real event

My events are actually so much worse than anything else I’ve seen here. Not to discredit anyone’s feelings, but nobody here is a bad person at all. Any time I talk about what I’ve done, I feel like I maybe shock people. It’s very heavy to post here. I’ve probably disgusted a lot of people. My girlfriend is the only person that truly knows me and still loves me, but even then, she doesn’t know every single detail because she wants me to stop confessing. Sometimes I just accept that I’m the villain in my own story, and at least that calms the conflict in my brain down. I stop spending so much energy figuring out if I’m evil and just accept I probably am. This probably isn’t the best approach, but idk how else to move forward.

Real Events OCD

Dani.c

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y

i relate to this

Unique121

Date posted: 2y

Your fine hunny you probably didn’t do anything that bad and don’t forget you also struggle from false memory ocd so be kind to yourself

garba

Date posted: 2y

@Unique121 Thank you so much, but the things I did actually were really bad by most people’s standards (it involved infidelity in my current relationship). I’ve spent enough time on Internet forums about my obsession (curse Reddit) to know that most people wouldn’t think I’m a good person. That knowledge is super hard and brings me down, but what I care about most is my girlfriend. I have confessed and confessed, but I still don’t feel like she has every detail. It’s to the point where she doesn’t want anymore details, but I’m afraid I’ve left something truly important out. She says she fully forgives me and wants me to move on, but I don’t know how to move on from something so despicable. Thank you so much for your comment though, I’m sorry for venting! I’m just afraid of people thinking I haven’t done anything that bad, because I want to present myself authentically.

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