So this might get GRAPHIC and it will be a trigger for some people So i saw some video for hocd and the man said that imagining someone of the same sex and masturbating to it repeatedly might solve the issue and if somehow you ejaculated there is a problem with you So i tried it and after a lot of struggling i managed to ejaculate but it has become a constant reminder for me that i might have become gay Please HELP

Ok this is what would be called a testing compulsion. It’s NOT going to get you anywhere and will only make you question more. I don’t know if this will help but do keep in mind that when you’re masturbating, eventually no matter what you’re thinking you’re going to end up having an orgasm. That’s just how it works. You could think of a tree while doing it and eventually you would end up ejaculating. Doesn’t necessarily prove anything especially if you’re trying to “test” yourself. And especially with OCD, I guarantee you nothing is going to be a satisfying answer when you do this.

Been there done that. HOCD made you force yourself to have the ejaculation and you couldn't control your intrusive thoughts and urges. I think we need to lay off Google for a while and just stay in this app for now, it really is our worst enemy ?

Okay, first of all - the guy who said that in the video was wrong. Like, he was just incorrect. That "imagining" thing is a really common compulsion, which will make you more anxious in the long run. Intrusive thoughts can't just be solved like that! Even though you do say you were "struggling," you are still doubting and worrying now aren't you?? Because you've just done a common compulsion, which has obviously increased long term anxiety. It didn't solve anything did it? Please don't fall down the internet rabbit hole... ? And also don't take ANY video advice seriously unless it is from a professional. It's often a bit risky ? OCD is a nightmare, and you will almost certainly need more than just a video to help you. I've had it for years, and compulsions don't help..!

And it is making me remember every moment in the past which might be gayish and trying to convince me what should i do

I think i will become gay some time the thought doesn't give me anxiety some times it does right know im in a beautiful relationship with an awesome girl i dont want to ruin it

Eddieu how do you cope up with it

@shiv00 Life itself is giving me ERP LOL