You can do this

I want to share some hope with all of you who feel stuck, depressed, like this is never going to end.... First of all, you are NOT alone. As much as your OCD mind wants YOU to believe you're alone, that no one understands, that no one has the same distressing thoughts as you- it's all untrue. OCD wants to keep you "safe", but it's not. It's robbing you of the things and people you love. Secondly, this isn't you, it's OCD. It might feel like you don't know yourself anymore, and I know that feeling, but it isn't YOU that you don't understand or know, it's OCD. Finally, I want to give you some advice. Stay off forums, take a break from this app, take a break from YouTube, don't give in to those compulsions. I would 100% recommend that you talk with a NOCD therapist, but resisting the urge to do compulsions (ruminating, researching, skin picking, etc) is a good way to start. Don't forget to go for a walk, eat something, call a friend, listen to a song you love and dance to that song if you want to!! It can get better, I promise. I've been where a lot of you have been/are right now. I've been to the bottom, I've thought that it's never going to end, I've withdrawn from people, I've stopped doing the things I love and engaging with the people I love. Everything takes time, but change and recovery can happen, I promise.