i have ocd's real events coming back in my mind. i don't know what to do. there are two particular instances, one is very worrying because i don't know what really were my intentions and im afraid that it is the worst, one is something traumatic about something that i saw that wasn't my fault but the fact that i replayed just now the memory in my head makes me feel sick and guilty.
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good thing mate, glad you feeling better :)
@skwijx18 no problem mate, me or anyone else in this community are here to listen and help if you need any. I didn't do much, you chose to get better, keep going in this path, it is a long journey so don't so get discouraged by the next pebble, you'll overcome it
That sounds like Rumination. Gently redirect your thoughts back to the present moment or the more important task at hand
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the second memory is very traumatic, it was a long time ago. I was in a groupchat on telegram and a user sent out of nowhere an illegal gif, like straight up ****phile stuff. I was shocked because I had seen something that should never exist and that I should have never seen, something wicked and unnatural. It makes me want to cry. I felt so disturbed and unsettled. I shamed the guy for sending this shit, but I should have reported him, i didn't think of that. I said to the admin of the groupchat if he wasn't ashamed of having someone like that as a friend and he replied that he had that stuff too. I was shocked by what he said (was I? Ocd is making me doubt even this, I certainly was disturbed tho) I think I just left the groupchat. I now know that it isn't my fault, but the very fact that my own eyes saw that stuff makes me feel guilty anyway, like an accomplice. I wish I could erase that memory.
this shit is very uncomfortable to talk about so don't feel the need to answer, I understand if you don't feel like it. thank you for giving me a chance to vent though
im going to be vague here, but basically i did something in the past that i regret and it became a huge point of my OCD but i have talked to my therapist and i have mostly moved past it. i watched a video by an OCD youtuber that really put it into perspective. anyway, i have been with minimal worry for a few days, but now im having worries related to i think false memory? basically it’s like “oh but what if i said/ did this and just forgot that means i harmed this person im a bad person”. to me it sounds like textbook OCD but im just wondering if anyone else has experienced false memory / real event at the same time. i have a really horrible memory which is making it even more stressful. any responses are appreciated!
With real event OCD, I don’t know if any of you feel this way, but do you ever feel that the past event(s) that you ruminate about or constantly obsess about are gonna come up in your future and just absolutely ruin you, that’s how I’ve been feeling for months, it just feels like impending doom, and I hate having to even think that my future would be ruined by what I did as a teenager, and I did some dumb things, that I regret so deeply, I just can’t stop thinking about that.
just wanted to see if others struggle with real event ocd really kicking their a**. i feel like my mind is a constant battleground of every mistake ive made and they feel so huge and life altering to me that it’s hard to continue going on in their wake. just wondering if anyone else feels this way too.
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