💜 healing shorty 🕉️

Date posted: 1y

narcissist mom.

I know I can count on all of y’all to understand how difficult it is already to deal with OCD. Now imagine you had an enemy watching your every move, using your ocd against you despite how much you’ve asked for support, and constantly telling you that you either don’t have ocd and it’s just in your mind, or that you need to stop making excuses for yourself when you’re doing compulsions. That’s my mom. And she’s threatening to kick me out when she knows I have 0 friends and have not had a single friend since I was 15 (I’m 19) because she was moving us around right before lockdown. Idk how to drive because my anxiety and also I don’t have access to a car to practice like that. I’m so tired fr

outofbraincells

Date posted: 1y

I'm really sorry to hear that. Please don't lose hope and don't believe her hurtful words. You can recover and you will you are stronger than her and stronger than she can ever imagine

💜 healing s...

Date posted: 1y

@outofbraincells 🤍🤍

Brianm95

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y

I’m so sorry you’re dealing with this, this platform already shows me that there will be so many people like you out there, be kind to yourself and put yourself first before absolutely anyone for a while, even your mother, forget about her feelings and actions for a while and focus on yourself! Stay safe

💜 healing s...

Date posted: 1y

@Brianm95 Thanks 😌

ghufran

Date posted: 1y

I’m also 19 with OCD and can’t drive, I understand <3

NODA

Date posted: 1y

I don't even want to go there. My mother. Narcissistic egoistic monstrum. Had to run away from home to survive. Had nothing. Was hungry for 2 years. Worked like hell just to get enough money to pay rent. Had no family no relatives no friends. I still do not have the first two. My best friend is my husband, I guess. My mom utterly hated me because of my ocd, made it 1000%worse, took away my dad and siblings, relatives. I had nothing and noone. I still don't have a driving licence. I don't drive. I ran away like 300 kms away from then home, hid in the capital city and struggled to survive. I was around your age when I lost it all. I get you. Your mom is toxic. If you believe she has the potential to understand ocd and support you, suggest a meeting with a therapist who can explain ocd to her. If not, start looking for a way you can as soon as possible get as far away from her as you can. And do not look back. Is there a dad or a sibling in the picture? Maybe they could help you with her. My mother took my life away, but I was reborn on the day I secretly ran away from her and my dad and sister and never looked back. Hadn't I done it then, now over 25 years after, I would not be alive for over 25 years. I understand you. Gosh, how I do. I wish you all the best in life. Life is so beautiful once you grasp that it can be beautiful even with ocd. But without toxic people. That is a fact, no matter how much it saddens me. Biiiig hug.

💜 healing s...

Date posted: 1y

@NODA Omg wowwww. I’m so sorry to read that. But I feel seen and empowered through your story ❤️ glad you’re in a better place🫂

NODA

Date posted: 1y

Thank you. You will be OK too. No matter how hard it gets, there is a higher purpose to your life and you will get through it all. Never give up on yourself, on life. Your mother's behavior does not determine who you are, your value as a person. It speaks volumes about her, though. She might not know any better, but that doesn't mean you have to suffer because of her. It is soooo hard to break free from your family even when they are very bad towards you, because they are your only parents, siblings,...and it is soooo hard to understand why your parent doesn't love and respect you, but sooner or later one has to just accept it for what it is and start fresh. Your own life, rules. Ocd can be very disabling, but with meds and therapy, life can be pretty good. Big hug and my best wishes to you. If you need to talk, any time, let me know. I am here for you. 😊🍀

💜 healing s...

Date posted: 1y

@NODA Thank you so much 🩷 have a beautiful day

💜 healing s...

Date posted: 1y

I be wanting to unalive so badddddd

dust

Date posted: 1y

@ocdaintit Yo yo yo, homie, stay positive and live lol. Also, your mom should be supportive of your mental health struggles, not criticizing your every move. So that sucks that you have to deal with that and can’t have her support the way you want. Like outofbraincells said (lol her username) don’t give up, don’t lose hope, and don’t believe her hurtful words.

💜 healing s...

Date posted: 1y

@graydust 🤍🤍🤍

NODA

Date posted: 1y

You too. 🍀💞

malolin_21

Date posted: 23w

Hey:) I just want to vent

I’m feeling kind of sad cause today was not a really good day in terms of my ocd. I was feeling kind of foggy/numb and that send me to spiraling. I’m 21 years old currently studying but my family has been having trouble with money for the last couple years(we’re just me and my mom) and I kinda want to get a job but everything is far from my home and I wouldn’t be able to return back at night, also it’s either way more expensive to move or the schedule wouldn’t let me take my classes. The point is that because of that every time my mom is stress tends to treat me bad, she speaks to me like I’m stupid or she just screams to nothing cursing all life and everything and that actually makes me feel soo bad and guilty for not doing anything, I know it’s hard for me to get a job that actually helps us without quitting school but that doesn’t stop me from feeling like I’m a burden. I want to help, I want to maybe hug her or something but I know she will be angrier and probably will reject it. So that’s it, I just feel like she punishes me for the stress she’s carrying and I get it but one day is happy and it feels like all love and the next is treating me like that, Idk it’s hard (also I feel like I shouldn’t be saying this cause it’s all my fault) 🫤

Kammy

Date posted: 20w

This is draining

I started dealing with OCD when I became fixated on health issues, particularly the fear of contracting a life-threatening disease. If I experienced any kind of medical symptom, no matter how small, that even remotely hinted at something potentially fatal, it would drive me crazy, and I couldn’t stop obsessing over it. Then one day, I started having intrusive thoughts about accidentally hitting someone with my car, and I would end up driving in circles to check if I had. Eventually, I found myself overwhelmed by a flood of new obsessive thoughts and compulsions. One day, while I was at the park, a squirrel came near me, and for some reason, I felt like it attacked me. I Googled it and learned that squirrels could carry rabies, which spiraled me into a deep fear of rabies. I became consumed with the thought I received a bite from a squirrel, raccoon, or bat any time I’m in areas that trigger me. It started off only being inside then transferred to even being in my own home. This made me obsess over every physical sensation in my body, compulsively checking to make sure nothing was wrong. One compulsion that I hated the most would to be putting rubbing alcohol on me to make sure that I had no open wounds. Every day feels like I’m walking around in a fog of anxiety, constantly worrying that I won’t even make it to old age. Sometimes, it gets so overwhelming that I just want it all to end. It stresses me so bad at times to where my brain feels like I’ve been studying all day.

Anonymous

Date posted: 18w

I am the mother of an adult child with ocd.

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