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So. Tired
I literally cannot deal with grounal response anymore I'm so tired
I literally cannot deal with grounal response anymore I'm so tired
I get that! Apart I guess from the actual Obsessing and Compulsing (š š ), the groinal response is probably the worst OCD symptom. Itās so confusing, so disturbing. I think itās because itās the most difficult one to accept as being an OCD symptom (most peopleās first instinct, which is obviously wrong, is to think a physical response means our intrusive thoughts are true/ real), and also on a more practical level because itās just physicallyā¦there.
@Pudu OCD It also makes me feel like I want it ā¹ļø
@twerp Except your body doesnāt know the first thing about what you want. You do. Your groin doesnāt have a brain. It cannot think. Your groin is a very primitive biological system that can react to all kinds of stuff from actual arousal, to physical touch, to tightness or looseness of clothing, to temperature changes, or even to weird emotional states like stress, anxiety (which OCD specialises in) or even anger. You think it means you want it because youāre listening to your OCDās anxious and panicked voice and believing it. But remember your OCD is triggered precisely BECAUSE you donāt want it.
I spent years and years and years (about 10!) being bullied daily by a team consisting of my brain and my groin, not knowing I had OCD. It was a nightmare. Learning later that I do have OCD was a huge relief - to be able to have an explanation thatās not āI am going mad and turning into XYZā. It doesnāt make the symptoms much easier but at least I can look at them with more detachment/ less emotional investment now.
@Pudu OCD For me my groinal responses are sometimes triggered by breathing and blinking and it makes me think I m doing it on purpose which is awful ā¹ļø but I'm going to work on more expisures
@twerp The struggle and confusion is real. What helps me with the groinal response, is to ignore it, and physically go on with my day. I weirdly find that easier to do with the groinal than with intrusive thoughts for some reason. Just physically going from a room to another, getting up to get a glass of water or snack or something. I find that sort of works for me. I know it doesnāt for everyone.
I read somewhere that the groinal response isnāt just from attraction but also from an anxiety response or just the fact that you would get a response from simply putting focus on that area when checking. This has helped me not put too much focus on it.
Can you elaborate?
@Pascal from PL I'm just tired of dealing with the groinal response it really hurts my mental health and just makes me sad
@twerp I got that. But you respond thatvway to ???
@Pascal from PL ?
Every time I go to bed late and Iām falling asleep, I suddenly get an intrusive thought of a childās face and my groinal area always responds to it. Itās such an uncomfortable experience. I am way too tired to try and freak out so I end up falling asleep. The next morning Iām always trying to figure out whether I had the groinal response first or after the thought. I start giving OCD power but it feels like If I let it go, then Iām in denial or whatever. I donāt want to ever do anything sexual with a child. I donāt even feel comfortable talking platonically with people who are 17, much less a child. My therapist says that I have a deep rooted fear that Iām this horrible person and that OCD loves to feed off of it. When you get a groinal response, it makes the thought that much more real. I never want these things to happen. I want to only be into adults. Itās so discomforting and stressful. Especially since Iām hyper checking how anxious I am, and if I find I didnāt really have much anxiety, then Iām like āwell if I didnāt have anxiety, what does this mean?ā And more questions occur til I end up in a rabbit hole
My sister is going to a concert and coming back to the house where me and my family live. In my mind her clothes are extremely dirty. And I know her coming back is going to cause a lot of strong contamination thoughts to enter my head. Iām exhausted already from pushing myself and I canāt seem to focus on anything when these thoughts are really strong. Iām in college and this makes focusing on homework difficult. I failed an exam the other day bc I couldnāt stop thinking about what I need to clean and then cleaning. Itās really exhausting.
I just canāt do this shit anymore.im tired of these āarousalā sensations that feel real but when I go check my arousal to the same gender I just get anxiety. Iām tired of feeling like I canāt like girls anymore. Iām tired of my arousal getting blocked every now and then because Iām anxious. Iām tired of not knowing who I am anymore. Iām tired of having my mind putting me into an identity I never asked for. Iām tired of this life
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