Nica

Date posted: 1y

My Intrusive Thoughts Today

Here are a few intrusive thoughts that I’ve had today. But that’s all they are: just thoughts. I didn’t do any compulsions when these thoughts popped up; I just let them be as I went about my day with 2 of them and 1 of them I trolled my brain because it needed to be put back in its place (see #3). I remember them because they’re funny to me. I’m so used to my OCD’s silliness that I can remember thoughts and images without issues. First, I’ll share the thought and then what I did. Let’s gooooo: 1. Image of stabbing my hand with a butter knife (because that totally makes sense) and I continued to put butter on my bagel, then eat it, 2. Images of stabbing my foot with a steak knife (come on now…) and I laughed out loud as I ate my bagel, 3. “You can’t go outside because people will look at you!” So, I went outside and got the mail and waved at no one in particular.

Anonymous

Date posted: 1y

You're probably one of the strongest people on this website 😭

Nica

Date posted: 1y

@Anonymous There are a bunch of people that have recovered from OCD! But remember that 99% of them don’t stick around to help others and instead move on. So, you see a lot of people struggling and you might think it’s impossible for you to get better because of where you’re at, but that’s not true. It took 6 years of intense therapy AND going to college (one of the many reasons why it took that long) to recover and heal from my multiple mental illnesses but it’s absolutely possible. It’s hard work and it’s scary but I’d do it again and again because I know the outcome: pure happiness with my life.

Anonymous

Date posted: 1y

@Nica SIX YEARS? Collage is understandable and especially when you're dealing with other mental illnesses away from OCD can be challenging, you're such an inspiration

Nica

Date posted: 1y

@Anonymous Yeah, I had to do trauma therapy first for childhood abuse and had to heal from that before ever touching ERP because not recovering from PTSD and instead going straight into ERP will just retraumatize and make the situation worse.

Anonymous

Date posted: 1y

Quick question! Do you also deal with intrusive urges, sensations, ect?

Nica

Date posted: 1y

@Anonymous I deal with all of it and have had basically all the themes you can come up with.

Anonymous

Date posted: 1y

@Nica Wow! That's shocking! Does anything trigger you now a days?

SomaticSun🌤️

Date posted: 1y

@Anonymous I know Seriously, I’m jealous 😂

Nica

Date posted: 1y

@Anonymous Childhood abuse since that is what I have PTSD for, but I know my sensitivities and I don’t turn off the TV or stop reading a book with that topic in it. I also do trauma advocacy on occasion in person and online, so I work with a lot of adults with similar trauma of mind, so I am exposed to it weekly. But I’m helping people who oftentimes have no idea what to do to get better and that’s what matters 😊

Anonymous

Date posted: 1y

@Nica I also unfortunately suffer from PTSD, not nearly as severe as many others, but it's from my own abusive father and I still haven't had the time to cope with it from my experience, but you're not alone in that and you honestly feel like a elder sibling to everyone on this app now 😅

Nica

Date posted: 1y

@Anonymous I haven’t heard that one before but I’ll go with it 😅 You should bring that up to your OCD therapist you have scheduled for the 28th (did I get that date right?) to see their thoughts on the matter.

Anonymous

Date posted: 1y

@Nica I definitely will! If you don't mind me asking, have you ever suffered the fear that you may be attracted to a family member or that you might have a crush? If so, I'd love some advice on the matter, and yes you're correct!

Nica

Date posted: 1y

@Anonymous Yup, alllll the themes. But you treat that like any other theme. The content of your thoughts do not matter with OCD—your reaction to it will define if OCD acts up or not.

Anonymous

Date posted: 1y

@Nica Wow! You're definitely someone I aspire to be when I'm older!

Anonymous

Date posted: 1y

@Nica Does returning to your daily schedule count as response prevention?

Nica

Date posted: 1y

@Anonymous Yes because it’s showing your brain/OCD that whatever is popping up in your mind doesn’t matter to you and there’s nothing to fear.

auroramaple

Date posted: 1y

I’ve also had a very long journey and I am in a far better place now. I’ve had a bit of a rocky couple of months with my OCD and this is exactly what I needed to see so thank you 😊💖

Nica

Date posted: 1y

@auroramaple You’re welcome ☺️

SomaticSun🌤️

Date posted: 1y

So cool. Great job! What if you actually felt the sensation of the knife stabbing your hand or foot. How would you not let that bother you and move on with your day? Meaning, not just the thought, but the actual feeling.. Anyway, Congrats :) I’m still working on mine. So many of mine involve uncomfortable feelings that I can imagine, right after the thought of it happening. My imagination can feel how it would hurt, and that’s the part that sticks, and replays on loop

Nica

Date posted: 1y

@SomaticSun🌤️ Sometimes I’ll get tingles but I know what that is, so I let it do its thing while I continue to om nom nom my bagel in this instance 🥯 😅 I recently had an ear worm of a song I actually forget about now but it lasted half the day until I started singing out loud, pretending to be on stage… belting out my heart… and my OCD didn’t like that because it immediately stopped 🤣 I was truly having a good time and it wants you to tell it *that thing* is bad/dangerous/a problem. But I didn’t, so it stopped.

SomaticSun🌤️

Date posted: 1y

@Nica So while OCD is trying to trick you, you trick it right back, while having fun. OMG that’s OCD’s worst nightmare. HaHa! Good for you. And thanks for the encouragement and ray of hope. 🫶

Nica

Date posted: 1y

@SomaticSun🌤️ OCD is a bully and it can take over your life if you let it bully you. But one of the best ways to control it is with humor and trolling it back. You got this! 💜👏🏻😎

SomaticSun🌤️

Date posted: 1y

@Nica Thanks! Working on it! I’m gonna try your method. 😂

Nica

Date posted: 1y

@SomaticSun🌤️ I had a hard time at first laughing at it but even a half-arsed laugh works. And over time, it truly becomes a deep belly laugh at how silly OCD is.

Anonymous

Date posted: 1y

@Nica Hey! Are you willing to talk?

Someone99

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y

You're a gift to all of us here!!! I also was able to climb above the thoughts to where I was able to laugh at them. Thank you for sharing this! And thank you for not leaving everyone here, I feel the same, there's a reason we struggle, it's to be able to get down in the mud and help others struggling as we are. The world needs you. :-)

Nica

Date posted: 1y

@Someone99 Thank you! 💜 So great you can laugh at them now too.

Anonymous

Date posted: 24w

Intrusive thoughts

I’ve had many types of OCD, but I gained control over them over the years, but a new one has started to arise. Do y’all ever have scary thoughts about something you might do? Recently I’ll get extremely uncomfortable no matter where I am because I can’t stop thinking about “what if I screamed really loud in my lecture class tomorrow?” And other stupid stuff like that. Also, this one is kind of funny, but sometimes when I use the bathroom I pause before because I think “what if I’m actually in class right now?” I also cannot control the thoughts about past embarrassing moments. I know everyone does, but I will become visibly uncomfortable and harp on something from years ago. This happens all throughout the day. Also, does anyone else do things that resemble tics when you get these thoughts. Like when they happen I’ll curse under my breath or like jerk my head a little bit. When I’m in public I keep it low key but when I’m alone sometimes I’ll physically get up and pace or something when those thoughts happen. Just curious if anyone has had these experiences

JFL

Date posted: 24w

OCD thought struggles

So at night I have these intrusive thoughts that I leave the door wide open. This causes me to fear that someone will walk in the house and harm my family. I also have this back massage device. I fear that if I leave it plugged in on accident a fire will happen. So I went down to make sure that it was not plugged in. The thing is that I never used the massager that day. When I went back up I felt like I opened the front door (an entrance to my house) even though I didn't. I had to get my wife to check the door other wise I would not have slept. When I checked it I became more insecure. This has been reoccurence with me.

alex l

Date posted: 22w

feeling like my thoughts are too unique

for the past few years i have been struggling with a certain theme of ocd as well as most of the other themes. but this one i have not figured out a good way to do my own form of erp or non-engaging responses. basically i will be daydreaming or thinking and have a very random thought. i wouldn’t call these thoughts intrusive thoughts because it’s not necessarily fear of the thoughts coming true, its just fear that my thoughts are too unique. my ocd will latch on to random or weird thoughts and may also add in that i was doing something weird while doing the thought. let’s say for example i thought of something random while i was rubbing my feet. then my ocd would be like “why are u having such a unique thought while doing something weird? nobody has ever thought about that specific thought while rubbing their feet before” (just an example). but basically it’s like my ocd bullies me for having thoughts that are too random and things i’ve never heard people talk about before if that makes sense. i am just trying to see if anyone relates even a little and how i can accept that everyone has unique thoughts.

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