Anyone else feel like nothings real. Nothing looks real feels real it's such a hard thing to explain. I feel like I'm on drugs and I don't like it. The only meds I'm on at the moment are diazapam I don't know if it's that making me feel this way. It usually just numbs me. I think not going out for so long has a lot to do with it. Everything just looks and feels different and so unreal.

I kind of get what you mean yeah. My anxiety still bothers me alot though it stops me from doing things and can't go out because of it ?

That's great! Weldone for getting a new job ☺️ unfortunately I'm just not at the point where I feel I can expose myself to my anxietys and fears. I want to do erp so badly but don't have a therapist. I'm told it can be dangerous to practice without one, even chrissie hodges said on here yesterday when I asked that she doesn't recommend it. It sparked a new fear in me ?

Good luck with your new job you will be fantastic ☺️❤️

I will feel like this from time to time. It feels like I don’t care about anything and all my emotion is gone and then I start asking myself if anything at the moment is true. I don’t take any medication so I believe that when I am fearing such intense anxiety and grief my mind and body shit everything off to try and cope.

It's not that I don't care about anything it's just things don't look and feel real everything seems different it's so hard to explain. My anxiety doesn't go it still there and still bad ? I guess ocd depression and anxiety effects people in different ways it's strange isn't it

It’s not that my anxiety is gone, it is still completely there. I just no longer feel like it bothers me at all which in turn will scare me but I’m at such a point that I just kind of sit there.

I completely understand that, but that’s where we have to expose ourselves to everything and anything that may bother us. I actually am about to start a hostess job that will have pretty much only females, which terrifies me but it is fantastic exposure to my fear.

Thanks love, unfortunately I do not have a therapist as well, but I can’t avoid my job and no matter what it would be exposure. Sadly my family does not believe in pure o, when I came out and said I’m struggle with HOCD which is ocd they all immediately told me I don’t have ocd because I do not need everything to be clean. So I completely understand the fear, but sometimes in our day to day life you can’t avoid the exposures. I wish you the best, I know that you are strong! And thank you, I’m going to do my best as well!

I am so so sorry to hear that hun? I really am. Everyone on here deserves the support of their family. And especially you. That made me sad I'm so sorry ? I am lucky in that sense my mom and dad are supportive and try to be as understanding as they can about my harm ocd unfortunately my harm ocd means I avoid and isolate myself from my family which I know is frustrating to them. My harm ocd is always fears around hurting the ones I love most I hate it I live with my dad so see him alot but don't see my mom much anymore because of this and its heartbreaking for both me and her. I'm so sorry your family don't understand. So many people think ocd is just about cleaning and fear of germs. Neither my mom or dad had a clue about harm ocd until I told them, my moms done a lot of research into it but I've had to explain so much of it to my dad and he doesn't understand but tries to show me love.. You deserve that too! Have you tried to show them videos or articles online? You are absolutely right though I can't avoid it, but because the fears are around my family it scares me even more. But you know what you should be so so proud of yourself for having the courage to get this job and the positive attitude. I admire you so so much and wish you all the best. Just with your positive attitude you will be amazing! ❤️ I'm proud of you

So many people are unaware that there is so much more to ocd I think some of that has to do with sufferers not having the courage to come forward and talk about it which I totally understand I've suffered for years in silence until recently. I didn't even know what I had was ocd. I'm just so sorry your family don't believe you. You have this group and everyone on here for support and to chat! Sending love and positivity to you, you deserve it so much ❤️

Thank you so much! You’re reply actually brought tears, I’m so sorry you are struggling with this but i am so happy that you have family who at least try and understand! I would show articles to my family but I’m just petrified that with reading the articles or watching videos they will simply tell me I’m a lesbian. I told my mother about these intrusive thoughts the first time I struggled with HOCD and she just told me to stop the thoughts and I had more important things to worry about and after that I never brought it up again. When I told her it was happening again after having a panic attack at church she told me I beat it I just need to again. I believe she thinks that when I struggled with it the first time it was only a week tops. She hasn’t asked me about it ever again since I told her about me struggling with it again. I apologize, I know I’ve just ranted but it feels nice to just get it out there and try to understand my mom.

You are very welcome my love I try to make people feel good and show kindness wherever I can ❤️ and you deserve it. I'm so sorry your family are like that I can't imagine how hard it must be ? you deserve their support, love and understanding. I would say maybe give it ago but I understand why you'd be worried they might think that ? telling someone to stop the thoughts is frustrating. If we could stop our thoughts ocd wouldn't be such a problem! If only the mind came with an off button huh? We'd all be using it!do you have friends who can support you? I really am sorry. ? And you absolutely haven't got to say sorry! You need to let these things out and not bottle them up. Bottling it up only makes it worse. That's why I love this app so much. No matter what theme of ocd we suffer with this is a safe place to let it all out and not be judged! We are very lucky to have this app. Have you tried to get therapy? Might help to have a professional you can talk too. Or like I said if you have a friend? Just someone to listen show love and support. You really deserve that everyone on here does. ❤️

Thanks love! It means a lot that this app is so open and understanding to everyone! I have been wanting to get a therapist for a while but I don’t think my parents will let me. Money is a bit more tight right now and not to mention I doubt they will see it as something that is actually affecting my mental health. And I don’t have anyone I’m close enough to tell and try to explain. It means a lot that you care enough to take time out of your day and try to help! You and everyone else on here are amazing!

You're very welcome that's what this app is for ☺️ I'm so sorry to hear that! Do you have to pay where you live? Is there no way you could pay for it yourself? Where are you from? I'm sorry you can't talk too anyone. At least you have this app and everyone on here to support you and to talk too! ❤️ Honestly it's fine wanted to show you some support ☺️❤️