Worto
- Date posted
- 2y
Jesus, what a day
Gone from being like a solid 90% to feeling absolutely awful by the end of the day. I thought I'd got somewhere. I really did.
Ella_ RoseElla_ Rose
- Date posted
- 2y
I totally relate but hey tomorrow's a new day, so we can start over again and this time hope for the best!
WortoWorto
- Date posted
- 2y
It's like Groundhog Day. Every day I wake up at 5am and the thoughts are there waiting for me. This morning I chose not to bite and I was good until midday, felt amazing actually. Then its the same old shit all over again.
Dee88Dee88
- Date posted
- 2y
@Worto It sounds to me like you should be really proud of yourself for not allowing thoughts to catch you this morning- well done- remember it’s a practice- keep going!
Ella_ RoseElla_ Rose
- Date posted
- 2y
@Worto I get it I'm dealing with the same shit I tell myself that today's gonna be different but still I wake up with these stupid thoughts, fight em the whole day, then cry myself to sleep wishing I didn't exist. But I feel less of a burden when I come up here on this app and see that I'm not the only one feeling this way.. it sort of calms my mind to know people do feel the way I feel and well, I'm not so alone in this as I thought I was So even though everyday's pretty much the same, I telll myself that I'm gonna be dealing with these fucked up thoughts so I might as well, get out of bed, get fresh, go to work, come home, do stuff etc cuz well the thoughts are gonna be there, I can't do anything about it but I can do my normal routine work anyway so yeah be it. You know this way, sometimes I even forget that my thoughts are even there and just maybe this way someday our thoughts are gonna stop 'being' there.
WortoWorto
- Date posted
- 2y
@Dee88 I guess. I think it's easy to get carried away when feeling better. It trips you up. I don't know about others but when you feel like you're close to finally being back to normality you feel like you should be able to push that remaining bit away and well, that's when you end up back at square one.
blazedblazed
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 2y
You did get somewhere! That 10% doesn’t automatically diminish the 90% you were feeling today. That’s huge progress and you should be proud of yourself! Recovery isn’t a smooth road and it takes time, but if you’re trying your best then that’s all that matters at the end of the day.
WortoWorto
- Date posted
- 2y
Oh I know. It took me years the first time. To a degree, me being impatient is causing more problems than anything. I just want to get on with my life again. I feel I've lost too much time to this. Don't want to spend the next 12 months living a kind of half-life where I'm not able to enjoy myself, you know?
blazedblazed
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 2y
@Worto I completely understand. I feel the same way and it’s so frustrating. But keep fighting and you’ll get there!
hen7hen7
- Date posted
- 2y
Don’t diminish your success! You’ve managed to not bite until MIDDAY, that’s huge!! Means you’re on your way of kicking ocd in the face. You can apply what you’ve learned to the next time. I always use video game logic for things like this. If I *finally* made it to a certain point in the game that was super hard I surely can do it again! And get better from there until that point isn’t hard anymore.
WortoWorto
- Date posted
- 2y
I'm playing Kingdom Come at the moment and I literally just had to do a boss fight about 50 times because my character was way underdeveloped, so this hits hard, lmao
hen7hen7
- Date posted
- 2y
@Worto Hahaha, but you eventually did it? You can do the same with your ocd!
WortoWorto
- Date posted
- 2y
@hen7 Eventually and after a lot of raging, lol
hen7hen7
- Date posted
- 2y
@Worto Rage against the ocd! You can do it!
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