feel more and more ashamed of the way that I act, even though it is probably normal for some of my age to act and see the things that I say. Earlier today I flirted with a guy and then as soon as it ended I had so much religious and moral guilt about it. Does anyone have any advice on how to not feel so ashamed after doing the typical activities that people in their 20s do? I feel like these thoughts are making me want to isolate from everyone else so that I’m not put in the position to do and say these things. I feel comfortable with myself when I don’t talk to anybody but I’m noticing that that can’t be normal . I don’t want to lose friendships and potential relationships out of fear that I’m going to say something wrong. I don’t know what to do.