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WOW.. I thought I was alone.
As horrifying as some of these posts or should I say thoughts are, I find relief that I am not alone. WE WONT LET IT WIN. God bless you all!
As horrifying as some of these posts or should I say thoughts are, I find relief that I am not alone. WE WONT LET IT WIN. God bless you all!
No you are definitely not alone
Feel free to comment your experiences, as I would like to build people to share coping skills to help us all overcome this!
This is a great platform with a lot of great supporters willing to share their experiences and give advice on how to help others with theirs. I feel so blessed to have found this community š
It's nice to see people on here genuinely wanting to get better, I know other people in real life who just accept they have ocd and dot want to get better because it's too tough (one of them being my mother). It was encouraging to hear and see some of the stories from the users on this app. Some of the posts make me cry because I can tell how much they struggle but also how strong they are for pushing through. We can all get better, I honestly believe that with every fibre of my being
Hello. I feel a bit better after I sit with the uncertainty for a little bit. So, in my case, I suffer from SO-OCD. My biggest āproofā is that I like to look at naked womenās bodies to get aroused and because I find them beautiful/sexy. This is extremely distressing and there are times when Iāve had very dark thoughts where I just wanted to die. I havenāt gotten over it yet, I still am struggling every day to go on with my life as normally as I can, but I havenāt given up and neither should any of you. My thoughts donāt define me, I can be whoever I wanna be and like whoever I wanna like. Plus, itās very helpful to remind myself that feelings are not FACTS and I donāt have to act on my thoughts/urges if I donāt want to.
@Kalalalala How are you doing now?
Hey everyone. I wanted to share my story and some of the things I have/am experiencing in my journey with OCD- particularly with Sexual Orientation OCD. My goal is not to use this as a means for reassurance for myself or for any other, rather as to be a reminder for myself and you all that you are NOT alone. No matter what you are experiencing you arenāt alone, and we have all gone through the same thoughts and feelings as you, in whatever form they may have been. For personal reasons I will not share my name, but I do want to share about me and my journey with what has truly been one of the hardest things Iāve ever experienced. I am a 24 year old female and for as long as Iāve remembered Iāve always been a āworrierā. My dad used to tell me that worrying will be the fastest way Iād die lol. Oh! How I wish I could go back to those days of just simply worry. For the past few years I have struggled with what I now know is intrusive thoughts. But, luckily for me they were a little calmer than what Iāve experienced now. They were the occasional worrying that my boyfriend died but I would get over it rather quickly. Well, in may of 2024, I had just graduated college, was about to get married and about to move out. So, that triggered some switch in my brain and thus began this horrible disease of OCD. My main type has been SO-OCD but I have found some moments that Iāve also struggled with ROCD as well as some existential crisis OCD. I have unfortunately not been able to go to therapy because of money but I am on meds and have been using tips and tricks Iāve found online. My goal is to still go to therapy when I can find the right time. And I, like many of you have months of great āfreedomā from the disease; and then, like I find myself now, fall back into its trap. I wanted to share some of the things Iāve experienced with this to see if yāall have experienced the same things and to let you know you are not alone. For reference, I am straight (I am happily married to my wonderful husband). 1. Thoughts from the past: I slightly remember having a thought that Iād be gay when I was around 12-13⦠that was around the time I actually first figured out what that meant. Even then, I (more easily than now) brushed it off. Continued to have about a million crushes on boys and never thought of it again. But now, with my OCD, I feel āconvincedā that that was a sign that I was gay. 2. I have always been a girls girl. Me and my friend have a joke that we are worse than men! Meaning that when we see a pretty girl with a nice body, we stare. We say they are pretty. Never have I ever thought anything of it. It was always from a place of envy and admiration. Never a place of lust or anything along those lines. But NOW. OH! If I even look that direction I feel guilty, I feel like thatās confirmation that I am gay. And even worse- that is one of my compulsions. To look and make myself āproveā Iām not gay. 3. I have lost āfeelingā for my partner. I love my husband. More than anything else. I could not live without him. But since this all happened, my emotions and fears have been all over the place that Iāve somewhat lost that feeling. It doesnāt help that Iām on medicine that can have that effect. I have to just remind myself that love isnāt always feelings, itās a choice. And I choose him every single day. 4. sex life issues: bc/ of the OCD fear as well as my medication, I donāt have much sex drive or pleasure in the bedroom as I did before OCD⦠and, my OCD likes to convince me that that is because I would be better off with a woman (even tho I donāt want that) and then, OH THEN, I proceed to experience some groinal sensation from that though. So- cue even more āproofā that I am gay. well- thatās all I can think of now. Let me know if any one yall struggle with those. And I hope you know, YOU ARE NOT ALONE. YOU ARE NOT YOUR THOUGHTS. YOU ARE NOT YOUR OCD š
I hope everyone is doing well today, and for those of you who are struggling my thoughts and prayers are with you. Just know your moment of peace is coming soon. I think itās important that we post / come on here every now and again even when we are not in a moment of pure panic and fear. Remember that we are not our thoughts as hard as it is to understand. Remember that OCD makes it feel ārealā and that OCD will always make us think the most inappropriate things and the most inappropriate times. Remember that all humans, have thoughts that come and go and as hard as it can be to understand you are not alone in your thoughts that feel so unique. For me I get a lot of anxiety from thoughts I used to have , which of course makes them return in full throttle. The more I push them away the more they come back. And those thought makes new connections to those things in my life I value. OCD is a pain but itās important that as much as you hate it you learn to be compassionate and understanding that itās there to āhelpā you no matter how bad it does it job sometimes. Stay strong everyone
It kinda mind boggling to me how OCD can even cause stuff to happen to us physically as well. And it all feeling real. It only reminds me how flawed our bodies really are. If people were to hear of our situations they'd call us names and choose to stay ignorant. People fear what they cannot understand. Before this I could have possible have been one of them, but here I am. OCD really goes for anybody. Does not matter what ethnicity, religion, sexual orientation you are. It is a twisted disorder that likes to make others lives harder. If I were to tell myself before this that this would happen, I would'nt believe it. I was convinced I am evil, I cried for weeks. I had to sleep in my parents bedroom for a period of time cause I couldn't face the darkness alone. This application helped me greatly during this, cause I learned just as much about OCD as I did about myself. At the same time I get saddened cause I see people going through the exact same, or much worse. If any who come across this post have any questions for me, u can feel free to do so
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