shiv00
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- 5y ago
mamabird17mamabird17
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- 5y ago
I can relate to this as well! I think HOCD is one that has always come and gone for me but it hit worse than intrusive thoughts a year and a half ago after my husband proposed and I started worrying about if I was making the right decision blah blah blah ROCD and then HOCD got some major hooks in. I started worrying that “what if this doesn’t feel right? Is this how it’s supposed to feel? What if I only think it feels right but I am actually a lesbian” etc. I had recovered really well and then a lesbian started at my job, and I had read a story about a woman who left her husband and took her children to live with this other woman in New York. This new person starting at my job has sent me back into a spiral and I feel like I’m back at square one. I would trade literally any of my previous OCD themes or any other theme in a heartbeat.
mamabird17mamabird17
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- 5y ago
I just can’t accept the uncertainty. If it’s possible, it seems probable, and if it’s probable, then it’s definitely going to happen. And I am fighting so hard to not be okay with that. I know it’s causing the cycle but I can’t stop
woeismewoeisme
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- 5y ago
what does hocd mean?
myocdmyocd
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- 5y ago
I do
shiv00shiv00
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- 5y ago
Can you please tell me about your experience i need to talk about this to some one
shiv00shiv00
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- 5y ago
I just can't take it
shiv00shiv00
- Date posted
- 5y ago
Anymore
shiv00shiv00
- Date posted
- 5y ago
Do you want to share your experiences or talk about it
shiv00shiv00
- Date posted
- 5y ago
I was suffering from dying ocd few years back and right now i just turned 20 and i am in a beautiful relationship with sweetest girl around 1 month back this question just popped up because i noticed something i dont cleary remember what. But since than i have been in conflict sometime it feels this is all real and i am in denial but my history doesn't let me believe it i did all sorts of things to get relief but it backfired i dont know what is real and what is fake now . I just dont want to leave my gf.
mamabird17mamabird17
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- 5y ago
I’m so glad Lauren said she has dealt with this since being young because I remember being younger or in high school maybe and actually hearing about lesbians and stuff. I just always worried that there’s no way that it could’ve been OCD because if it was then it wouldn’t keep coming back, so clearly I must be in denial about something.
shiv00shiv00
- Date posted
- 5y ago
Actually it is a mental illness it can reoccur like hocd or some other ocd which our brain wants to obsess about
mamabird17mamabird17
- Date posted
- 5y ago
Well then I also tell myself “what if it never went away? What if they weren’t intrusive thoughts and just the real you that you’re in denial of”
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I’m confused
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