Idk why but I am not feeling myself, I feel like I can't control this all anymore and wanna cry badly but can't cry. Everthing feels so heavy, (not trying to sound dramatic) but I really wanna hug someone tightly and brust into tears...
Been there, nrtaewh, but always remember that the episode will pass. Do you have a trained OCD therapist in your corner, one who uses ERP therapy?
Hey, ty. But no I don't have a therapist
@nrtaewh - Why don't you contact NOCD and request a free consultation. It could change your life.
@Steven55! I didn't know it I could do that, and I'm lil afraid. But I would try...
@nrtaewh - What are you afraid of?
@Steven55! I don't know how it works what they will ask me and also my parents don't know about it...
@nrtaewh - Honey, I've had OCD all my life. I don't know about your folks, but I have found that they know more about us than we think they do. I'm sure they know something is wrong and only want to see you get better. If you are under 18, you may need to talk to them before NOCD will work with you. (Hey, OCD Community, I could be wrong, does anyone know the rules)? On YouTube, NOCD has downloaded some good videos dedicated to educating loved ones about what you're going through. You may want to have one of those ready to play if you decide to speak with them. I strongly encourage you to do so! I'm 68 years old, a grandpa, and I didn't get much help until I found NOCD and began working with a trained OCD therapist (thank you, Judy Lair) who uses ERP as a therapy tool. Before that I spent a lot of time and money (so did my folks) with therapists who hadn't a clue about OCD and/or how to treat it. As to your second fear, please don't worry about speaking to a therapist. Like a priest in a confessional, they've heard it all before. You won't be judged, laughed at or scolded, only helped. Will you think about it? We're here for you.
@Steven55! I surely will, thank you so much. This really made me feel much better.
I agree with the suggestion above of getting therapy! In the meantime, and I know this might sound a bit strange, but have you tried hugging yourself and allowing yourself to cry? It’s okay to feel overwhelmed sometimes. OCD can get super difficult, and it’s perfectly okay to cry and to give yourself comfort and compassion. I used to hold back tears, even when alone. One day I realised that this was a symptom of my perfectionism and self-criticism, and, on some deeper level, a tendency to blame myself for my OCD and its symptoms and/ or a refusal to see myself as a victim of this disorder (even for just a moment). Allowing myself to cry was a radical and positive change in my mindset.
Tysm(:
@nrtaewh You’re welcome! You are going through a tough time, but it won’t last forever, and you are not alone.
@Pudu OCD I know it won't last forever and not I'm losing hope. And thank you for you sweet words I'm glad to have such a sweet people on this app.
I was there once and I hope you know you are loved! Please be kind to yourself , it’ll pass and one day you will thank yourself for all your strength!
Ty🫂
Take it day by day, you will get through this patch. This patch might return. But feelings pass. They are also okay to have 🫶
Yes you're right, I'm feeling better now. Tysm for your reply
I genuinely feel like this terror inside myself, like this is my last day till everything gets horrible… idk suddenly I have this anxiety this “fear of nothing” makes me feel like I’m not gonna make it, that I will never feel okay and that my life is over. I’m scared, I’m always scared
I have hold back my tears . I’m trying so hard to play it off. I can’t think about it anything without on the verge of falling apart . I have no self control over my mind . I’m scared. Is this a psychosis . I have barely eaten in days . My stomach is growling but I have no appetite. Idk what’s going on . Normally if I have a rough week I can fight it but I can’t fight it this time. My biggest fear is loosing my bf. I’m spending the day with him and all I can do it think about what’s gonna happen when I leave .
I genuinely can't help but feel irredeemable over every little mistake made or regret I've had. It's so up and down, but I just miss the certainty. Knowing "this is who I am." I'm so disconnected from myself. Like, I'm really, really trying. Today is really rough... I got triggered the other night, and it's been hell since. I've been fighting seeking reassurance. I want it so, so incredibly bad, but I know it won't help me :( Some days, I just don't want to be here. It's funny because yesterday I felt amazing until I got triggered. I just immediately spiraled after that. I don't know. Does it genuinely get better? Will therapy really help me? Sometimes, I think maybe this is the best it'll get, and that scares me. Sorry for the vent. I'm just feeling so overwhelmingly anxious right now. I can't even cry (due to Zoloft). It feels claustrophobic somehow, having all these emotions trapped inside of my body with nowhere to go 😭
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