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I battle with time with God feeling like a compulsion too. I told God yesterday I want a relationship with Him. I don't want to just pray, read and journal to check off a box. I want to know Him. I'm glad you have peace today.

@R Byrd Exactly. Until I recently learned I have OCD, God was just a compulsion. Now as I'm applying the tools, allowing the uncertainty, that's where I can allow God in to be there in my brokenness.

@Mike in PA @Mike in Pa. I am slowly coming to that realization. It is indeed a journey of learning.

@R Byrd I have a list of affirmations that help me. Here's the first 10. THE WORD OF GOD SAYS: 1. I am God's child for I am born again of the incorruptible seed of the Word of God that lives and abides forever. (1 Peter 1:23) 2. I am forgiven of all my sins and washed in the blood. (Ephesians 1:7; Hebrews 9:14; Colossians 1:14; 1 John 2:12; 1 John 1:9) 3. I am a new creation. (2 Corinthians 5:17) 4. I am a temple where the Holy Spirit lives. (1 Corinthians 6:19) 5. I am delivered from the power of darkness; Christ brings me into God's kingdom. (Colossians 1:13) 6. I am redeemed from the curse of the law. (1 Peter 1:18-19) 7. I am holy and without blame before God. (Ephesians 1:4) 8. I am established to the end. (1 Corinthians 1:8) 9. I have been brought closer to God through the blood of Christ. (Ephesians 2:13) 10. I am victorious. (Revelation 21:7)

@Mike in PA Thank you. I will try to begin to apply this. Sometimes it's hard to read the Bible, listen to worship music. And music is how I love to worship God. I've only been at NOCD and doing ERP for about 3 weeks so I'm trying to take it one day at a time. I see improvement in one area then hear comes something else. Such is OCD.

@R Byrd You and me are so much alike! Everything you just wrote is me in my OCD journey. Music grips my soul, and I haven't had that for months

@Mike in PA Well it's good to know we're not alone!😊

@R Byrd Yes indeed! My church had a summer worship night 2 weeks ago. 90 minutes of worship. It was awesome, but it seemed hollow to me, before my latest OCD spoke I would've been in tears and everything worshipping.

@Mike in PA These are great. I love “Fear not, I am with you.” Isaiah 41:10 The way I see it is some intrusive thoughts can feel scary and resisting the compulsions can feel scarier. Keyword: “feel” But, God takes care of his children so there’s nothing to fear.

@Mike in PA I know it. Small steps. But Scrupulosity sure does mess with the things we love the most. But I have suffered with it for almost 50 years and I know it's going to take time. But we will get there.

@Mike in PA There's a song by Cory Asbury called misunderstood. It's beautiful.

@Betterdays_ontheway 🙂 Yes if we could not feel the emotions OCD brings with it.

@Mike in PA Thanks for this. I did a screenshot so I can refer back to it.

@Artloverforever Awesome! :-)

@Artloverforever And be careful not to make it a compulsion, like I was.

@Mike in PA Ok sure thing

@ noneuclidean. I hope you continue in your new normal 😊

@R Byrd I didn’t! Went to work and got triggered and stood in a corner ruminating for a half hour. But that’s okay. I’m working on bouncing back.

@noneuclidean Small steps in the right direction leads to great results

@noneuclidean It is ok. You only ruminated 30 minutes. You got this!

@R Byrd I ended up ruminating for several more hours, I’m ashamed to say. Hardest day in six weeks. But I had a good cry and plan on continuing to fight. Sorry to be a downer. I really was doing great this morning.

@noneuclidean No! 6 weeks of doing well is great. Not a downer. You keep fighting!