Depersonalisation

Has anyone else got depersonalisation or derealisation and ocd ? It’s bad enough having one or another but combined it’s actual hell. Already feeling disconnected from ur own body mind and voice is scary but coupled with ocd where you doing what is you and what is not. It’s just so hard. My ocd is so severe that I’m losing insight into what is real and what’s not like there’s a disconnect or a shadow just stopping me from being rational. Its a lot to handle tbh. The constant battle between not recognising ur own face self etc and then ocd creating such overpowering strong feelings that that you are the very thing you fear and everything you do to resist the compulsions have some ulterior evil motivate behind it.

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User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y

I often disassociate when my ocd gets bad

Mayte

Date posted: 2y

I used to have derealization and depersonalization everyday for over a year during the pandemic. It was terrifying. Looking at myself in the mirror to not recognizing myself.. to my surroundings feeling unreal and super clear.

iyz7

Date posted: 2y

@Mayte How do you get rid of it? I’ve had it since 2018 but I’ve had times where I’ve not like been in it fully and enjoyed life idk if there’s ever a way you can get over that bc that involves forgetting being aware at all I think

Kritty

Date posted: 2y

@iyz7 It will go away. As uncomfortable as it is, you need to engage with people and talk and keep yourself occupied doing things. I know it's hard to not focus on it but you have to try and re-route your mind and just stay busy. I had it and it was terrible so I know its an ugly feeling. I'm praying for God to lift it off of you. 🙏 ❤️ ✨️. You're gonna be just fine 😉

iyz7

Date posted: 2y

@Kritty Yeah it’s so hard but there has been a time where it wasn’t there so I know there’ll be another time too so thank u !!

Kritty

Date posted: 2y

@iyz7 Oh youre so welcome. Exactly!! It will wear off honey. Don't worry. Ya know what I did, there is a grounding technique called the 5-4-3-2-1 grounding technique, so when your anxiety is very heightened and you feel like you have been, you acknowledge 5 things u see around u, acknowledge 4 things u can touch around u, acknowledge 3 things u can hear around u, acknowledge 2 things u can smell around u and 1 thing u can taste around u. This helps keep u in the moment. I would also run my wrist under cold water which helped pull me back in the moment. I colored those adult color books that have nature scenes and flowers and butterflies because they are so detailed you're not thinking when you're doing them except what colors u want to use for the picture. Take up a craft. I started to learn different types of friendship bracelet patterns to make off of YouTube. Or try jewelry making. Earrings, bracelets and get an etsy account and sell. My friend does that. And she strings different colored beads and adds a charm in the middle or some type of pendant and sells them and makes a good amount of money doing that. So this way u find something that interests you and u can make some money too all while helping ease your mind and that feeling to wear off. I'm really rooting for you. I know it's hard but you'll get out of it and it won't come back ever again because this time you're gonna conquer it completely. My prayers are with you 🙏 ❤️ God bless you.

Mayte

Date posted: 2y

@Kritty This exactly how I got rid of my derealization and depersonalization. Distracting yourself is really helpful. Focusing on the dr/do will just increase the anxiety. So These tips are very helpful!

Kritty

Date posted: 2y

@Mayte Thank you ✨️ So happy for you conquering it 💖!!

Anonymous

Date posted: 15w

Feel lost and without hope

I dont know what to do anymore. I think Ive had the 'pure O' version of OCD for more than ten years. I feel like so much of my life has been wasted from this disease. For the longest time I just tried to ignore the intrusive thoughts, and push them off as anxiety, and basically dissociated for years of my life. Feels like Ive just been on autopilot and a shell of myself for nearly 15 years. Its actually hard to even imagine of all the experiences, emotions, connections with others, and personal growth that Ive missed out on- if I do, I think it would be too much to handle. I think Ive even forgot and dont even know at this point what it is to live a normal life and experience positive emotions. Now that I sought treatment for it specifically, it feels like it's gotten worse. Like by acknowledging that part of myself, suddenly added focus just makes it more real and in the forefront now. I wonder if I am actually going insane. Will not go into details for reassurance but the thoughts just rip my soul out. Its so difficult as well because I will get random 'clarity moments' throughout the day where I feel like Ive solved something, then get completely derailed by another OCD thought stream and forget everything. It feels like Im just on a merry-go-round of hell, not going anywhere thinking I am at times.

jesus.is.fre...

Date posted: 14w

OCD 'feeling real'

I suffer from religious ocd. My only goal in life is to live in God's will and to serve Him - to live and enjoy His eternal purposes & His presence. Jesus Christ is my life. That is my only desire on this earth, this short trip into eternity, and it's being stripped by ocd thoughts and intrusive thoughts 24-7. I have read many times that ocd can 'feel real', and this is true, our minds lie to us because of fear and anxiety we can't and were never meant to carry. I have begged and tormented myself in every way to find an answer from God. I think His answer may be that this is OCD, but I'm not sure. I started therapy again because I am so exhausted and this had stolen so much of my life in a spiral of negativity, depression, and constant anxiety & intrusive thoughts. I have spent about 2 years trying to figure out if my thoughts are real or not, especially with ocd it can deceive so easily as a spiritual matter when in reality it is just a thought, which is confusing and scary to say the least. Can anyone share their experiences with this sensation? No matter what the theme is... Thank you & Praying for your comfort

kenzieisfound

Date posted: 13w

fear of losing control??

I’ve never been diagnosed with OCD, but I relate so much to what people here are going through. I used to think it was just anxiety, and I felt like I could handle that. But lately I’ve been spiraling—constantly afraid that what I’m feeling is something worse, like psychosis or losing control of my mind. I feel so detached and scared, and I just want peace again. I have anxiety doing the smallest things, like the thought of waking up everyday and even eating give me straight up panic. I am afraid all the time, it’s paralyzing. And a lot of people say someone with psychosis wouldn’t worry that they’re in it, but then I convince myself I’ve been in it this whole time, and haven’t known, and that maybe I’ve been doing weird stuff. Idk. I also get really scared of labels. Even the idea of OCD makes me feel like I’ll never get better or like I’ll be stuck like this forever. I just want to be okay. If anyone has felt this way—confused, overwhelmed, or scared of what’s happening in their mind—I’d really appreciate any support or encouragement.

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