Does anyone else screw up doing compulsions and now you’re scared something bad will happen? Like sometimes I mismatch my “safe phrases” in my mind, and they turn into an unfortunate pairing of words that only fuels the OCD to torture me more with “haha, see? you just said it, you meant it.” I’ll give an example for clarity (not a real one, to avoid triggering) Intrusive thought: You like that person Me: No, I did like them but now I- Intrusive thought: You DID??? You know what that means- Me: No! I meant to say I NEVER liked them, and I DON’T now!! It’s the biggest “And I oop-“ moment ever. (If anyone knows that meme lol). Just wondering if anyone else can relate.

It helps me to think of OCD as the devil. God would never want those torturous thoughts for us. If you're not religious, you might try referring to it as a monster. Either way, it seemed to get easier when I put a figure to it and could just get angry about having the thought and quickly dismiss it.

Yes .... at this point I just laugh at all the thoughts I have and It helps me to keep letting them pass by. I would have bad thoughts about God for example that were really disturbing growing up and even now randomly on occasion and I’ll think no God I’m so sorry I didn’t mean that no that’s not what I meant but then I realize He isn’t mad because he knows my heart and it’s just a thought and I kinda just laugh and think thanks for the brain you gave me Lord. Things never get boring in here lolol

Also I have perverted thoughts sometimes about people that come up in my head that go against my moral convictions and I’ll be like I’m in love with so and so wait no I’m not that’s gross wait what?? No what no I didn’t mean that oh gosh did I mean that?... but now I just think wow I’m not the only one who has these weird thoughts .. other people can just blow them off because they aren’t alarming to them but with ocd and intrusive thoughts we have our thoughts provoked by anxiety and then the ocd provokes more anxiety and if we can go in and change the neuropathways through other thoughts that create positive pathways, that way of thinking will eventually take focus and shift from fearful things to more pleasant ones and even if the fearful things persist we can go ok this has happened before and it won’t be the last time it does... this sucks but it will pass. And I’m not gonna lie Sometimes it’s really distressing especially having thoughts that go against moral convictions but I realize now my thoughts are not me

Hey Amber3993. I also struggle with the same thing as you and I have sexually intrusive thoughts. It’s true that God does know our heart. And he understands what we go through. But at times the thoughts are distressing. Good to hear other people suffering with the same as me!

Pro tip, immerse yourself around your surroundings and do not bother talking with yourself. It is not bad talking to oneself but for us, it doesn't help the situation.