steleven
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- 1y
overwhelming existencial crisis
i cant live through this if it is like that everyday
PDButterflyPDButterfly
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- 1y
I understand but our brains are messing with us. We have to say no to the negative and intrusive thoughts! It’s so difficult at first. Please don’t let your OCD brain take over.
stelevensteleven
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- 1y
Yeah I am trying thank you ❤️ I love my big sister so much and I have to here for her and for my family
stelevensteleven
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- 1y
how are you doing?
HenryMP27HenryMP27
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 1y
Yes! I understand that completely. The past can be hunting. But it is up to you to choose if you will let it affect you. The only reason these memories impact you so much, is because you are letting them impact you. Taking responsibility is part of the process, and I apologize in advance if it sounds like I am disregarding your feelings. I do understand how painful the past can be. I am deeply sorry for what you are going through right now. But please know that as long as you have the willingness to get better, you will. I can guarantee that. Have you already started some kind of treatment?
stelevensteleven
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- 1y
Don't worry Henry, you didn't sound rude I understand what you say, but it is very hard to let go of things :( I am currently doing therapy I go there like once a month and talk about how I feel but most times I just start crying and talk about topics that yes impact me but are not the reasons of my main discomfort I don't even know why it just feels like that in the moment. The therapist is amazingly nice and I always feel understood, IDK if she is specialized in OCD I don't think so, but as in my search for help I encountered people that wanted to make me pay for reiki sessions and didn't understand what OCD was I am just really happy that I have found one that understands OCD she even explained me how that event made me start having this kind of thoughts and all.
HenryMP27HenryMP27
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 1y
@steleven I am glad that she helped you understand the possibility of these intrusive thoughts being caused by previous events. In my journey, I learned that in order to overcome my ROCD, I had to first change my perspective about a lot of other things: Life, relationships, mind, body, values, physical appearance, personality. It takes time to discover all these things that are keeping your OCD so strong. Have you already been able successfully perform some ERP exercises?
stelevensteleven
- Date posted
- 1y
@HenryMP27 No I have never, not on the topic I am on
AnonymousAnonymous
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- 1y
What’s bothering you? I’ve been having an existential crisis as well and trying to stay positive is hard
stelevensteleven
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sometimes lack of meaning, I am normally considered funny and I am energetic some days, but then it hits and I just think about stuff I did when I was 15/16/17 and create scenarios that I don't even know if are real and think omg did I do it? I am a monster. I took a nap and I feel a little better. What about you?
HenryMP27HenryMP27
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 1y
Hey there! I consider myself a Christian Omnist with Nihilistic tendencies. I have learned to be at peace with my beliefs. I'm happy to talk if you need support.
stelevensteleven
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- 1y
Hello Henry, how are you doing? Sure, I don't properly believe in any god tho. But we can talk
HenryMP27HenryMP27
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 1y
@steleven I'm doing excellent! Thanks for asking! I understand you could be doing a little better. In a few words, what is it that seem to be bothering so much?
stelevensteleven
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- 1y
@HenryMP27 stuff from the past that I did and stuff from the past that I did but what bothers me is if I did them while dating if it makes sense? I had a huge family trouble when I was 18 so my brain is a little foggy of some shit like in the time line I am sorry if I am being confusing
stelevensteleven
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- 1y
@HenryMP27 I am happy you are doing good :)
tippybippy tippybippy
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- 1y
I feel the same way all the time, if you ever need anyone to talk to I’m totally here!!! I hope things get better for you! :)
HenryMP27HenryMP27
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 1y
I understand, thank you for sharing! Have you considered the possibility of acknowledging past and future as non-existent elements? In other words, do you think you would be able to give yourself a chance to start all over again, starting today?
stelevensteleven
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- 1y
I don't think I can do it, I feel like it will haunt me forever
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