Ocd used to make me lose my own values

I remember in my highschool years when i had my worse ocd attacks, it made me change really, and i just share this story cause i hear alot about ocd attacking your values but i didnt heard a story when ocd made someone actually lose their values and do the opposite. So back then i had good values, i believed in God and i tried to be a good person, but after time ocd attacked these values and i felt like im trying to be someone im not. Cause ocd told me "you just do that cause you want to be liked by others, you dont actually value these good things, you just want to show yourself like youre a good person" or with God "you dont really believe in Him you just do these things cause youre afraid of hell" so because my feelings was attacked by ocd too, it felt like thats the truth, i dont actually value good things. Back then i started writing music lyrics and i wanted to write things that are good and helpful, but then this thing started and i got angry when i thought about myself as a good person, so i started to think about bad things cause i thought if i dont feel like im a good person and thinking about it makes me angry, then maybe im a bad person, i just try to be liked by being a good person. So i started to write rap lyrics, listen music that are about bad things anf i tried to be like others. I accepted the world how it is and maybe its okay if im like that too. But deep down i felt that something isnt right. So then problems came and I thought the problem is that im afraid of doing these things and be myself so I actually worked to not be afraid of bad things. I felt the same with sex, i was 18-19 in highshool, you know that time everyone wants to sleep with girls or boys, and i felt that need to but whenever i thought about it i got hit by a feeling of shame and fear. So again i thought the problem is and i think sex is shameful and im afraid of it so i need to work on that. I was completely on a different path, I was soo blinded...and the whole time i thought im trying to be myself and i was angry why i cant have fun with girls, why i cant enjoy partying and drinking, why i cant be like others, its because of anxiety, i cant enjoy these things because of anxiety... and it gave me so much struggle cause no mather what i did i felt so bad. And whenever i thought about me being a good person I was angry and i denied it cause ocd made me believe that i was lying to myself when i was a good person, and i felt shame, so i thought that maybe im depressed cause i feel shame about myself...Thats why i felt like i need to share this cause i never heard about anyone who got blinded by ocd this much... After 2-3 years of suffering, God helped me with sending the right people to me, and then i recognized i believed ocd that im a bad person... i thought the bad feelings are anxiety and i tried to lose these bad feelings about the sinful things(which is so crazy to think about). Now i feel waaay better, just today i was hit by this "you just do good things cause youre afraid of christians judging you that you dont live a life how a christian should live" and for a second i believed it but then i knew its just ocd... If someone can share a similar story about ocd making them be a different person i would be happy, cause i never heard someonr actually changing and working on to like bad things like i did. If youre in the same situation then im glad that i couldve helped you to realize youre on the wrong path and youve been fooled by ocd.