What if I snap

Yup. Every day.

I have the same feeling.. I did one time in the hospital going thru a psychotic episode, but really don't remember it that much at the time. That's why I'm afraid I'm just going to blurt things out. I have to keep distracting myself.

@Bearcat61 I have the same feelings how are you doing now I know it’s been a year since you commented

@Speckles Same here! I had psychosis one time and don’t remember a lot of things from it. I have a fear of just snapping one day.

@Stacey353 I've been out of control lately with my husband. It's been terrible. I have these tantrums. I'm really scared. How are you doing now?

@Speckles Well it’s been two years now and I suffer bad with harm ocd. I also have just never been the same. Bad social anxiety and scared of everything :(

@Stacey353 I feel the same way. I haven't been really able to leave the house and haven't driven in months. Are you getting any therapy or on meds for it?

@Speckles Yes it’s awful. I am scared to drive a car and ride I one. For a few weeks I was able to drive to the gas station and the Publix but am now scared again. It all happened after psychosis. What about you ?

@Speckles Yes I do therapy each week and take meds for bipolar, depression and anxiety and nothing seems to help. It’s like I’m resistant to meds.

@Stacey353 I'm taking meds, but they aren't helping. I'm just on Lexapro for now, but was on many others. I too feel med resistant. I've been drinking alcohol in the morning which isn't good. I'm going to stop that tomorrow. I'm also taking benzos. I wish this wasn't happening. Feel like I'm dying. Are you doing OCD therapy or what kind?

@Speckles I just have talk therapy erp didn’t help me at all .

@Speckles Hey girl how have you been feeling I wanted to check on you? I know this disorder makes me feel really alone and didn’t know if it didn’t too.

@Idkwhattosay oh absolutely! I'm so scared I might have psychosis or develop schizophrenia

@Speckles i’ve been there and the best thing you can do for yourself is not let the thoughts control you and do everything you can to focus on other things and maybe pick up on a hobby, get a job, or do something that makes you feel like you’re living a life. the only thing that got me out of that was forcing myself to get out of the house even though it scares the sh*t out of me bc i was scared of losing control. but i never did, it was always just a thought and nothing more. your thoughts can’t control you, just think of it as a dumb pest that you can just squash everytime it bothers you

@Speckles and be kind to yourself as well. you’re still here and that’s what matters. you’ve done a great job already getting on this app and trying to get help. take it easy and don’t be down on yourself for not getting out of bed, etc. just pay attention to the littlest things that make you happy. when i was in that state all i did was okay webkinz bc i loved it as a child and it distracted me. i went out and bought everything pink i could find and filled my room with trinkets. i didn’t have an extravagant event that fixed my life, but i found happiness in small things.

@snoopdawg8913 - @snoopdawg8913. I wish I could get a job, but I'm not mentally there yet. It's stressful bc I want one, but I know I can't handle it. I feel really dumb and make a lot of mistakes b/c of my clogged head. Thanks so much for your support...I means a lot. I just keep holding on until this breaks. I was doing so well in June and July, working out and feeling good....wanting to be around people and then I just went down the tubes.

I totally understand you. Still, while feeling at your lowest, you still managr to keep going. Isn't that incredible almost?! You got this. I know this will come to pass. Thank you for sharing. I pray that God give you new strength and help you see the beauty of who you are.

@RMO2023 In Jesus' name. Amen.