hocdgirlsummer
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- 5y
tiburmontiburmon
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- 5y
Same, I also feel like I've become more forgetful. My memory is no longer how it used to be. I have a harder time recalling names, faces, events... My mind feels trapped in this endless fog of doubt.
hocdgirlsummerhocdgirlsummer
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- 5y
Exactly. Its crazy like everything befroe hocd is a blur to me. I hate it because im so thankful for my past because i used to be so happy. The longer i have this the more it fades. Also now during hocd im forgetful. I miss my old me so much. The difference from me now and me before this is crazy. This truly feels endless. I miss attraction towards men so much. I wrote dozens of messages about my hocd on another group its hard to explain everything now on here but all i know is that this feels endless and like i lost my mind and myself and im 17 and i hate that i know im mssing out on all my teenage years. I just wish i was myself i cant live in the moment anymore. I feel like this also got me deprssed. Its truly living in fog and i want to think and see clear again.
Someone shut up my brain Someone shut...
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I'm dealing with the exact same thing. But I haven't told my parents , but they noticed my change in attitudes
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hey do you have an instagram? and wanna join a group chat?
Someone shut up my brain Someone shut...
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Currently I've been dealing with HOCD for a month, and it's the most horrible shit ever . You start loosing hope, heck I had a crush and now I feel like my attraction for him is gone . My stomach hurts , I don't even feel like myself
hocdgirlsummerhocdgirlsummer
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I know sis ive been there i feel you. Trust me i have this for a year now. Its a craazy ride. Like i miss havinf crushes so much. Please please please dont force it. The more u forcerhe attraction towards boys the more it will leave. My advice is, take a breath. Its going to be fine. I spoke to older people dealing with this. They all told me hat their advice to their younger selves would be to relax because it all ended up to be okay. I try to do this and i findthat it helps with the axniety that comes with it. My anxiety is gone but i still feel nothing like myseld. I truly hope my feelings and abiltity to feel joy and excitement returns. if you look up hocd SG theres a great support group with wise and expierenced people. Im on there too my name is “Iwantmyoldselfback” i wrote a looot of messages onthere maybe some will help. Good luck to you! :)
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- 25w
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- 21w
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Mt2019
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- 19w
Question about HOCD
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