Hey guys so I suffer from Harm OCD and thoughts about violently harming other and today I’ve been having super minimal thoughts . I had such horrible intrusive thoughts that it feels weird. I’m in constant fear that the thought will come back randomly and the urges will come back stronger than ever. And I’ll actually commit to my urges and act out on them. Like I still Feel weird because even though I don’t have anxiety ... the killer thoughts are in the back of my head. I gueninly don’t dee normal Anymore.

I can relate with the fear that the thoughts will come back. You almost feel like it's wrong not to be anxious anymore, like what did I miss that the anxiety is gone. But it is good that you don't feel anxiety. Try to go with that, ride with that peace, be grateful for it, and let it stay. I think we get used to being so hyped all the time that the natural healthy state of calm feels foreign, but let that biological balance stay if it's there and you're calm, it's supposed to be that way!

I feel the same. My harm ocd has been getting worse lately I want to murder everyone but I don’t

I would say that as much as you can just let yourself think those thoughts without trying to push them away and the more you can just let them happen and watch them go by the happier you will be. When I am always trying to not think a thought I become obsessed with the thought but when I allow it to be and separate myself from it and just see it as something that comes and goes it helps me to calm down in those moments.

The fact that you aren’t anxious isn’t something to worry about. But I could see how that would feel scary. You’re making progress. The thoughts fall away soon after the anxiety but usually the anxiety has to give a little space first. I think You are amazing