I can't stop relapsing. It keeps happening even though I tell myself that I shouldn't do it. The intrusive thoughts are really high and so is the anxiety. I'm just trying to let them all pass. My mind is so focused on this one thing even though it hasn't bothered me before like usual worries that I have.
Personally, I don’t tell my mind not to relapse. I accept the setbacks and with shifting perspectives OCD has less of a grip on me.
It's nice to hear you found a way to have it so there's less of a grip. Maybe I can try accepting the compulsions I'm struggling with
I feel you. I just got diagnosed yesterday and the more I let the thoughts be there,accept them,and not let them intimidate me, the intrusive thoughts are like almost every second. But there is hope, we got this !
Did it get better when you let the thoughts sit there? How did getting an official diagnosis feel? I just can't help engaging in addictive behaviors and it takes a huge toll on my intrusive thoughts and creates new fears.
@BigGip09 To be honest I’ve always had intrusive thoughts but I always got over them but on Monday a simple thought changed my life and triggered the OCD. I’m learning to accept it because it’s OCD thoughts it does not define me. One thing I’m reminding myself is “it’s just a thought,it doesn’t have to mean anything”
@lolo1212 I see what you're saying. I've had intrusive thoughts before I even knew what OCD was. It's just really hard when my thoughts focus on the things that I do. Right now I'm fixated on an obsession that's about compulsive behaviors and it's really bothering me but I'm trying to let it pass
@lolo1212 Also I heard yesterday if someone was to come and rob things from your home why would you call the police to come arrest you if you were not the intruder? That’s how OCD makes you feel, makes you think that your thoughts make you a bad person when you’re not ..it’s just a thought that should have passed by but we’re letting it park on our minds
@lolo1212 That's a very interesting scenario. Coincidentally my thoughts are about crimes sometimes. I have a fear of being in jail and I also fear I'd lose my mind if I ever end up in there. When you mentioned how it's a touch that should have passed but didn't is how I feel about this current obsession I'm having.
@BigGip09 I’ve had those thoughts too but my ocd “theme” is a bit different but I learned that the “theme” is not the problem the problem is how we are obsessively thinking about the thoughts. I know it’s easier said than done to just let the thought be there and not engage in them or stop thinking about how we can fix our minds to think about something else. My anxiety has been so bad but you’re not alone
@lolo1212 Yeah. You've told me something I've been told by others on several occasions. The SECOND my obsession is shifted to something else, it's like the previous one doesn't matter because this one is worse and needs more attention, according to the OCD. It's really debilitating. What's worse is that by this point I feel like I should be able to understand this by now but it's still really hard and exhausting.
@BigGip09 Same here. I had an obsession about a thought one day and then yesterday another one that even got worse so it “needed” my attention more. I’ve seen so many YouTube videos on how to fight with the ocd but even tho I try I feel exhausted cause I’m a roller coaster of emotions. Give yourself compassion because you’re trying. We have to accept that it’s a journey rather than a quick fix . When I was told that I was like how can I live with this anxiety,ocd, and depression I’m feeling? I’m going kinda crazy. But I’m learning to rather accept the journey than want fast results and make it even harder to navigate with OCD. A goal is to learn to live with the thoughts but not engage with them because ALL of us humans have intrusive thoughts just some react differently to them .
@lolo1212 You're absolutely right. On the other hand, I just feel like I'm doing things that make this worse for me, but I think that part is completely true. I can't help certain compulsions that I do and now I'm ruminating on how I did the compulsion this time. I'm just trying to keep away from the compulsions and just do another hobby. Self compassion and acceptance is difficult for me and like you said it can be exhausting.
@BigGip09 Yesterday I acted on a compulsion and I’m like okay but it doesn’t have to happen again even if my ocd says “what if it does” I’m trying not to let that bully get to me even tho it’s hard. It can be hard to have compassion but ocd is not you.. it’s just in our human brain and these thoughts don’t define our character infact OCD goes for the things we value most
@lolo1212 Yeah, I'm sorry it's difficult. It's the same for me, but I just feel like it's different for me because I act on compulsive behaviors that I know won't help me but I still do them because it's like an escape. Then my mind will start throwing thoughts at me questioning why I do this and why do I keep doing such stupid things and then it makes it really hard to sit with the guilt. It's hard to stop the compulsions overall..
@BigGip09 I feel you. To be honest aside from getting help on here I go to instagram or YouTube on how to stop acting or having the fear of possibly continue to act on your urges
@lolo1212 For me I just try to keep away from loneliness. It's not always something I can keep away from but it's definitely my worst trigger. I just want to stop my compulsions for good but it feels impossible. Do you have a therapist? I can't wait to find mine
@BigGip09 Yes keep away from being lonely! I know it’s hard but meeting your fears is going to help. Today I faced some fears..people that I love but wanted to avoid cause I’m dealing with this and I went to visit them and it was hard but I forced myself because I’m not going to let this ocd bully me! And Remember these ocds thoughts or urges are not yours! They don’t belong to you or define you. We are on a journey. I wanted a quickfix cause I couldn’t deal with this but I’d rather take on the journey and know you WILL overcome
@BigGip09 I met with a therapist yesterday and she was great! But due to financial reasons I’m not sure if I’ll be able to continue this therapy.
Personally I find by either by being indifferent or embracing something unpleasant it tends to have less of a hold , there seems to be a certain irony to this but many things in life actually work in opposite attraction theory.
Hey! Just wanted to check in and see how are you doing today ?
Hello, there! It's good to see you again too. I'm doing better than before, thank you. Have gotten a therapist followed by your diagnosis. How are you been?
@BigGyro09 I feel like myself again and some ocd tries to continue to lie to ge but I learned how to fight back.Some days are easier than others but I was going to message you directly but we can’t on this app. Im not sure if you believe in God but he renewed me on Friday. What I experienced is too long to share on here but there was something in me telling me to check up on you and tell you you’re going to overcome this.
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I'm happy to hear that you feel like yourself! That's very good. I do believe in God and I have made attempts to stay close with him in the past. I need to try again, however. I appreciate the messages and thought a lot. That really does help. :)
I feel like the thoughts are telling me, "You want this, you want to be attracted to kids" when I know that's not the case. I've been stuck ruminating for the past couple of days and I'm so worried about this disorder convincing me that I'm something I've never been. I try not to fight it, but when I don't it feels like I'm giving into it like it's true. The meds I'm on keep me from being super depressed, but it's still there. I feel like I'm going to act on my thoughts one day and it worries me. I don't feel like myself anymore and I don't know if this is progress or a relapse. Even when having intercourse with my partner, I had to thought block because the thoughts were images while in the middle of it. Then afterwards, they came flooding in saying that I was doing it as a distraction. I don't know what else to do. I try to pinpoint all of my triggers, but sometimes I don't think I even have any. I feel like a monster. I'm honestly scared.
I need advice for intrusive thoughts. I used to feel like I could handle them. They weren’t nearly as bad as the things that related to my actual life. But now, I’m suffering. I haven’t had a sexual experience in over a year that didn’t involve constant intrusive thoughts. Most are somehow related to kids and I keep chasing off the thoughts but it’s so bad. I know you’re supposed to ignore them but I don’t know how I can just ignore that and continue what I’m doing. But they’re coming on stronger. I had one earlier I could not get rid of just as things finished so the thought came on strongly just before my orgasm hit and now I feel absolutely disgusting. I hated the thought and I know it’s not me and it was not enjoyable but it still feels like I was getting off to it. I feel sick. I’m so fucking tired of these thoughts. They’re in my every day life too and it’s all the time. I just want it to stop but ignoring it feels so wrong. What should I do?
I deal pretty heavily with this. The last couple days, I’ve had what I think are urges. Something pops into my head intrusively and then what stems from that is me WANTING to just indulge in it even though it’s gross. I get worried bc I used to struggle w thoughts about my dad for a long time until eventually I just purposely thought of him while self pleasuring and got off to it. While that’s something I did, it is NOT me. It all stemmed from my mental health declining a couple years back, I was never this way before. So I get worried that it almost happened or might happen with my pocd cuz I could never live with myself if it did.
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