Username: bm111111

Date posted: 1y ago

False memory (again)

Another day feeling anxious about a memory that deep down I know isn't real. I don't know how to talk to people anymore, I can't find the words to describe the feeling and try to feel relief. My only desire is to cry out of guilt for something that didn't happen. I'm ashamed to be feeling this way because I know that people don't know how to deal with it, so what I'm left with is this terrible feeling and a thread of hope that I can't hold on to because it's too heavy. I feel so alone, I wish I didn't have this.

Username: yy1234yy1234

Date posted: 1y ago

i feel you so much. hang in there please ❤️❤️❤️ you’re not alone in this

Username: bm111111bm111111

Date posted: 1y ago

Thank you ☹️

Username: calmdownbabbecalmdownbabbe

Date posted: 1y ago

I also struggle with false memory ocd and it really is so horrible. Sometimes I lay awake at night playing the memory over and over again in my head trying to remember exactly what did happen. It’s exhausting and discouraging I’m sorry you’re going through it too ❤️‍🩹

Username: bm111111bm111111

Date posted: 1y ago

I'm sorry about that. It's exactly like that with me and I don't know what to do, it's so hard

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 1y ago

It creates false images. It can take an event that happened 15 years ago for example or 3 years ago. And it places a false image in your head. Your conscience is clean that you would never do that. But know you have this false image. What we have to do is track your bans I use a counter on my phone its an app. I have the following headings. One column is for Resists and Submits so when the thoughts 💭 or images come in track how i respond in the moment. Its the Response Prevention Component Bans Tracking Then you do an imaginal exposure of the event either listening to a loop tape or reading a script Checking Confessing Reassurance Avoidance Mental Review Analyzing Information Research Skin Picking

Username: bm111111bm111111

Date posted: 1y ago

I'm sorry, I don't quite understand how it works, maybe my English doesn't help either. What is the name of this app?

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 1y ago

Its the Tally App

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 1y ago

Too Bad I cant attach photos

Username: bm111111bm111111

Date posted: 1y ago

I'll check it out

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 1y ago

Basically You create Headings For me i create one called Physical and Mental Checking Resists Then i create on Called Physical and Checking Submits So if i resist the urge to double check the parking brake, or the shower is off or if a i intrusive mental image or thought pops in my mind. If i dont engage the thought and let it pass it is a resist If i give in and double check the shower or parking brake or i ruminate on the image it is a submit I create each of these for Confessing , Avoidance, Information Research on OCD , Analyzing, Reassurance I hope this explains it It is an OCD Bans book it helps hold you accountable each day as to how you are responding to the thoughts 💭 Each week my therapist review these numbers in session

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 1y ago

Before i found this app i used to create headings and columns in a small notebook 📓

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 1y ago

Its called Tally Counter in the Iphone 📱 App store

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 1y ago

Clicker plus score keeper

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 1y ago

The only way out of this is ERP , i deal with the same thing the images feel so real. You have to do ERP everyday day. Write a script of the event or make a recording and then say mabe something bad happened maybe it didnt then forst rate your peak Anxiety and record tne time it takes for the anxiety to drop in half then record how much time it took. You do 3 to 5 trials a days some therapist use an anxiety scale of 1-7 some use 1-10

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 1y ago

Ali Greymond is a great resource and nathan peterson

Username: bm111111bm111111

Date posted: 1y ago

I found it a bit complex but I'm going to try this technique! And ERP scares me a bit sometimes, but I know it's the only way to deal with this nightmare. I know Nathan Peterson, his videos help me a lot, I even watched his video on false memory the other day. Well, a lot of information, I'll try to organize it

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 1y ago

@Anonymous If I can ask you a question, I often have a image or memory that pops up and feels so real. It’s as if I remember it. I get this deep down feeling of knowing I did something terrible. I thought OCD couldn’t alter memories. Am I wrong? I hope so actually.

Username: bm111111bm111111

Date posted: 1y ago

@Anonymous I think you're talking about false memories, which is the topic I'm dealing with at the moment

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 1y ago

@bm111111 Its not complex at try google OCD Compulsion Bans Book , or OCD Bans Tracking it just helps you track how you responding to the compulsions and thoughts 💭. Im using mine today . For example i have had about 26 intrusive thoughts today but for the most part i have responded correctly by not engaging the thought and letting it pass or not analyzing the thoughts

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 1y ago

OCD creates a false images. it forces you to go back and replay your steps over and over. At the end of the day. We all have a conscience. If you know deep down your conscience is clean. Remeber if we are moral people we remember if we did something wrong, if i harmed somone or cheated on my spouse or killed somebody I wouldn’t doubt it. If i hurt someone , i would know immediately. Now OCD does take things we may have done and make it worse than ever. The only things that work is tracking how you respond to the thoughts and ERP

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 16w ago

I’m here with you in the trenches.

Username: pluto

Date posted: 5y ago

False memories and past event obsessions are making me feel so isolated. Like I can't relate to the talks about needing to accept that bad things could happen because I feel like I've already ruined my life by accident and I cannot trust anyone because of false memories and I suppressed my dark side/personality disorders. I know you all cannot really reassure but is anyone else out there in this situation?

Username: Anonymous

Date posted: 2y ago

Guilt

Hey friends, really rough day. I want to go to therapy but it feels like my therapists are afraid of me or don't understand me. They encourage me to just keep doing Exposure therapy but I know I'm not going to act on anything! I know I'm supposed to say "maybe maybe not" but that's not what's going on here! I feel guilty for THINKING these things! I opened up to a person the other day and they opened up about their anxiety and depression and wanted to tell them my struggles over the last 9 months but I know that my thoughts are gross and not real. I want to stop feeling guilt for my thoughts WITHOUT endorsing my thoughts. I can expose myself all I want, it doesn't make my thoughts good.

Username: Catlove9

Date posted: 1y ago

False memory torture

I am at the point now where reassurance no longer helps. No compulsion helps. I fully believe the horrible thing happened to the point where I’m living as if it happened. I hate myself because it’s something that is so out of character for me. I feel like there’s no other explanation that I feel this way other than it must have really happened. It makes me sick and disgusted. I want to turn back time and not drink to where I can’t remember. I hate myself so much. There’s no way out it feels like and I feel like I’m this different person now all because of one night. It really sucks.

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