How to work through ocd and emotions?

How should i deal with ocd latching to emotions? Is accepting that i had that emotion is the way or i shouldnt take it serious what emotions i have now that i have ocd? I ask it cause its still not clear how to handle emotions, cause alot of people say you have ocd cause you are afraid of your emotions and you pushed them away, the other part says that you dont have to give attention to your emotions cause it will just make you obsess...Im tired of this "duality". I have suicidal ocd and if i have to listen to the first method, i have to accept that i had emotions of wanting to die...and this just makes me feel worse, it doesnt help. But the other one feels like a compulsion just to feel better... Is ocd really a protecting mechanism, like for recovery i need to accept the feelings of wanting to die and expose myself to that to lose ocd? So in a way ocd makes me avoid dealing with the feeling of wanting to die? Or this all is stupid and i have to ignore everything just now?