I'm having a very difficult day from an intrusive thought I've been dealing with for a month. I feel like I can't get it out of my head and like I'm stuck inside myself. I'm scared I'm always gonna be like this. I'm scared it wont go away. My stomach is turning and I feel shakey and I'm really scared, tired and depressed. I just want my life back.
im feeling the same way- you are so much stronger than your ocd you got this🫶🏼
Thank you ✨️ 😊 💓 God bless you for taking the time to send a positive message. I'll be praying for you. I always pray for everyone on here. May God heal you and comfort your mind and heart with peace and calm. ❤️ 🙏 ✨️
@Kritty Hi!!! I’m in the same state of mind! Hoping you are ok
@vgb hope you’re doing okay! stay strong🩷
The message above is for D😊
You are not your thoughts. You can have bad thoughts and still be a good person. You can have these thoughts and still have a fulfilling life. I promise this. Keep living in the present moment and don't let OCD tell you what to do.
Thank you so so much. It's so trying. And people like you that send out good vibes and thoughtful messages makes me feel hope. The intrusive thought is so silly too but for whatever reason I just attached fear to it and scared myself and here I am still dealing with it a month later. Thank you for sharing such kind words with me. I appreciate you and all of the other great supporters on this platform. God bless you and I pray great things for you 🙏 ❤️ ✨️
Hey! I’m sorry that it’s been hard - I’ve been there and it really sucks. Here are some tips: it might be making you feel worse to focus on the thought. If there’s any way you can bring yourself back to the present moment - it helps me to listen to the sounds around me for a moment - or calm your body down by taking an Epsom salt bath (these have really helped me) these may help direct your attention elsewhere. It’s impossible to control what is in our awareness, but we can control where we direct our attention - so if there’s anything else you can get involved in or distracted by I would recommend that to give your body and mind a break for a moment. Giving space between you and your obsession may help break its hold a bit. I hope that this helps ❤️ wishing you well and that things get better 🤗
avacado3 thank you so much. I really appreciate your tips and taking the time to reach out to me. Really great advice. I do need to stop focusing on the thought cuz it makes me feel awful. I'm really grateful to you. God bless you and I hope the best for you 🙏 ❤️ ✨️
Same for me. What's more, the urges and thoughts I've been having are making me feel like I want to do the things that are in my head. Really scary and really not fun. I almost don't feel disgust towards the thoughts I'm having which makes me spiral more
Maybe you don't feel the disgust because you're use to the thoughts and you know deep down they are nothing and meaningless. And maybe you don't feel disgust because maybe it's part of healing where they are gonna go away. I am praying for you. And I'm sending out vibrations of calm and peace to you. 🙏 ❤️ ✨️
You can do this, stay strong. Nothing is forever. I believe in you!
Thank you so so much 😔 honestly that means a lot to me. To not know people on here and for people to be so kind and take the time to leave an uplifting message that was so needed. Thank you!!!!! God bless you!!! I pray for you to have many blessings come your way 🙏 ✨️ ❤️
@Kritty You are most welcome. I understand what you're going through, feeling like there's something hanging over your head... but it'll pass. That's the nature of things. Your day will get better!
The above comment is for Ancient-1. I forgot to hit reply under your comment and started typing.
I have had days just like yours. Where I feel I am the one who is at fault for all my thoughts. My OCD has twisted my brain into thinking I'm intentionally thinking these things. But, what always helps me is realizing that our thoughts do not define who we are. It is what we do and believe which define us. Remember that OCD will do whatever it can to make you believe its your fault, but it is not. Blame the OCD, put a mirror up to it and tell it to back off.
pineapple223 thank you for your good vibes. I appreciate it a lot. What a circus it feels like some days with this disorder. I'll do great for a while and then some other dumb thought comes sailing in and then I get beside myself with fear. I appreciate your words and you reaching out to me. It's comforting to have the support. God bless you and prayers for many blessings to come your way 🙏 ❤️ ✨️
McDucko that message was meant for you. For whatever reason today I'm forgetting to hit reply under the commentors names.
No worries!
@McDucko ❤️
Is this my life now? A loop of fears and panic? Freshman year.. two years ago is when all this started. When I began my journey with this debilitating and scary disorder. For a while I felt like everything was okay. Like things were getting better. But tonight it’s getting so bad. I’m shaking, the thoughts are literally making my body enter fight or flight. The feelings.. the thoughts it all feels so real. It makes me question every aspect of who I am.. Is this forever? Will this be my life? If it is, that sounds like pain.. I constantly check myself.. which ain’t realize might be a compulsion. But I wonder, am I lying to myself? But then again I wouldn’t fear it so much if what I felt was true. I try to stay calm, to not fight the thought but let it pass. But it only grows in power. It’s been giving me these fake feelings. Things in which i’d never felt before. I just want to be okay. And I wonder if that’s even possible anymore. All I know is that I have my family, my Mom, everyone who loves me dearly. Please anyone… I don’t want to beg but if you could give me some motivation or positive words i’d love that.
They’re getting more intense.. My mind wonders if what i’m feeling is really OCD.. what if it’s not and i’m in denial? Why is my life like this, a constant loop of fears and stress holding me back. I just want to live. To be the kind boy everyone knows. To make and be a difference. There’s sometimes I wish I could stay asleep.. to rest for a while. To hibernate all these feelings away. But I know that’s not how it works. Each tear I shed is a reminder of the hell I live every day when I open my eyes. I don’t know who I am anymore. I don’t know why I am anymore. Please someone.. advice, words of positivity, something.. I feel so alone. I’m scared. I don’t know where else to go.
This might contain triggering content, but I'm also wondering if others have dealt with this similar thought, and if so, how to deal with it? Overall, I've been doing so well these past few days. I'm able to eat again, which I hadn't been able to do because of how much anxiety I'd been experiencing. I'm spending time around loved ones and not just rotting in my room, and I've been able to wake up without immediately being bombarded by intrusive thoughts. When things first got really bad, I'd wake my mom up every night for reassurance, but I haven't done that in a while either. I'm really proud of myself, but there's still this nagging thought in my mind... While looking through others posts on here, hoping to find advice that'd fit my situation, I ended up making things worse. Someone mentioned how they had a fear that they'd purposely search for illegal content (related to POCD). I panicked, and "what ifs" flooded my thoughts. "What if the intrusive thoughts affect who I am as a person, and I do that?" I'm terrified that I'll search for those things, which I know means I wouldn't do it. But then, another person on here said they'd actually looked for those things, and that freaked me out even more. Does that mean it's possible for that to happen to me? I don't want to do that, but I keep having intrusive thoughts surrounding it. I've been doing so well these past few days. I'm just... stuck. I don't know what to do. I've spoken with other people who have the same fears, but how do I manage this? It's not something I've even thought about before seeing those posts. I've been practicing accepting the uncertainty, but I'm really struggling with this one. I hate this. This morning, I woke up, and the intrusive thoughts were back. It's just disheartening.
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