When drunk….

Whenever I’m tipsy or under the influence I tend to text and message everyone. I also take wayyyyy too many selfies haha. But these things for some reason make me feel so cringe and gross the next morning that I begin to have intrusive thoughts about it…I think it’s because I text my crushes and in the morning realize nothing ever will happen mainly because they aren’t into me, which is rejection, which then makes me so embarrassed. For instance, I took my shot and went up to this guy at the bar yesterday only to be rejected! I was and still an embarrassed.

Motionless

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y

I am not a professional, and hopefully what I’m saying is no reassurance. However, I’ve struggled with alcohol. 12 years of my life, and I’ve throwaway most of my 20s because of it. I have send messages to bosses, friends and other people that were inappropriate. I get where you’re coming from when you talk about drinking and then making a fool out of yourself or your OCD clinging on the next morning because you can’t remember all the details because your mind will fill in the blanks with negative thoughts. That being said, maybe this could be the catalyst of what makes you want to quit drinking and conquering your OCD. Just want to let you know that your thoughts are not who you are, and people make mistakes. So I hope what I’m saying either shine the light or help you in someway. I’m going on two months being sober and I realize that my anxiety and my other forms of doubting myself have diminished because I had no longer intake alcohol. I hope you have a good day.

anonymous700

Date posted: 2y

@ColdStoneCreamyAustin Thank you so much for your thoughtful response. I really appreciate and I’m proud of you for taking control and wanting to better yourself! I do drink due to anxiety and I know that isn’t healthy and I know that I should do something about it. But I really don’t know where to start

Motionless

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y

@anonymous700 At least, from my case, and I’m just saying this for me, that it all starts with admitting that you have a drinking problem. And I hope you take what I say, with a grain of salt, but you have to hate yourself in order to change the thing that you dislike. Meaning that you must not love alcohol anymore to be like I’m done with this. I am done suffering because of my addiction and I want to be better. Trust me that once you get to that point, and you start to better yourself, you’ll realize that you didn’t need alcohol to begin with, and your anxiety will diminish drastically. However, it is a very hard tough journey to go through. I really struggle with cravings and wanted to drink again and just feeling uncomfortable because I’ve been so drunk most of my life that I don’t know who I am anymore. But that’s the fun part is that because I don’t know who I am I could mold myself, and the person that I want to be, and not continue being the degenerate drunk that my family at one point I thought I was ashamed of me for. And all reality they were just concerned and they wanted me to be healthy so I made myself healthy for them and for myself. Hopefully you come to terms and to change and you can make peace with yourself and continue on your beautiful life.

anonymous700

Date posted: 2y

@ColdStoneCreamyAustin You are so considerate and extremely helpful ❤️ this will definitely take some courage for me to unpack but hearing you is really eye opening. I hope you find peace and eventually learn to embrace yourself ❤️❤️❤️ it’s not easy but I’m super proud and happy for you!

Lillo2000

Date posted: 20w

Confession compulsion

I’ve been feeling the compulsion of confession again. I hate confessing things to my boyfriend I don’t want him to carry the burden. I’d rather hurt than him hurt. But I feel I did something wrong and he needs to know. Like I need to be punished or something. I may be over reacting to it but I just feel guilty and I had a panic attack when I woke up yesterday. I would never cheat on him. Just making guys laugh I feel like I am doing him wrong or flirting. And then when I notice it I just feel awful. I just want to be liked and noticed not romantically but just as a human. I don’t know why I act like this and feel the need to tell him as if I slept with someone. I think it’s attacking my biggest fear which is losing him. Does anyone have experience with this?

Nl123ehe

Date posted: 17w

Real event

Hate myself for who I used to be. I used to sleep around. I drove drunk a couple times. I was careless. I’m so ashamed because it’s not who I am and especially not who I am now. I did it because I was lonely. And now I suffer not knowing if I hit or killed or hurt someone. This pain is just draining.

Notanon

Date posted: 14w

I did flirt

I flirted back to my friends bf one time. Maybe this is a confession. The thing is I dont judge myself, but I do feel judged by them. OCD got its grips in me this week. Convinced im the worst person in the world for these crimes. Can't read any of the messages she sent me after calling so many times. He is messaging me too and I cant read it. Its been a week. I dont know what to do. She has his Instagram and phone and was calling me from his phone and his ig too. Part of me wants to block them all to stop the harassment, part of me wants to defend myself, part of me wants to tell her the truth that I dont gaf about him and he was coming onto me not the other way around. But she would never believe it anyway.

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