OCD is so paradoxical

@hen7 That’s so true…. I’m experiencing the same…. ERP done wonders on my harm OCD

@hen7. Thank you. I've been doing ERP for about 2 weeks for scrupulosity. The thoughts and feelings are rough. But hearing your story encourages me. Have a blessed day.

@R. Byrd I’ve had scupulosity as well. When it was particularly bad I felt God tell me “I know you don’t want these thoughts.” And that gave me the permission to treat these thoughts like the others. Like OCD intrusions and simply let them be there and not react in any way. It might take a while for them to dissipate but they will as long as you don’t engage with them in any way.

@hen7 @hen7. Therein lies the problem. I engage. My thought is that God has abandoned me and the feelings are there with it. So it's hard not to think about it. I go about my day and do the things I need to do but those thoughts are just there all the time. But I still do my ERP. I know it will take time. I just discovered I had Scrupulosity a few years ago. It started when I was 8. I'm 56 now and getting therapy for it.

@hen7 And one thought that came to me the other night just out of the blue was, "The things you are believing are just not what the Bible says. For some reason that brings a little hope inside of me.

@R. Byrd Glad to hear you have therapy. Keep at it and it will get better. God did not abandon me and He will not abandon you. That’s just not who He is. When your OCD has been dealt with I pray you’ll experience His love for you. ❤️ I know after that whole thing I grew a lot in my faith and began to rely on God’s faithfulness. At one point (and it might take a while to get there) I was like “if God wants me then He will save me.” - I realized I never had control over my salvation. It was always going to be based on God’s mercy and love and the work of Jesus. Not based on me. That helped, strangely enough. Because it showed me the flaws in my thinking. One thing that also helped me a lot is to say “your thoughts above my thoughts” - Knowing that my thoughts, especially when they feel OCD-ish, are often incorrect. This will not take the fear away, but it helps to remind myself that I can’t always trust my brain because I have OCD.

@hen7 I listen to Jaimie Eckert at Scrupulosity Solutions and she says what you said, "God is just not like that!" I do appreciate you sharing your experience and answering people's questions and concerns. I hope one day to do the same for others.

@R. Byrd Ran into this and thought of you: https://www.instagram.com/reel/CwH8JzThHAW/?igshid=MzRlODBiNWFlZA==

@hen7 Thank you

@hen7 That's beautiful ❤️