Recovery

To really start living my life again. Through all of life’s ups & downs. Knowing that I can handle all of it.

To relax. Just to be able to sit down and relax.

So I can spend quality time with my friends and family again. So I can fall in love with someone and make a life with them

Think and feel stuff appropriately in all kinds of situations in life instead of being interrupted by OCD.

To become more independent so that I can help myself as well as help and get more connected with my family and community.

To just have peace of mind again

To live. Outside of my mind.

to enjoy going out instead of just trying to survive it

To mentally be at peace more often because I have created a “spam filter” for the intrusive thoughts, through the tools I’ve learned from ERP. To also use the tools I’ve learned to help others by spreading awareness. So many people don’t know that OCD is what they are struggling with because I had no clue until just this year. Helping someone spot the signs sooner would be great. To continue to live my life to the fullest and being present in every moment.

So I can live a normal life .

To be carefree again.

To become the best attorney my city has ever seen

To get past this constant anxiety. I get anxious and then because of that I question a mistake or action that I made/took. Then I get more anxious talking and thinking about it. I also ruminate. I can not stop ruminating about my relationship and it’s effect on my finances. Every time I get ahead or catch up, something sets me back. Now it is starting to be apparent at work. My director pointed out that I dozed off at a meeting … I dozed because I was up all night with anxiety and took a Xanax . The Xanax kicked in hours later at a meeting. I just can not get out of this cycle. If I do not break free, I am now afraid I may harm myself…