It just half a day and almost everything is triggering my thoughts I mean no mattter how much I try the time I open my eyes in the morning ocd starts it's game and it continues throughout the day...I feel exhausted now...and the people surrounded me are making it more difficult day by day...and I can't even tell anyone anything...too much frustrated...
I know this feeling and experience very well. I’m sorry you’re experiencing it. Keep fighting. It does get better. Allow the triggers to be there. Be willing to feel uncertain and anxious and press on into your life anyway. You may not get relief today, but it will get better if you press on.
It's scary...🥺🥺
I'm hear you. My OCD flaired up again and it feels like if i tell ppl. They will think I'm crazy
Yeah!..that's my biggest fear too...🥲🥲
@Anonymous May I ask you something?
@Al3xandria! Yes...
I’d just share with the people around you some truth of your situation. Explain that you have anxiety and lately it has been a lot for you. Ideally they will understand you are dealing with something and show you empathy. When they do the compassion or empathy can be very helpful throughout. so far in my experience at least. I believe as of right now it may feel like no one will understand you but I try and tell myself that we are all human and likely we’ve all been here or there at some point in varying degree.
I tried to tell it to someone and the instant reaction was it's all in your head after that i haven't tried again
@Anonymous I’m no therapist. Yet I’d like to help you if I can. So, please forgive me if I handle this poorly. The thing is that our thoughts are in our heads. We create thoughts think about what we think about. I’ve come to realize through my experience that I believe essentially “OCD” is where our brains have a hard time diverting off some thought patterns. Like we get stuck and overwhelmed on ideas or things that are hard to cope with or process. For instance, typically you’d go see a scary movie. You get frightened by the aspects of the film then once the film ends you find peace in your surroundings after the movie. You’re able to change your train of thought and get back to business as usual. With OCD a thought can stick and no matter what you do your mind keeps going back to that. This is where things like meditation and therapy come in. They help us to be able to better manage our thoughts. So I’m essence what people are saying is then trying to be helpful but they don’t conceive the stress or pressure of what you’re going through. They are just iterating how they would handle it in hope that it helps you.
@davem2 Yes, I understood what you are trying to say. Actually they won't understand the stress I am going through is actually stopping me to tell others about it but what do you think should I try to tell them??
@Anonymous I’d start by trying to explain the anxiety or panic attacks and if they inquire further then explain what causes them. If you’re employed or in school and it affecting your work. Id let them know if you’re seeking therapy or medication to ease your symptoms.
@Anonymous But it is also nice to have this outlet here so you can relate with those struggling with the same things.
@davem2 Ok...I'll think about it
@davem2 Thankyou
@Anonymous I had to tell my boss on Thursday and it was difficult to do so. Then Friday I called in because I felt paralyzed when I woke up. I opened up because even though it all feels like a crazy bad dream I couldn’t risk not saying anything and just seeming like I was being negligent. Surprisingly my boss was very passive and he said thanks for letting him know and to take care of myself first. On the other hand I reached out to my father to express that I needed help and to vent and he seemed very unconcerned and like his problems where much bigger. I suppose it’s really about giving people a chance to understand you and finding a safe space in those who are willing to at least try and understand.
@davem2 Ok I'll also try and I am sending prayers for you hoping for you to get better too
If u don’t mind what kind of OCD DO U STRUGGLE W
Having ocd is so incredibly exhausting and depressing- my mom and dad argued with me for over an hour talking about how im a pain to be around, go in too many loops, and ruin everything and everyones mood… this conversation started with me saying im stressed out because of school and that i dont want to go because im exhausted- and idk if this is like ocd directly but it takes me like 2 hours to get ready in the morning because i need to look PERFECT and the same everyday literally 😭 and that process feels so exhausting every morning at 6am but i will NOT go to school without going through with it- i will literally be crying and shaking and wanting to go home the minute i get to school if even a single strand of my hair is not perfectly straightened or any blemishes or flaws are showing- and i cant even walk to school or anything bc im scared the humidity will mess with my hair and everything- and it just really affects my life? And yeah its freaking exhausting. And i have two more years of highschool and I dont know if im going to make it 😭i get super stressed over grades too because i need them to be extraordinary otherwise its a fail. Nothing below 95%. And thats also tiring! 😁 and my mom told me today “medication IS NOTTTT AND OPTION!!!” Like oh okay so im just cooked 😭 and therapy isnt really helping me at all- i feel like what im being told is so basic and generic and it doesn’t help me when im in a huge ocd episode- which is often… and what i hate most is like my mom says “don’t come to me with your problems after 6pm…” im sorry i cant schedule my feelings 😭 im so tired
I have no idea to what extent the new medication I am on is affecting me positively or negatively. The past two days and Monday have been awful. I feel close to walking around in a daze in the mornings. For whatever reason Tuesday was actually like a 3 on a 5 star scale whereas average had been below 2.5. I know the OCD is pissed off but it’s so bad and interfering with my life so much. It just hammers at me basically nonstop. I know I can watch YouTube and read books/comics and sometimes play with Legos but exercise, video games, consistency, feeling like I have a choice when I want to do these things is so difficult. I’m starting to lash out with anger at things and am going back down the path of self harm and suicidal thoughts. I just despise all of these thoughts like nothing I’ve ever experienced before.
I feel like my life isn't my own anymore. I live by OCD's rules. I can't ever switch it off. I spend most of my day mentally reviewing and constantly checking myself. I have to do things in a certain way or i dont feel safe. All this time that i've lost and for what? Idk how I let thoughts have so much power over my life and yet here I am. Every day. I can't even get away from it in sleep because i have dreams about it and I wake up anxious if i manage to get any sleep at all. I'm so over it all.
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