Hocd and different beliefs

@blazed As ur a ocd conqueror, pls tell me it gets easier😓 sometimes I jus get thoughts to kill myself..

@Anonymous I’m so sorry to hear this. Do you mean you’re having intrusive thoughts relating to suicidal OCD?

@blazed No, I have intrusive thoughts regarding my sexuality. Hocd in other words. Sometimes they get so loud that they fully convince me I’m gay. I hate it so much. Only today it’s somewhat calmed down. But my sex drive has been destroyed. It’s like I ain’t attracted to girls either. I hate this. Is this normal in ocd ?

@Anonymous Ahh sorry I misinterpreted what you meant. Yes, this is classic OCD - I also had the same experience during the onset of this theme. When it comes to OCD, it will feel like your entire world is crashing down on you with all the anxiety and stress. That’s why your sex drive has plummeted, but it returns once you get your symptoms under control. OCD will throw anything at you and nitpick any little thing in order to make your thoughts feel real, but it’s so important that you don’t give all your attention to it or try to figure it out.

@blazed Feels like I won’t ever be able to get my thing up in sexual encounters with my girl. Hocd feels so iffy and sometimes even makes u think u like these thoughts. For me I feel ashamed and disgusted at these thoughts. Even make a disgust face or close my eyes as tight as I can to stop the thoughts from coming.

@Anonymous Are you able to see an OCD specialist? Therapy will help immensely with this.

@blazed I have sessions with someone, who have said it is ocd, they are going to send my symptoms to a gp to get me diagnosed. I’m getting sessions with Trent pts. They are going to do treatment plan called cbt. Will this help?

@Anonymous Have they mentioned anything about ERP to you? ERP is a specific type of CBT, which is meant to treat OCD. If they don’t treat OCD with ERP, find a specialist who does bc it’s crucial for your recovery.

@blazed I think they going to try all types of cbt. They haven’t yet discussed erp yet, however they said we will do cbt. I’m guessing erp is apart of cbt. I jus want these thoughts to go again like before so I can be happy around girls, marry the love of my life have kids w her and have nothing to worry abt . Ocd is the worst especially when it’s abt sexual orientation 😓

@Anonymous Ask them specifically about ERP bc it’s the evidence based treatment that will help. I was in your shoes too and thought I would never get better, but I was wrong. Things will get easier and you can still live a fulfilling life with OCD; you can still do all of those things you listed. It just takes a lot of self-compassion, patience, and consistency to get there. You got this <3

@blazed Coming from u acc gives me hope because u beaten this. Thank u. I’ve seen so many comments and stuff that says. Sexual orientation ocd turns u into ur feared orientation. That triggers me and scares me more. Everytime I feel like I’m getting better, some thought triggers and ruins the progress 😞