I just had the weirdest coincidence involving ocd. I don't want to get much into it but I didn't do one of my rituals and the EXACT thing I feared happened. It feels crazy but I don't know what to do, Literally can't get it out of my mind. I literally don't know if I'll ever be the same again. I'm terrified and convinced it can't be a coincidence.

Well, not being sure is a hallmark of ocd. ? It probably will take some time to equilibrate and get a better sense of reality. In other words, your feeling right now doesn't necessarily characterize reality or even how you will feel in the future. I know it's really really uncomfortable and painful, but maybe let the feeling sit there for a bit and realize you will deal with it in due time.

It's possible and consistent with random chance. As an example, people with ocd about contamination almost certainly do get sick sometimes despite their rituals. It's trivial then to associate getting sick with a failure of some ritual.

There have been times I've also felt like I could never be the same again. On probably like 20 separate occasions. But I was always wrong. Feelings can really bad indicators of reality, especially for people with an anxiety disorder.

Terrifying feelings come and go. We usually can't make them disappear right away. Sometimes it's better to just accept their existence and think about what productive things there are to besides focusing on the fear. Like maybe eat some nice food. Or chat with a friend. You don't have to figure everything out right away.

Hey ?? i hope that what I’m going to say doesn’t come out as giving you reassurance, but I commented on your last post, and like I said, I have a similar type of ocd as yours, and this has happen to me before a couple of times, in fact, something happened today. While I was having an intrusive thought and trying to resist doing a compulsion, one of the light bulbs in my bathroom went out, and yes, it totally freaked me out, but after the anxiety passed, I came to this conclusion: ok, that would’ve happen even if I wasn’t having that intrusive thought. I know that at the moment it may seem like a sign, but they’re just really f***ed up coincidences, just think that the weird thing that happened to you, was going to happen even if you gave into your compulsions.

That's prof that things happen regales of rituals you have prof the rituals don't do shit

Are you actively working on treatment? Do you have someone to talk with who is more knowledgeable about your circumstances?

I'm supposed to start seeing my therapist again Wednesday. I'm not sure if it's coincidence, that's how crazy it is, it literally feels otherworldly right now. I don't know how to describe it. It's not the first time I've experienced a coincidence but this one was too weird.

This isn't exactly what happened but this is the best way to a situation similar. Imagine you had ocd about your grandma dying. You go on YouTube and are recommended 3 videos about a grandma dying and get a call from the hospital that your grandma is in critical condition. That's what level crazy this is.

Things you obsess about are probably going to show up in your YouTube or search suggestions... most likely you did some googling about whatever it was at some point. And grandmas are old and indeed at higher risk of dying compared with young people. The point is that there could be things you are overlooking because you do have OCD, and you're in such a heightened state of emotion. So maybe don't give too much reality to your instantaneous state of mind.

Thank you. To be clear I was using the grandma thing as a metaphor/ comparison of what happened. I'll check back in in a few hours.

yeah, I got you! Just trying to use your example/metaphor to show how feelings can make you blind to reality in the moment. It's happened to me a lot before. Looking forward to hearingfrom you again later ?