This TOCD is really fucking me up in the head . Putting me in a really dark place and just fucking me up mentally feels like I’ve turned into a different person.

I’ve always been comfortable being in the body that I’m in . I’ve actually took pride in being a woman . I wanted to be a strong woman it never bothered me . And I’ve done all the girly things and it has never bothered me it’s made me happy . But all of this has ruined all of that for me and made me question who I am and just everything about me . And made me question my true self . Deep down I know who my true self is it kind of just feels like she’s lost somewhere . I feel like a completely different person and its scaring me cause it’s just like who are you . I’ve tried saying okay I guess I’m just gonna be a boy now and it put me in such a dark place which confirms that I don’t wanna be a boy but it keeps questioning why I like being a woman and it’s just like because that’s just me . And now my brain feels like it’s on fire ?

Thank you . For your help . I just can’t seem to get any type of relief. I keep trying to find answers and it’s just scarring me more and more . I just feel completely different. I guess I’m just trying to figure out how to be the person I was before this horrible theme . This has been my worst one

It’s understandable to feel the way you feel, getting a thought like that can be scary and confusing, but everyone gets thoughts like that, it doesn’t mean you are a boy. You are happy being a woman and know you are one, you don’t need reasons to like being a woman, but just the knowledge that you deep down know you are one. I think you will realize soon who you truly are once OCD stops being so intrusive. I’ve had almost every intrusive thought under the sun I feel like, Harm OCD and POCD for a hot second, but the best thing to do is not give into them and don’t give up. It’s best to not say “okay I guess I’m a boy now” like it’s not best for me to say “okay I guess I’m a killer now” or “I guess I’m a pervert now” because I knew I wasn’t those things and I never will be. But that’s what OCD does doesn’t it. It preys on that uncertainty. Just hang in there, you’re gonna be alright kid.

I can definitely feel you on that one. It’s hard to find yourself again after any OCD flare up. But just remember that you aren’t alone in all of this and I know you are feeling stressed rn, like you’re never gonna find that person again, but trust me, she will come back. You just have to get through this breakout...damn I should listen to my own advice sometime lmao.

Hey, I’m a transgender man who also has OCD and if you want to talk to me about anything, it might relieve your anxiety a bit. I would say that you most likely are not transgender because you seem to not want to be that different person; whenever I transitioned it was so freeing so be that different person and transition. Of course I don’t want to be the guy who tells you who you are, but if you genuinely fear being trans, like not the social backlash or anything, but being trans in itself, than you probably aren’t and it’s just OCD being terrible. I kind of sort of had my own thing with TOCD, but it was reversed, I feared I was NOT transgender. But I have come to terms that it was my OCD. Hope this helps :)

I feel the same ??