- Username
- hocdgirlsummer
- Date posted
- 5y ago
Same, I also feel like I've become more forgetful. My memory is no longer how it used to be. I have a harder time recalling names, faces, events... My mind feels trapped in this endless fog of doubt.
Exactly. Its crazy like everything befroe hocd is a blur to me. I hate it because im so thankful for my past because i used to be so happy. The longer i have this the more it fades. Also now during hocd im forgetful. I miss my old me so much. The difference from me now and me before this is crazy. This truly feels endless. I miss attraction towards men so much. I wrote dozens of messages about my hocd on another group its hard to explain everything now on here but all i know is that this feels endless and like i lost my mind and myself and im 17 and i hate that i know im mssing out on all my teenage years. I just wish i was myself i cant live in the moment anymore. I feel like this also got me deprssed. Its truly living in fog and i want to think and see clear again.
I'm dealing with the exact same thing. But I haven't told my parents , but they noticed my change in attitudes
hey do you have an instagram? and wanna join a group chat?
Currently I've been dealing with HOCD for a month, and it's the most horrible shit ever . You start loosing hope, heck I had a crush and now I feel like my attraction for him is gone . My stomach hurts , I don't even feel like myself
I know sis ive been there i feel you. Trust me i have this for a year now. Its a craazy ride. Like i miss havinf crushes so much. Please please please dont force it. The more u forcerhe attraction towards boys the more it will leave. My advice is, take a breath. Its going to be fine. I spoke to older people dealing with this. They all told me hat their advice to their younger selves would be to relax because it all ended up to be okay. I try to do this and i findthat it helps with the axniety that comes with it. My anxiety is gone but i still feel nothing like myseld. I truly hope my feelings and abiltity to feel joy and excitement returns. if you look up hocd SG theres a great support group with wise and expierenced people. Im on there too my name is “Iwantmyoldselfback” i wrote a looot of messages onthere maybe some will help. Good luck to you! :)
Me before hocd : Omgg life finna be poppiinn, no one finna Touch me. One day ill find a boyfriend that loves me and i will find the cutest boy eeveeerrr and harry styles is my ultimate crush✨✨✨✨✨????? Me with hocd: im so done with this bitchass life like boii i dont find a single soul attractive, all i am is emptyness. Harry styles who? I dont feel anything towards him anymore. All my past crushes were fake i must like woman now. There is litteraly no proof to that i never even liked a girl i never thought of a girl in the way i thought about guys but still, im gay. ?
Okay girls, something that really really bothers me is that hocd also took my girly side. The love for fashion, makeup, skincare all that is gone. Like i dont feel the passion and the joy of it snymore and i hate it so much. I always couldnt wait to be like 17 because i could wesr woman clothing and i could wear heels. But hocd got me sort of depressed and i cant feel the joy of doing thst snymore and i csnt deal with it. It used to make me so so happy. Whenever i was sad my way of coping and selfcare was putting on a mask and paint my nails or something but it just doesnt feel the same anymore. I hate thst i cant be the girly me i used to be. I feel like im just a big mess right now and ive waited so long for it to come back but it just never seems to happen. My biggest dream was to work in the fashion industry and ever since i was a child and it hurts me so much to see my childhood dreams go to waste. I feel so bad for the young girl me who had so much potential and she just was so driven and motivated and now im stuck. I litteraly am ruining myself and my chances in life. I havent felt genuine joy ever since hocd. I miss the feeling of womanhood just being a girl. I always have been girly since i was young and i just feel thst feeling fading away everyday and i miss it so much. Just wanting to dress up and also wanting to dress up for a cute guy u know all of those normal feelings are gone and it makes me someone im completely not.
Ppl with hocd do u feel like an extreme attraction loss for the opposite sex like I hate it I don’t get attracted to boys at al plz tell me if u feel like me
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