Today I ran out of money in my HRA account so now therapy is completely out of pocket I’m scared I can’t afford to get better. (My husband says we’re fine so I really think this is an irrational fear) but I can’t shake the feeling. Maybe it’s my ocds last ditch to get me to stay sick. I keep checking back accounts and calculating how long I’ll need therapy to get better…
Hey, I kind of went through the same thing. One thing that helped me was to remember OCD will throw doubt at us about anything and everything (including therapy). I had a rule where it was "one and done". I had to keep an eye on our finances as that was my "job." So, I would look one time and be finished until the next month when I paid the bills. My husband also had his eye on things and also wanted me to continue therapy. It is very difficult to predict how long you will need therapy. I did use the cost as a motivator for me to do the hard stuff though. When I needed a little extra motivation to not do a compulsion, I would remind myself how much I was paying for therapy and sometimes that would give me that extra motivation :) I had to learn that the doubt I had about the money was just another OCD doubt. I'm not saying it wasn't a true concern, but the fact is, even if it was true, I still had the choice to act compulsively or not. Constant checking doesn't change anything. Hope this makes sense.
@VGH Thankyou…seriously one time I was having a panic attack over a 80$ missed appointment fee (still think that’s crazy but the fact of the matter is I have 80$ and I’m not going to go hungry over it ) for my psych appointments. But my brain exaggerates and tells me I’m going to die
@Anonymous I understand, hang in there❤️
I am not trying to give reassurance or enabling for OCD . With that said health care is expensive and paying out of pocket is expensive. TBH I am doing something similar with my bills and finances to try to make sure I am living within my means. Personally for me at the level I am doing it at I feel it is just good financial planning not OCD at all . For example I temporarily put my therapy on hold because I am needing further verification that my claim will be paid at the agreed upon rate .
You can always do a few sessions. But I also recommend watching this on YouTube https://youtube.com/@ocdandanxiety?si=UbCWJArsEPwwe4Sc
@shayace I’ve watched all the videos man…
Maybe try a couple times a month instead of weekly—if that was your schedule.
@Nica I just want to get better
Today I was officially diagnosed, and a lot of my thoughts all day have been “man, what if I actually don’t have it and I exaggerated my symptoms or something.” I had this thought especially because I hadn’t had a really bad episode in a while. But then sure enough, I had a little episode tonight. I feel like I might’ve brought it upon myself, at least in small part. Having difficulty separating OCD paranoia from real life problems to be considered with at the moment 👎🏻 Gonna sleep on it! 🙏🏻❤️
New to this community. Pretty bummed they don’t take my insurance. I’m gonna have a free call session later today but after that, I don’t know where else I’m gonna find online therapy specific to my ocd. I guess if it’s affordable I can still pay. It depends. It just sucks because I was happy to find this community and to finally get some help but they don’t take my insurance. I just want help.
I've gotten diagnosed with OCD and I'm in therapy. But I'm worried that I don't have OCD/that I got misdiagnosed. And recently I'm worried that I've just gotten myself into a habit of thinking of dirty minded or just plain old terrible things after I see/hear certain things because I feel like I need to prove I have OCD or else I'm faking(sometimes this goes away). Or that I'm just mimicking symptoms of ocd to cope with real problems I may have and that im just really deep into denial. I don't know...I'm just so tired. I mean, what if I really am what I think I am and this is my brains only way of coping? I don't even really feel anything towards most of the thoughts anymore either I just know they go against my values and I don't want them. I don't know if that's because I'm so mentally exhausted, I just don't care, or that the thoughts are true and I'm comfortable with them.
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