My birthday kinda just got ruined right now

Hey, do you wanna talk?

@Anonymous Yeah if its not a bother to you

@internetperson Not at all, I see that you didn't have the greatest of days especially on your birthday, but hear me when I say that you did nothing wrong. You didn't wish to escalate the situation further or you found it uncomfortable and decided to step away, that's not wrong of you, you're a brave person and you did nothing wrong. I grew up with an abusive dad and he passed some of his anger issues onto me and my brother, we continue to struggle with handling that, but it doesn't define who you are. You can be better and you already are by choosing to step away. You did good and although this may be the first time I'm meeting you, I'm proud of you

@Anonymous Thank you, I really appreciate this. I've never considered him abusive towards me because I know he loves me and he does a lot for me. But everytime he got aggressive or angry towards me when I've shown my own frustrations, I would strat shaking or on the verge of tears, I wonder if families are supposed to make you feel that way. I've noticed that his anger issues have passed on to me, it affected my past friendships and I wish I didn't lash out like he does. I start to feel horrible and expected to stop crying that easily, I don't get how they don't understand that controlling my emotions is super difficult, why can't they just leave me alone/give me some space when I'm either crying or feeling upset. I tend to shut down, where I can't even talk to anyone really. But they get even more frustrated with me and it makes me feel even worse.

@internetperson You don't have to control your emotions, but you can control your reactions to them and you did by deciding to leave the room. It's okay to cry I hope you know, never be ashamed for crying, because that's your body showing that it is overwhelmed and needs a release. You're a amazing person, I just know it, you can get through this. Families are difficult unfortunately and parents don't know how to treat their kids in the best way, but, that doesn't excuse their actions. You have a right to be upset and that is okay. You did good

@Anonymous I really want to try controlling my reactions to when someone is showing frustration towards me or just annoying me. But ofcourse it won't go away in one night. But thank you, I really needed someone to talk to about this while on the weekend lol, but now I'm scared of what they'll say to me after they're done talking to our relatives lolol. I just want to take a break from that till tomorrow.

@Anonymous But you seem really awesome and sweet, I understand your anger issues, I wish you and your brother well:)♡

@internetperson You did nothing wrong, remember that, even if they come at you saying that you did something wrong. They're being hypocrites, you're struggling, and you did your darn best and that's all they should be asking of you because you tried and you did amazing. I wish I could give you a hug! You got this!

@internetperson Thank you and I wish the same for you, I'm here if you ever wanna talk

@Anonymous I'll try to keep that in mind from now on and not let it get to me :)

@Anonymous Thank you!! I'm also here if you need to talk aswell🤍

@internetperson Thank you!

@internetperson I'm only struggling with some emotional blunting caused by a high dose of zoloft 😅

@Anonymous Oh noooo, I hope they can lower your dose of zoloft next time you speak to your psychiatrist.

@Anonymous Ofcourse!!