I have assurance of my salvation, but my prayer life is still awful. I never have any desire to pray, and when I do pray, it's always half-hearted and empty. I've tried disciplining myself and just forcing myself to pray even when I don't feel like it, but that usually leaves me more discouraged than when I started. I feel so guilty over my prayerlessness, but I can't seem to improve. I've cried out to God so many times, begging Him, "Lord, help me to pray more," "God, give me the discipline to pray," and "Father, please give me motivation to pray." But it never changes. I just want to be able to enjoy communion with my Savior.

raeray

Date posted: 5y ago

I understand this all too well. I have gone through this a lot. Something that helped me is just talking to God randomly. Like yesterday when I saw 2 sunflowers growing in the freeway. I just said God thanks that was cool to see. It may not seem like a prayer but I believe prayer is a conversation with God so I see stuff and thank him or pray for the situation I come across. I may do it halfhearted but it’s still talking to him. As long as you’re including Him I honestly think you’re good.

keith11

Date posted: 5y ago

I completely relate. This is one of those instances where mental health and legitimate Christian desires converge and get blurry. I am a Christian and struggle with what is called "scrupulousity" in my OCD. As a matter of faith, a question to ask here may be "do I really believe, based on what God has revealed in scripture, that He wants me to feel like a worthless guilty failure because I don't _______ often enough?" If the answer is no, then we can start there. Maybe the issue is not that we don't pray enough, but that we feel there is some certain amount we must pray to keep God's affections. When you think of it like that the OCD may get exposed for the imposter that it is, tricking us and invading our faith. Hope that makes some sense.

keith11

Date posted: 5y ago

Also, it helps to bear in mind that so much that is preached and written in Christian teaching is done so with a "normal" audience in mind. When we hear a sermon on prayer, and the need to pray more often, our personal struggles send us down a path the preacher probably never intended. We rarely consider that the majority of the audience being spoken to may need to hear that to motivate them from complacency. We have to apply a different lens sometimes because we understand our own unique position in this scenario... again, hope that makes sense.

ButterflyStar

Date posted: 4y ago

Are you still on this app??? Plz help me

Farhadi28

Date posted: 5y ago

Like raeray said, prayer is just talking to God. It doesn't have to be all formal or anything, you can just talk to God throughout your day about anything. Maybe just every day start off by thanking God for His love that saves you and makes you His child. Right there you just prayed in a very simple and beautiful way. Or what concerns you tell Him about it and that is considered prayer.

Kaila Conque...

Date posted: 23w ago

I’m so scared

I can’t. I’m so scared. I don’t want to deny the HOLY SPIRIT. I keep having intrusives that make me question my real intentions.

Jesuslover28

Date posted: 21w ago

Idk what to do

I don't even know if I should put this here, but I have the greatest girlfriend in the whole world, and I love her very much, but my thoughts keep saying I'm going to hurt her, so I can hurt God and idk what to do, I feel so disgusted and idk what to do, and the worst part is why does some part of me just not even care idk what to do anymore, it's almost like I'm turning into this horrible person and idk what to do, I'm really not sure what to do. I have really been able to be happy I just feel like I don't deserve it and I want to care about people and God and I want to be a good person, but a part of me shuts off my caring nature and idk what to do, I'm really freaking out because it's like IDC and idk what to do I just feel so nasty and scared because why don't I feel like I care. Why does it feel like it's something I wanna do idk, what to do I'm really freaking worried. Also I don't want OCD but a part of me says I need it or I like these thoughts and idk what to do, as im writing this i just feel like laughing and idk what to do, i really judt want jesus to hug me and say everything will be alright, i am such a monster....

issphra 🫶🏻

Date posted: 18w ago

I’m sick of confessing, advice please

I don’t know how to stop confessing. It’s driving me insane. I confess every little thing to my boyfriend. I confessed that I liked attention (this is so obviously human), that I liked it when people found me pretty (also very human??) I confessed about a million other things and I feel out of control. I felt so safe with him last night that it just started pouring out of me. I felt guilty and awful and I just needed release, I couldn’t breathe I felt like I was dying. I’m stuck in a confessing loop and I know I’m only making things worse. Has anyone experienced this and been able to overcome it? It feels absolutely horrible and impossible. I tried to ERP this and I genuinely feel like I am suffocating if I hold off. I feel so disappointed in myself, but I can’t seem to stop. I even had a dream where I confessed to him and woke up needed to confess that. I’m scared I’ll start sharing my worst intrusive thoughts I’ve had if I feel too safe around my bf. Help please :(

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