zombye
- Date posted
- 1y
it won't let up
I just think it's real at this point
dustdust
- Date posted
- 1y
You havin a bad morning or day today?
zombyezombye
- Date posted
- 1y
yes very bad
dustdust
- Date posted
- 1y
@zombye Hard to do erp right now?
zombyezombye
- Date posted
- 1y
@graydust yeah. usually im so amazing at it. but it hasn't been working anymore and I just can't today
dustdust
- Date posted
- 1y
@zombye Maybe you need some compassion today, and also with yourself. Look at how good you’ve been doing, and you’re trying to do good. You’re human. Anything practical you can do right now my guy?
zombyezombye
- Date posted
- 1y
@graydust lemme think.. I guess I can try to eat soon. drink something. I need to take my meds when I can. I just wish any of that helped. exercise does help but when I get like this I get terrified of even moving. so if I can find some bravery I'll try. I'm not sure of much else tho
dustdust
- Date posted
- 1y
@zombye (Archery analogy) When you’re having a hard day, try to make your target big so you can hit it. When you’re having a great day, then sure your target can be small. Do you got lots of work today or is it a free day for you?
zombyezombye
- Date posted
- 1y
@graydust that's a good analogy. I've never heard of it before, I'll have to remember that one. free day. I had college but my grandma is terminal so they're giving me time off to be with her
dustdust
- Date posted
- 1y
@zombye Yeah, go chill out with your grandma like an absolute unit. Also, what are you thinking of making for breakfast (don’t know if it’s morning for you or not lol)
zombyezombye
- Date posted
- 1y
@graydust we've been spending lots of time together :] it's been nice yep it's morning! I was thinking something easy to eat like eggs toast and OJ (I get queasy when I'm anxious)
dustdust
- Date posted
- 1y
@zombye Cool, sounds like decent breakfast. I want to go to Waffle House rn but I’m like 1,000 miles away from one :<
zombyezombye
- Date posted
- 1y
@graydust omg we went to waffle house yesterday. sorry you live in the syrup desert or something. did you know they've got pumpkin spice waffles now?
dustdust
- Date posted
- 1y
@zombye THE SYRUP DESERT HAHAHAHAHAHA, and no I didn’t know cause I haven’t been there since 2020 T^T, I live in Central America, and ihop just isn’t the same.
zombyezombye
- Date posted
- 1y
@graydust IT REALLY ISNT LIKE. waffle house is an American save point. ihop is a bit too bougie like it's a restaurant with a diner skin and it's not fooling anyone.
dustdust
- Date posted
- 1y
@zombye Yo, Waffle House is my comfort food restaurant, and idc if the bathrooms are greasy
zombyezombye
- Date posted
- 1y
@graydust we understand each other
Mandy2814Mandy2814
- Date posted
- 1y
Some days will be difficult, just remember, this will pass. Have you tried the SOS feature on this app? It has been helpful for me.
zombyezombye
- Date posted
- 1y
it's been so many difficult days in a row it's breaking me down. I'll try
Cornelius123Cornelius123
- Date posted
- 1y
Hang in there. Here is my strategy that I have been doing last few months: 1. Welcome thought (even if it’s terrible) 2. Sit with it and take deep breathes (don’t rush and be calm) 3. Return to your activity and tell thought you’re excited for next encounter (always focus on your victories and not your defeats)
zombyezombye
- Date posted
- 1y
I think my problem is I do the right things but rush sitting with it comfortably. I'll try to take it slower to get truly desensitized. I tend to be impatient
Cornelius123Cornelius123
- Date posted
- 1y
@zombye Yep exactly
Coop16Coop16
- Date posted
- 1y
Hey - you aren’t alone. I am struggling too. ♥️ I feel like I am just punching the clock with OCD as this point.
zombyezombye
- Date posted
- 1y
I have no one to talk to about this
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- Date posted
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- Date posted
- 18w
it's gonna happen, expecting the worse case scenario at this point (vent)
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