I think my OCD is getting a bit better, I’m now realizing how stupid I was to think those disturbing thoughts were logical. I’m even wondering how come I was genuinely confused, I let OCD take over too much. I’m genuinely angry with myself.
It can feal really real. No shame in that. Your brain is supposed to be able to tell reality from perceived danger. If you can't trust your thoughts then how would you know? It's not something people typically call into question. Just take it easy on yourself and expect intrusive thoughts throughout your life. If you never have them again that'd be even better. Celebrate this win.
when i was feeling better, i experienced the same thing. when ocd is at a low, the thoughts do see unlogical, but when you’re in the best of it, they seem so real
@D:) It’s like I can see that those kinda thoughts were not even supposed to be engaged. It’s like seeing a disgusting food, no need tryna understand it or be logical about it. It’s disgusting, simple. But I allowed my self engage with stupid thoughts. I’m annoyed at myself but it’s growth so I’ll take the win. My prayers are working and God is with me.
@Anonymous200 It's huge growth - no need to feel annoyed at yourself remember OCD isn't logical and we can't help how hard it can feel at times!
@ada110 Thank you so much🥹. These past few weeks I felt like a monster, I was suicidal so much. I cried so much. I didn’t want to be a monster and it was feeling like I was but I’m so thankful!. I decided to go to God and battle this. I started to exercise more, pray more. I made an internal decision to fight for my happiness. I can’t afford therapy so it was hard seeing a way out but I’m glad that I even felt this!. More wins to come. I would still go to therapy once I can afford it but for now I really have to fight for myself
@Anonymous200 That internal fight to say you're stay on top of OCD and not let it get the upper hand is really important I think. Remember, sometimes life circumstances mean it is harder to find that fight inside us, but keep going if that happens, it will feel crappy but you'll come through it.
when i wake up they look real and when i go to sleep i know they are just thought but tomorrow it's a loop
@Lade I understand you perfectly, right now I’m struggling with forgiving myself for ever thinking them. It’s definitely a loop but we can do it!
Can you share how your ocd started getting better?
@hopefully Okay let me try and explain. I don’t know if you saw my initial post where I stated that my OCD has taken a new pattern. The thoughts felt so real, and logical and it scared me so much. I was engaging those thoughts and it started to feel logical and like me but suddenly I can tell that these thoughts shouldn’t have been engaged atall!. Engaging it was me sending the wrong signal to my brain I guess and that’s why it felt like it was part of me. Rn I can see it for what it is, it’s a very disturbing thought and I shouldn’t try to make it logical to seem okay because it isn’t!. Basically, clarity
So I’ve noticed that my OCD has calmed down, I’m getting less intrusive thoughts but I feel more uncertain than ever. Is this normal for recovery?
Does anyone who has gotten better/healed with OCD ever experience that their thoughts and urges get more difficult as you get better. I feel like I am getting better at handling certain things but I feel like now newer themes and such get more difficult as I progress. I was curious if this is kind of the process to getting better. Weirdly, like it makes sense the closer you are to getting better thoughts become worst and stronger since you are doing better. Just need to keep on pushing and doing what I have been. Let me know, would love to hear your guys thoughts and feedback
Okay so I have been struggling with pocd. And I have been getting better but now my ocd is telling me that I'm proving it right by slowly started to get better. For example, after so long of trying my hardest to avoid anything protaining to children I realized that I have to in order to get better. So I've been letting myself go out more and yk see children. The intrusive thoughts are still there though. Which is feeding into it trying to convince me that it's real. It feels like it does that anytime I'm a step closer to getting better. Does anyone have any advice on how to help it? I struggle with mental checks and responding. I know that I should let it pass but it's so difficult. The intrusive thoughts have been getting worse too. They pop up over the smallest things. It's all just jumping to insane conclusions and I'm so sick of it. I just want to be better.
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