- Username
- hocdgirlsummer
- Date posted
- 5y ago
Same, I also feel like I've become more forgetful. My memory is no longer how it used to be. I have a harder time recalling names, faces, events... My mind feels trapped in this endless fog of doubt.
Exactly. Its crazy like everything befroe hocd is a blur to me. I hate it because im so thankful for my past because i used to be so happy. The longer i have this the more it fades. Also now during hocd im forgetful. I miss my old me so much. The difference from me now and me before this is crazy. This truly feels endless. I miss attraction towards men so much. I wrote dozens of messages about my hocd on another group its hard to explain everything now on here but all i know is that this feels endless and like i lost my mind and myself and im 17 and i hate that i know im mssing out on all my teenage years. I just wish i was myself i cant live in the moment anymore. I feel like this also got me deprssed. Its truly living in fog and i want to think and see clear again.
I'm dealing with the exact same thing. But I haven't told my parents , but they noticed my change in attitudes
hey do you have an instagram? and wanna join a group chat?
Currently I've been dealing with HOCD for a month, and it's the most horrible shit ever . You start loosing hope, heck I had a crush and now I feel like my attraction for him is gone . My stomach hurts , I don't even feel like myself
I know sis ive been there i feel you. Trust me i have this for a year now. Its a craazy ride. Like i miss havinf crushes so much. Please please please dont force it. The more u forcerhe attraction towards boys the more it will leave. My advice is, take a breath. Its going to be fine. I spoke to older people dealing with this. They all told me hat their advice to their younger selves would be to relax because it all ended up to be okay. I try to do this and i findthat it helps with the axniety that comes with it. My anxiety is gone but i still feel nothing like myseld. I truly hope my feelings and abiltity to feel joy and excitement returns. if you look up hocd SG theres a great support group with wise and expierenced people. Im on there too my name is “Iwantmyoldselfback” i wrote a looot of messages onthere maybe some will help. Good luck to you! :)
Anyone else feels their mental health is at a its lowest? I don’t feel motivated to do anything since hocd started. It’s taken a toll on everything. I feel so exhausted, not motivated to do anything. I cry at least 3 times a week. Also could be because of being diagnosed with sever depression and generalized anxiety disorder
All i ever wanted was a man. Now i cant even feel attracted to one. I wanna feel the attraction deeply again i want it to warm me up again and i want it to show me how beautiful life is again. I want it to glow up my days and give my life reason again. I feel like the woman jn me is killed. I wouldve never thought this would have so much impact. That it would kill my hapiness and that it would make everything grey and dull. I cant see the good in anything like this. I want to be the woman who i was supposed to be and not the one who’s blooming got interrupted by this and now feels like a dead flower instead of a blooming one. I was on my way to becoming the woman i wanted to be and who i was. I felt deepy who i wanted to be in life but i cant feel that as long as hocd is in me.
Is it really possible to screw up ur sexuality? Like everyrhinf was clear and good and normal and just so extremely good and i was happy with everything and then this crashed and i feel like it desdass ruined my hormones or something like idek whats going on? How is it that 2 years ago i look at harry styles and my heart jumps and i wanna be with him and my mind was healthy and clear and 2 years later i feel nothinggg for him my hearts empty i feel broken and empty. Why is it that i dont feel something that SHOULD be there
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