my muscles keep twitching. i don’t really exercise a lot anymore— i used to until the anxiety came. i’m scared. i kept looking up tiktoks on ALS and MND (something which i SHOULD NOT HAVE DONE.) i know it can be due to vitamin deficiencies (i’m taking daily supplements), stress (if i’m not having a full on panic attack then i’m convinced i’m not stressed), and lack of sleep/dehydration (probably the cause). i’m scared. so so scared.
Going through your exact fear right now. I haven’t had a good day in the last week.
@louielouie Also been googling and on TikTok nonstop. Not good for us.
@louielouie Somehow I’ve managed to stop googling which has really helped bring down my anxiety around it. If you can’t fathom stopping it, are you able to just delay it? In the support group today Tia said start small with acknowledging it first and then delaying it. Hope this helps! You can do this!
I’m so sorry. I’m going through this right now as well, only with every cancer imaginable. 🤦🏼♀️🤦🏼♀️ Your muscles are likely twitching because of the fear and anxiety. They will give your body all kinds of yucky sensations. Definitely stop looking up your symptoms. That is a compulsion that will only feed your OCD in the long run. Instead, when you have an intrusive thought, acknowledge it “hey there, I know you want me to Google symptoms (or whatever compulsion it’s trying to get you to do), but we aren’t doing that today.” And then go about your day as best you can. Disrupt the intrusive thought. Sounds like maybe picking up some type of exercise again would be good for you. Or going for a walk. You can get through this. I know the fear you are feeling all too well. It has you convinced that you have that scary disease. But that fear is a liar. Acknowledge it, disrupt it, and the fear should get better. You can do this!
@emilytravelswild thank you so much… i’m actually gonna screenshot your message just for when i need it. this helped a LOT. and you’re right— the anxiety twitches are SO REAL!!! i’ve gotta find something to get me out of my head. and i’m so sorry you’re doing the same thing with cancer— that’s one of my obsessions too! 😭 but you’re completely right… that fear is a liar. we’ve got this, it’s a rocky path but it’s a path worth taking. healing is possible… even if it doesn’t feel that way sometimes 🫂
@gayvampires4soad I’m so glad my message helped! And yes, definitely screenshot it for when you need it! It does feel so real when you’re in it. I had myself convinced yesterday that I had liver disease or cancer. It is AWFUL. We just have to keep reminding ourselves that these are just intrusive thoughts. Not TRUTH. As hard as that is to do. I also have been using a free meditation app called Insight Timer. Whenever I notice I’m starting to spiral, I’ll go there and search for a meditation based on what I’m going through (usually health anxiety, intrusive thoughts, or panic attack). I’ve found some really incredible resources there.
UPDATE ON THE MUSCLE TWITCHING: i read around and apparently, it ALWAYS starts with weakness in a limb (even unnoticeable weakness), followed by the twitching. i’ve been testing my muscles TO THE LIMITS for the past few hours, no weakness or wasting anywhere. only growth. i don’t have it. it is probably BENIGN 🥳
About two hours ago I saw a tiktok of someone who was about level 2 support level for their autism and isnt able to go to school because of it among other things, and ive been freaking out ever since i frequently obsess over mental illnesses or physical illnesses and thinking I have them but one im actually pretty sure of me having is autism but seeing things like that makes me think that im wrong, that my family members are right with saying im just special because i feel like i do not struggle enough, if that makes sense, my friends believe that it could be a possibility, but im not sure, i dont know how to calm myself, no one is responding to me right now and everyone is busy im just struggling
Recently ive been getting very scared to even be angry bc of the horrible thoughts I have and it feels even more real when I'm angry or even annoyed. Rn I was not even super annoyed at my neice but I felt a twinge of annoyance since she went up to my face and was yelling at me while I was resting on the bed and I got this image of doing something bad to her and I felt my hand twitch very little. I got nervous and felt relieved when her dad told her to stop screaming for no reason. I've been hyperfocusing on my bodily reactions (mainly my hands or how I'm feeling like did I just enjoy that? Was I considering???) And I've noticed the small twitches whenever I'm mad or annoyed and it's scaring me so bad! Like do I want to act out? Am I holding back??? I used to not even twitch at all when mad and I felt 100% sure I'll never act out but now it feels like I don't know bc what do these twitches mean?, I do know I don't want to ever act out but it's so scary. Recently whenever I feel angry once the argument is over I cry really bad after I'm alone and I pray so i never want or act out. And when the annoyance passes I also feel so guilty and want to stay away. Im scared these are real urges and i research for many many hours to make sure they arent urges or impulses and i also tend to ask chatgpt or here if the anxiety gets so bad 😕
Recently ive been getting very scared to even be angry (i try to avoid even being angry if i can!) bc of the horrible thoughts I have and it feels even more real when I'm angry or even annoyed. I've been hyperfocusing on my bodily reactions (mainly my hands or how I'm feeling like did I just enjoy that? Was I considering? Did it just move? Why is it tingly? Why did it twitch?) And I've noticed the small twitches whenever I'm mad or annoyed and it's scaring me so bad! Like do I want to act out? Am I holding back? Is this an indication i was about to do something or will in the future? I used to not even twitch at all when mad and I felt 100% sure I'll never act out but now it feels like I don't even know anymore bc of these twitches. Im so afraid! What I do know is I don't want to ever act out (idea is distressing not appealing) but it's so scary like why did i twitch or was i about to act out? Im scared these are real urges and i research for many many hours to make sure they arent real urges or impulses and i also tend to ask ai or here if the anxiety gets so bad. Like how do I know of this is actually a serious concern and I should be very worried???
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