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I’m sorry I’ve been offline. I’ve had a fever which took the energy right out of me.
I’m sorry I’ve been offline. I’ve had a fever which took the energy right out of me.
Several powerful storms over the open oceans that have been avoiding my state all together, pointing all northward, the atmospheric currents all steering them away from me . Mainly just need to get through October. Unfortunate story two gay females from my state went on Mexico cruise, with no passports, no health insurance took a third party excursion doing a scooter rental . Sad to say unfortunately bad circumstances unfolded, they were in a accident the hospital in Mexico is keeping them for now due to large hospital bill and no passports to fly home .You just never know, hopefully it works out with the families and the American embassy trying to assist.
@777Q I don’t know how your system works for that.
I have been on three total . One with my wife and two solo . They are great if planned out well. I wouldn’t mine going on one during 2024 .
@777Q Tbh I’ve been mostly pretty poor up till now. Hopefully I can fix that.
How are things going with you buddy?
@777Q Stress stress stresss.
Are back to close to 98.6 temperature 🤒 again ? How are things in your corner of the world? I learned recently top countries for poisonous snakes 🐍, Australia, India, Brazil, North Africa.
@777Q Not so much for spiders though. I’m told I’m safe on that front. I was at 100.7 when the Doc measured it. Things are pretty cool but the last couple of nights have been sleepless and sweaty.
@777Q Are you staying safe where you are?
Have you ever tried any cruises ?
@777Q No but I have been on a ferry a few times. We used to go to France before there was a channel tunnel.
I understand. I have Mercedes Benz taste with only Volkswagen budget , LOL . I have been looking for a part time job to help aid with these high end plans unsuccessfully though.
@777Q I plan to live cheaply and invest. I can do it here.
I am trying to schedule a meeting to go over my finances with , there is a expert we were thinking of , hard to get a appointment with though
@777Q Watch YT finfluencers too. They will help you to understand it. Pensioncraft is good for UK and US.
I took your suggestion and have been trying to figure out Pension Crafters . Is it accurate that only 10% of people and places in Europe have air conditioning? I need air conditioning!
@777Q I don’t know anyone in the UK with home air conditioning. Businesses sometimes have it.
@777Q You don’t need it in the UK. Tbh even in India I’ve managed with a ceiling fan for a couple of months now and I’m soft.
@777Q I’m going back to the UK. I think so anyway. It is a good thing though.
I woke up very late today because my son kept me up all night because he is teething so I didn’t fully wake up until 6am. These past months have been crippling because of my ocd, depression and anxiety. So crippling to the point I have been terrified to leave my bed. Because I haven’t been leaving the room often I am starting to come off as lazy to my mother in law and I have been slacking on helping around the house. My mother in law has surgery on Tuesday and needs us to help out more. I got up to do the dishes the other day and had to stop because I was having a flare up and felt like I was going to over heat from anxiety. I laid down and never finished the dishes. Today she came home really mad at my husband and I because we haven’t been helping and the guilt is eating me alive. I want to apologize but I don’t want to bring up how I have been feeling because I don’t want it to come off as an excuse. I don’t want this to lead to a point where I’m suffering because of it and I don’t want it to ruin her perception of me. I just feel awful that I’m letting this take over my life. Moments like this make me feel useless and I lose hope of ever getting better. what if I never get better. She does so much for me and I’m letting her down💔
i feel the need to say sorry because i’m posting yet again. i’m having a REALLY DIFFICULT episode of ocd that i haven’t had for a few months now. i experience contamination ocd everyday and have constant anxiety attacks, however because that’s so normal to me and doesn’t affect anyone but myself, it doesn’t affect me in the same way harm ocd does. i haven’t had to deal with really bad harm ocd thoughts for a good bit now so i’m struggling so bad right now. if anyone has seen my previous posts (which i’m sure you have), this came about over a small change that happened a couple weeks ago. it’s now blossoming into a full episode. it’s making me feel paralyzed and not want to do anything, but i know in the past i had to force myself to distract myself by actually doing things. i’m supposed to hang out with my friend tomorrow, but i’m so close to cancelling because i feel like i can’t do it. my physical symptoms are also worse than what i feel like i’m used to and it’s terrifying me into thinking i’m gonna get sick. i just don’t know how to get through it. it feels like impending doom and constant panic. i just want to feel like myself again and happy
i’ve just been feeling so off lately. i’m okay right now, but a couple hours ago i was in this mood where i felt anxiety creeping up. like i will feel like there’s danger when there isn’t. i just get this really uncomfortable feeling that something feels wrong even when it isn’t. and i’ve been feeling derealization/depersonalization. just really disconnected from myself and the world. i’ve also been unmotivated to where there are times when the thought of doing things upsets me. and i’ve been having existential thoughts that do not mesh well with harm ocd. i get the thought “if people aren’t real then it’s okay to hurt them”. it sucks because there are times where i just don’t even care to ruminate and find reassurance that that’s not the case. furthermore, i’ve just been really aware of my existence. i will get moments where i’m so aware of my existence and it freaks me out. like the fact that i’m a living human being is crazy to me. then there are times when i’m not even anxious about anything which then has me questioning and ruminating on that because i ALWAYS have something i’m worrying about. i’ve also been feeling really nostalgic and bittersweet of the good memories from the past. i keep thinking about good times i’ve had and really wishing i could relive it. for example, last summer was a pretty good summer even with my ocd. and i just wish i could relive some of those moments, but i obviously can’t. and it’s been upsetting me because this month has been shitty with my anxiety. as for an update with my room change to those of you curious, i still have anxiety over it and my mom is taking it as me being ungrateful with what i have when it’s my ocd making a huge deal of it. that upsets me especially since i’ve told her what’s been going on and she was really understanding of it. anyways, life has just been a bit much and i’ve been dealing with more to my anxiety that i don’t appreciate. while worrying about constantly throwing up with my contamination ocd is incredibly exhausting, it’s so normal to me that i’m used to it. but when my harm ocd kicks in along with other themes that aren’t usually common for me, i freak out and feel like i’m going insane. i genuinely wonder how people have dealt with taboo topics of ocd without treatment for years on end. i’ve had harm intrusive thoughts since i was little, but it didn’t get to any extreme until 2023. i feel like i’m drowning in it when it decides to hit me and the thought of having to deal with it for the rest of my life?? i’m scared something in me will flip and i’ll become what my thoughts are telling me i am. i apologize for the mixed thoughts that are all over the place but i feel safe posting on here about it and want to hear how y’all are doing
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